What You See...  

SunneyOne 43F
2146 posts
8/10/2005 4:24 am

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What You See...

What you see is what you get with me. I’m a very open person, and am not good at hiding my thoughts or feelings on anything. I have reached a place in my life where I don’t really try to anymore. Okay, sometimes, but I’m never very successful at it. I realize that there are more sophisticated and socially acceptable ways to go about life, dating and sex, but they all seem like games to me. I do enough negotiating and legal chess at work; I don’t want to have to do that in my personal life.

So for those of you who have read my profile, talked to me or know me, maybe you’ll agree that I tend to throw everything out on the table. Here. Look at this. This is me. This is what I think. This is how I feel. This is what I want. Maybe that’s not how you’re supposed to do it. I can’t say that I can change that, or that I want to. As for what I want ‒ I’m not sure what catalog I’ve picked that out of, but I think I have received enough “discontinued” notices to grasp that it isn’t in stock right now.

You know how you find something in a catalog and order it, and you get all excited about getting it. Then, a few days later, you get a postcard that says, “We are sorry to inform you that item #020573 is out of stock. You may select another article, cancel your order or continue to wait.” There’s nothing that says it will ever be in stock. There’s no guarantee. So what do you do? Do you wait? I have, in the past, but I’m starting to feel like the catalog people are laughing at me. I keep getting prank phone calls with Catalog Company X on my caller ID where someone is laughing, “Just pick something else. We’re out, you nutjob.”

Alright already. But don’t think I don’t have that page torn out of the catalog and stuck to my refrigerator. Juuuust in case.

goody9inch4 50M

8/10/2005 5:16 am

I like it and whole heartedly agree. But you wait Wal Mart will get it in stock

rm_connor696 60M
834 posts
8/10/2005 6:23 am

Dum spiro spero, the Romans used to say: while there is breath, there is hope.

I, too, am a romantic. I, too, believe in happy endings. There is of course that cynical take on the myth of Pandora's box. The usual take is that she lets out all this misery but then, at the very end, out pops hope so that people will be able to persevere. The cynical take pictures hope as the turn of the knife already embedded deep in your heart: hope just sets you up again and again. There's a sucker born every minute, and it's you.

Well, maybe it is me, cuz I just don't buy it. Hope is like falling in love--hell, maybe it IS falling in love: a rosy glow surrounding the future, where people are kind and life is sweet.

Of course, life has a way of sneaking up and handing you a surprise. You're focused on item X from the catlog of life, waiting for the cosmic UPS guy/gal, thinking, "Oh, man, it will be so cool when item X gets here," and then all of a sudden, there's item Y, and you had never realized just how splendily cool and groovy Y could be.

In other words, serendipty rocks!

SunneyOne 43F

8/10/2005 6:45 am

I'm gonna need another shot of caffeine for that. That's a lot of depth this early in the morning. Thanks, though.

goody - WalMart, huh? Somehow I think it won't... never was that common to start with. I don't see any "rollbacks" any time soon.

eroticneurotic 46M

8/10/2005 9:48 am

Should I even comment here? It's not bad to be an open book, but it does set you up for falls. Sunney, you're metaphors are something else, you've always got such a creative way of writing. I commend your excellent ability to constantly amaze me.

SunneyOne 43F

8/10/2005 10:40 am

Erotic - Why shouldn't you comment here? I welcome them, anywhere. I know it sets me up for falls, and believe me, I've had my share. But I can't seem to justify putting up walls around myself. I can't do it. I am not the same person when I'm not open and trusting and hoping. So, if I have to take a couple of wounds 'cause I don't want to wear body armor over my princess gown, then so be it. There might be some blood stains, but it's a damn fine princess gown.

eroticneurotic 46M

8/10/2005 3:45 pm

Yes it is, I must agree. You are truly a one of a kind, don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise. Btw, thanks for the inspiration, getting to know you has tapped some sort of poetic root trapped deep down inside of me. I have started a blog, as you well know, to let the root out and watch itself grow. Be Sweet girl, it's always good to know, when I'm talking to you, your true feelings will show.

LovableEclectic 59F

8/11/2005 11:05 pm

I don't know if I have ever met anyone more honest than you Sunney. You express your true feelings - no sugar-coating, no playing it safe with the popular answer - always honest. Sometimes we take a flogging for disagreeing with others. I appreciate that you are always true to yourself.

eroticneurotic 46M

8/13/2005 11:19 am

Would someone please tell me how to ge those damn smileys.

eroticneurotic 46M

8/22/2005 9:02 am

O.K., I figured it out on my own. Thanks for the help, not.

cozykingjames 42M
2 posts
8/22/2005 6:08 pm

Hey uh, I'm new to AdultFriendFinder. This looked like an interesting blog, boy was I right.

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