What a Fuckeroo  

SquirtinCummer 50F
67 posts
7/29/2006 7:23 pm

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7/30/2006 5:22 pm

What a Fuckeroo

Okay - let me start by admitting, I am a basket case right now.

You see, there is this man that I love, but he isn't able to tell me that he wants me in his life as more than a fuck buddy, so I had to say no more.

And FUCK - it hurts!

What is it about men that they cannot just tell a woman that they want her - I'm not saying give a ring, say the "M" word, not even asking for a commitment (damn I hate those straight jackets)- Shit, I was just asking for a little validation that he really does want me in his life

What do I get - nada - absolutely nothing.

I had planned on one last incredible fuck to say goodbye with, but hell - with absolutely nothing back from him, I just left & the dumbass just watched me pack up my shit & didn't say a word.

So now I am in pain - big time - but this will pass.

The silver lining to it all - someone I met here who was a great friend through it all - in more ways than I can list - who took me out for 5 shots of tequila after I was a real basket case - boo hoo & all - and then helped to "dehydrate" me more than the booze did.

My biggest fear right now, is that I will get my emotions in control, move forward again & THEN then HE will realize he fucked up & want to try and come back into my life - yet again.

Well, shit, that isn't fair, he will remain a friend, just not a lover - but he will want me again, I know it - the question is - will I be really be over him when he does - wil I be strong enough to say - you fucked up & lost out?

God - I hope so!

SquirtinCummer 50F
26 posts
7/29/2006 7:59 pm

thanks Sexy - I need the moral support! And, thanks for viewing my blog!

kissnlik 40F

7/29/2006 8:15 pm

HI Squirtin,
Unbelieveable, I too am going through this same thing. I was seeing a man for the past 8 months and finally had to give him up. I hadn't heard a word from him in a month. Granted we are both married to other people, obviously not good marriages, but for some reason he never could tell me he wanted me either. He did get jealous and upset when I made a new guy friend, but never would jjust tell me he wanted to be with me, just be my lover. I'm still hurting and hope he is too, but I will never go back to him no matter how much it hurts. Just stay strong. You deserve to be with someone who will tell you every day that they want you and need you as much as you want and need them. Stay strong.

SquirtinCummer 50F
26 posts
7/29/2006 10:32 pm

Thanks Kiss - Although we are bot single - I also know what you are/were going through! Thanks for the moral support - All I can do is say - when he realizes what he fucked up - it will be too late - thanks for visting my blog!

ebandit_64 52M

7/30/2006 4:04 pm

We both know B fucked up, but I as said before his loss will be someone else's gain. Look forward to what the future holds, not the past. You have a bright future ahead of you. Things happen for a reason, it called fate. Let's see where Fate takes you now. E

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