The Last Time  

SunneyOne 44F
2146 posts
11/5/2005 8:31 am

Last Read:
3/5/2006 9:27 pm

The Last Time


The last time
I heard this song
was with you.
We were in the car
and you were holding my hand.
I was looking at you in the blue dashboard lights
and happy just to see you smile.
The last time
I had my nails done
was one of the happiest days
I have ever had.
Start to finish.
Today was good
until I realized, that was the last time.
The last time
I trusted someone was you.
The last time
a kiss moved my soul,
it was yours.
The last time
I heard your voice,
you made promises.
You didn’t keep them.
The last time
I talked to you,
felt like a beginning.
The last time
I emailed you
I told you how you’d hurt me.
Today, you said you are sorry.
But…
today is too late.
Today is
the last time
I will cry over you.
Today is
the last time
I will miss you.
Today is
the last time
I will wish for things to be different.
Today, I will let go, finally.
Because when you left,
that was
the last time.

softnlush 53F

11/5/2005 4:39 pm

I am reading this and it reminds me of a very very long ago love I had,who figureatively ripped my heart out,chewed it up and spit it out..and never once apologized for it..although I heard it thru some grapevine an apology is forthcoming..umm its like 10 yrs..but it is still nice to hear.

He blindsided me..as it appears the person you are writing about blindsided you..and I too,shed tears and tears (do not know aboutyou but I had at least 6 mini breakdowns over this person)and honestly to this day..I have NO idea the real reason we got together,nor the reason (the real reason not the catalyst reason) for the breakup,I never had closure with him and believe it or not,I have always had closure with every other break up.

It will get better..it took me a long time..but we were together for a short period..but I knew him for,wow..since I was 12 LOL..so his betrayal was the worst. I got over it the most part. I loved again with all my heart and still love..he did not get to keep my heart. I know he probably did not care about it anyway or he would have been a decent person in the end,in the very least to respect the friendship we had before we crossed the line.

I know your pain..so I am giving you a hug girlie ((hugs))

SnL


SunneyOne 44F

11/7/2005 5:29 am

SnL,

Thank you for sharing yourself with me that way. It always helps to know that you aren't the only one to go through something. I finally got closure on this one, and while that helps, it doesn't alleviate the pain either. Unfortunately (?) when I do fall for someone, I tend to give myself completely, heart and soul. I don't understand the concept of holding back. So... even if it is a short time, it sometimes takes me a bit to really put it in the past. This one took a while.

But, I've emerged on the other side. Since writing this, no twinges, no moments of being near tears, and a real feeling of being able to really move on. Hopefully that continues... for both of us.

Hugs!


2muchwoman4some 41F

11/7/2005 1:21 pm

This poem makes me think you're coming through to the end of the sadness you've been going through. I hope you are, although I have found reading about your feelings to be particularly poignant too. I'm sure you'll have some new ones to share soon. I've been wondering (and please tell me to mind my own business if you'd like to), is the man you've been writing about someone you met here on a-f-f originally?

And, on another note, I think "fucking_hemmingway" would be a great handle for you.


LovableEclectic 59F

11/8/2005 12:33 am

I've been so out of touch with everyone lately - you know why. Anyway, I've thought of you so often and I am so happy to see you are looking forward with anticipation now instead of trepidation. A rose is still a rose Sunney - Baby Girl, you're still a flower...(Aretha) *hugs*


SunneyOne 44F

11/8/2005 6:34 am

*hugs to you Lovable* You're such a punkin. Love you.

2muchwoman - Yes, I'm coming to the end of some sadness. And yes, I'm sure there will be more feelings to share anyway. And yes, he is someone I met here on AdultFriendFinder. Fucking Hemmingway, hm? I kind of like it.


Become a member to create a blog