Open Mouth - Spew Emotions  

SunneyOne 44F
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11/3/2005 11:38 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Open Mouth - Spew Emotions

I’m a very emotive person. I am highly emotional and tend to express that rather freely. Sometimes, that’s fine. Then, sometimes, it is just horrid. I can’t begin to count how many times I’ve let the emotion pour out, in an eloquent and verbose manner, usually in something I write whether it is email, a blog or whatever, and then just shake my head, amazed at myself for being such a complete moron.

Granted, while I am charged with emotion, my writing is usually better than it ever is. I can write like fucking Hemingway when I’m all jacked up on some sadness or something. (Clearly, I’m not writing “like fucking Hemingway” right now.) If you could see some of the saccharine-laced, tear-stained, Kleenex using emails I’ve sent, you would be alternately disgusted with me, impressed with my writing, and swayed because you aren’t the object of said email which never seems to sway that person.

Shhhh…secret… (stage whisper) I’ve saved some of those emails and go back and read them now and then, trying to be objective. They almost always move me to tears. There should be some sweeping epic music playing in the background of them. Swear to God. It’s good stuff.

Anyway, it was just a thought. Does anyone else ever have those? Or do you write things and then throw them away before sending it, using the writing as a purge to cleanse yourself of those emotions? I’m sure that’s the healthy thing to do, with the operative portion being the throwing away of said writing. Is it egotistical on my part to send it, to be so sure that the person needs to hear / read my emotions?

(This post is reason # 63 that I will never get a date from anyone who reads my blog. I’m seriously going to start numbering the ones that just tell a scary amount of stuff about me, stuff that you wouldn’t point out in the first or second date ‒ or any of them for that matter. I haven’t started counting yet, but I figure out of 117 posts, at least half of those are horribly incriminating in that fashion, so we’ll start this one as #63.)

AltumHunksUnite 53M

11/3/2005 5:36 pm

Don't write for everyone else.

Write for yourself.

Let me drive. I like the view

rm_milffucka 42M
1 post
11/3/2005 9:58 pm

all i know is ur really hot

bardicman 50M

11/4/2005 12:23 am

I love to write long letters to people but never send them. It helps get a lot off my chest.

I am not dead yet

SunneyOne 44F

11/4/2005 5:13 am

bardic - I guess the trouble is, I send them.

milffucka - Thank you.

Cleavis - I know. I write for me anyway, consequences be damned.

riverman - I suppose to be more exact, the issue isn't in getting a date, but in keeping one around.

softnlush 53F

11/5/2005 4:34 pm

I too write my anger down and toss it..tho I do have one or 2 emails that I sent to my email that no one knows about..that I was so hurt over a betrayal but could not talk to the person about it..I look at it every so often to remind me that I was that hurt..but I will never send it to them..just my therapy.."you fucked me over..and this is how I feel about you" type of thing felt good to write it out..but it will not change a thing to send one day I will hit the delete button..just not today.

Keep is healthy..and there is nothing bad about opening yourself to people who read it..if they cannot handle it,that is their problem now,isn't it?

About potential dates reading it..if an open woman scares them that easy,not worth the trouble anyways..that is just my thinking ((hugs to ya))


nnevjim 61M

11/7/2005 7:01 am

Of course, people who write do so for all sorts of reasons. I write political things that sometimes get published, but the best stuff (in my opinion) with the most passion, is rarely accepted. It boils out the fastest, is the most satisfying to purge, but is (in most? cases, I suspect) too hot to handle. The more mundane stuff has a much better chance of seeing the light of view.
Blogs are different, because you can publish anything you write (after all, you're the editor). That's why it's always wise to sit on something for a day or so before letting it go, unless you just don't give a damn what people think. It's a personal exercise, isn't it? Love your stuff, and would love to see MORE of you!!

SunneyOne 44F

11/7/2005 8:47 am

Thanks Jim. Sit on it for a day... hm... probably not. I kind of figure that this is me, take it or leave it. And while I could hold back, that's almost dishonest. I'd rather just lay it all out and put a "for sale" sticker on it for everyone to see.

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