Afterthoughts  

Straycatsetsuko 61F
96 posts
11/1/2005 3:08 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Afterthoughts


Sunday night, I lay in my bed, wondering when I'll see Rockdancer again, I had my hand on my pussy, thinking how it's his, part time. I wondered how soon he'd come claim it again. (don't give me any feminist shit. It was my decision to give it to him.)

I miss him. Can't help it. I'm looking at it and t hinking there may be trust issues, because of what happened with his ex wife. I think he has to find peace with that relationship before he can really be in another. But he has to do that himself. I also think he's scared. I was, too. But I was willing to take it breath by breath, because that's how you face your fear. This is not to say he's a coward, I don't mean that in any sense of the word. It just may have been overwhelming, and it's harmless for me to think that. No guarantees how I'll feel in a month.

I do miss him. I don't know when that will change.

janmecir 53M
158 posts
11/3/2005 5:51 am

Hi there

I read all your blog about 2 weeks ago.....and felt some affinity with the sense....no - the 'sensibility' that you express through it...

I felt a kind of vicarious glow....that this relationship with Rockdancer was giving you something good....

I caught up with you today: read first your post on 'This thing called love'.....and got to feel that 'glow' again.....

And now i read this? Finished. Over......

I don't even know you.

But knowing that this has happened.... to you....in your world....

I feel as a thud in my mine.....

Your glow gone out in me.....

But of course it's nothing compared to what has gone out in you....

Jan


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