ah, what's done is done  

SlimGoodGuy 38M
154 posts
5/17/2006 1:56 pm

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5/21/2006 10:26 pm

ah, what's done is done

I took that exam today. I don't think I made it this time. The first two blocks killed me. I picked up on things in the other 5. Hopefully it was enough to get a 182 to pass. Sometimes I felt like I had no idea what they were asking. The question might as well have been written in German. There were some I should have known, but didn't, but many were simply never covered in any of my study materials or training. I'm a pretty smart guy, but this test makes me feel like an absolute moron. Maybe I'm just not cut out for medicine. I might have to think about doing something else after I get my score in a few weeks. I haven't got anything in reserve to go on and I'm flat broke.

Well, I am beat, so I think I will veg out in front of the tube for the rest of the day. I might go ahead and fish a little if I have the energy. Right now I'm just dead tired. After doing 350 questions in about 6 hours, I am surprised I'm even awake right now.


luvkitn21 33F

5/17/2006 2:31 pm

I came across your blog, and I am kind of going through the same thing as you. Of course I'm not in medical school, I'm just trying to get my bachelor's degree in criminal justice with a chemistry minor. I have wanted to be a crime scene technician for a very long time, and chemistry is standing in my way of graduation. I am a senior and have yet to pass a chemistry class in two semesters. I only need two classes to graduate. I wanted to give up after this last semester, but decided not to let something like a class keep me from achieving my goals and dreams. I have enrolled in a school close to my home, and maybe with a change of scenery my luck will change. Don't give up on your dreams, and just know that sooner or later you can achieve anything you put your mind to.

534 posts
5/17/2006 3:37 pm

Hey you, I am a Manager for a large Family Medical Practice been with them for 12 years...we have 5 physicians in our office...Tell ya these MD's love their jobs (rewarding)....It takes certain people to work in the field...don't give up what you want....keep striving....Take Care ~D~

lonelyinny5 43M/41F
126 posts
5/17/2006 4:35 pm

Come on Medical School does this on purpose...they are like a microcosm of natural selection, you know survival of the fittest. BUT if you love it stay with it! If you truly want to be a man who could make a difference to an ill person then I say there are far too few passionate people out there who still care and stick with it!

There were times that I felt like I was loosing my mind and I probably was to a certain degree but I think if you made it into medical school you are probably cut out for it. If you made it through the MCATs and actually were accepted it definetely says THEY thought you were cut out for it and that is not a feat many can say they accomplished.

The question is then, do you love it enough to go through all of this for the end reward???? If not then maybe you should rethink your choice. It wouldn't be the first time someone decided in the end it just isn't worth all the hell and torment that medical school so kindly bestows upon future MDs (sarcastic humour there!). I want to tell you, in case you are worried, it wouldn't make you a coward or a loser or even a failure to decide it's not for you. In the end, you would be a man who was strong and honest enough to come to terms with a hard reality that although you could do it, you just decided it wasn't something you wanted to do...and that takes more strength than doing something you don't really want to do!

But should you decide that you can't imagine doing anything else and you want this and all the trouble you are going through is a mean to the ultimate end then, like a wise friend once told me....just keep treading...soon you will see shore and then you will be on the solid land and able to enjoy all the rewards of it. JUST KEEP TREADING and whatever you do don't ever let your head go below the surface, even for a second, or else you will be truly sunk!

All my best,

Searching for my fairytale: Passion & intimacy tied together in a warm, wonderful friendship

waerlookin4fun 50M/46F

5/21/2006 9:20 pm

Please don't give up, I was in pre-med and got pregnant...which is something my doctor told me would never happen. That is why I dropped out. I wanted to be with my child more than get my MD. Go for your dream and don't worry you probably did better than you think.

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