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The picture is me looking silly in front of a rack of guns (well, I guess the guns are obvious). I was not allowed INTO the liquor store to buy a red bull. But guns? No problem, you're in North Dakota now.
It's stormy again in Kingston . This time we are talking WIND. Now, the old Ktown is usually pretty windy, but not like this. The leaves of fall are coming down early, and bringing branches, even whole trees with them. The chipper crews are scouring the city right now cleaning up. The power went out this morning too.
One thing I don't like about the rain is that it tends to kill these pretty blue flowers that live outside my house. I think it's a phenomenon similar to those african violets - getting water on them damages this plant too. The blue flowers turn purple and shrivel up.
There's this girl I know who I used to be pretty crazy about. Hardly a day still goes by that something doesn't remind me of her. I remember pretty much everything she's ever said while I'm around. (Don't worry though, I'm healing.) I don't think she knows this and she has a close boyfriend so it wouldn't matter anyways. That's not the point though. I just have to wonder why she seems so special to me. So what is it? She's not super pretty or extra nice to me. She's not especially easy to talk to or hang out with. I don't know her very well. In fact she's sort of self absorbed. Wow, that 's actually beginning to sound really bad, but I don't really mean it that way.
My point is that I am a bit puzzled as to why I should be so attracted to this one person. Now, it's been over a year now since I met her so I've had some time to think about this. Part of it is the way she touches people. Most people don't touch others very often. I'm not talking about a hug or handshake. These have purpose and they're fairly normal. I'm writing of essentially useless gestures. Like leading someone by the arm instead of just asking them to follow you. Or placing your hand on the person next to you to emphasize when you're talking about them. So why does this entice me to hold her dear? It's just so different. So adorable. So authentic and somehow sincere. Maybe it shows a kind of confidence in her own good nature?
My mood is "comfortable". I think that can be a mood. If it wasn't before then I'm making it one now.