Winter...  

Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
3683 posts
9/17/2005 6:12 pm

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8/10/2007 5:57 pm

Winter...


It is that time of the year my friends...
The time when everyone in the industry goes on critical alert...
conferences coming up, new products, the time that record deals and movie deals, cosmetic endorsements and all the rest start kicking into high gear.
After I got to 25 post,I figured I would make it to 100 post before I called it quits. A lot of things have happened in that time frame. Some good, some bad, some learning experiences...
For all the crap that happens in Blogland and on a.f.f., it has allowed me to meet some wonderful people.
I knew this day was coming...
Inevitable...
I had hoped to succeed in making my 100 post and also to ...
have fulfilled a certain, lifelong dream, but ...bad timing...
Even if I had succeeded in my two goals, my time would have been eaten up, so I wouldn't have been able to visit too much...
I can't lie and act like some kind of martyr, I will miss a lot of you people...so I'll probably keep my account to check in on e-mail and such. Who knows...maybe I will blog again, but it has kinda lost its luster for me. It began as a way to rid my soul of ghosts and has escalated into more of a party and politics, my eldest son is now in juvenile and that has been a little strain on me, I have dissapointed and accidentally hurt two people and I have injured myself...no one else, did it to me... "I" hurt me.
In the process, I even inadvertantly became a knuckledragger...
"The Knuckledragger Gene" The Online Fantasy. Not because I left rude, jerkwad comments, but because I accidentally got caught up in my agenda...
That was wrong. I have been forgiven, but it was still wrong...
You see...just like Eddie Murphy in coming to america, there was something ELSE...at stake... that no one knew about.
Sometimes you can't say things, you have to show...
ANYWAY!!!!
There are a lot of you, that I really love...I wish you the best.
Being the friend that I am...LOL... I thought I would part with a gift.
There s a subtle difference between the poetry, you might have read on these blogs and the poetry, that I don't freestyle...like the ones in my book of poetry...
This is one I am very proud of...I love it, even if there will be some that don't...and that's really all that matters isn't it?

If I were a Ship, I would have no sail...
A storm with no wind, an ocean with no end.
If I were a morning there would be no sun.
An evening with moon and stars, seen by no one.
If I were a rainbow, several colors would be missing...
perfect lips that have never experienced kissing.
If I were a path, I would lead nowhere...
Space with no air, Two of a kind, but still no pair...
A flower with no fragrance or scent...
anger with nowhere to vent.

I AM INCOMPLETE WITHOUT YOU.

If I were a car, I would have no gas,
no wheels and no seat...
A fresh field of apples with no one to eat.
If I were a dream, I would have no beginning or end...
A dry martini without Vodka or Gin
If I were a beach, there would be no sand
and in the brightest sun, no one would tan.
If I were still a child
I would never have experienced a smile
never differentiated between sadness or joy,
A Christmas day with no toy.

I AM INCOMPLETE WITHOUT YOU

If I were evil, there would be no sin
A good man with no love and no friend.
If I were a fish, I would not swim
A room brightly lit, but somehow dim
I would be a man, but still not a father,
without Love or God, why would I bother
If I were a time I would not exist...
and if we never met... You'd still be missed...

Goodbye my friends.

Juan (Sizzle364)

copyright June 2005 Sizzle/Modern Tribe Communications, Inc.

someonelikeithot 50F

9/18/2005 8:47 am

Ooohhh! Sizzle! We will miss you! I am sorry that you have decided to quit for real!
But at the end you have to do what is right for you....
Yours blogs are great... your departure from blogland, is a moment a mourning! :
((
I wish you all the best and thanks for having shared so much with all of us! Farewell!


pussnboots694 73M/78F

9/18/2005 11:35 am

YOu touch the souls of many..
Even though you say this is good-bye..
You know it is only the begining
on the journey of where you need to be..
Time and distance surround our souls..
You shall never be far from me..
From the shadows you will watch..
I shall never be able to eat icecream
without thinking of you..
Be well dear one..
Know your angel walks with you
always*


yagottalikit 49F
583 posts
9/18/2005 1:04 pm

Damnit...........why do I feel I am losing a part of me? Juan...I will hunt you down if you don't keep in touch! (I mean it!) Stalker-like and all!!!!!!

Yagotta get it soft and wet so we can kick/stick it


redmartinigirl 43F

9/18/2005 1:30 pm

I only just found you and now you're gone. wind to thy wings... may your journey be long and fulfilling. And remember that you can make true friends from online friends, but it takes, time, truth and togetherness to make it truly realy. all the best, ~T


angel_wings2005 52F

9/18/2005 2:01 pm

Juan, In the past months- I feel that I have been privilaged to read your words, and feel the passion that comes from that place inside you that very few will ever understand. I wish you all the best my friend, in business, life and love. Know that you will always be with me, with your words of concern, wisdom,and friendship. Thank you for allowing me- and countless others- to share in the life of a truely wonderful -caring- giving- and loving man... Always, Angel


xx_44DD_xx 51F

9/18/2005 2:01 pm

I am sad to have read this.

Wishing you nothing but peace, love and happiness.


dano6332 56M

9/18/2005 5:12 pm

Juan, Thanks for sharing your name and your thoughtful words. I have enjoyed getting to know somethings about you and wish you only the best. Go work on your youngest and make sure that we do not lose another kid to the fucked up system. Priorities are life and blogging fails to trump your kids everytime. God bless and good luck


digdug41 49M

9/19/2005 8:55 am

I'm not one for poetry because I cant understand too much of it but that was on point juan and I'm sorry to see you go when I'm just coming around but I understand, being a father to a teenager myself you gotta handle your business because if we didnt the streets will tear them up an spit them out so best of luck and you will be in my prayers and do stop by from time to time

roaming the cyber streets of blogland


redlipsprincess
(Princess Lips)
51F

9/19/2005 9:37 am

I ain't saying Good Bye...



so long
take care

Juan,
feed your soul...
xo

TTFN


sexyeyes375 47F

9/19/2005 1:00 pm

I am so glad that our paths crossed. You are an amazing person on many levels... and when I think of you, I smile. Take care and let me know when the formal affair is, I want to get the perfect shade of lipstick ...


keithcancook 60M
17718 posts
9/19/2005 5:43 pm

My best wishes for the future go with you my friend. Farewell.


playfulwithyou33 56F
961 posts
9/20/2005 5:28 am






YEAH, Yeah, yeah...what they said! (no, that's crap!) Hey, I would miss you and your writing and because I'm a greedy little bitch--I DON'T WANT YOU TO LEAVE!

What is that about? You hook us with your creative writing style and a glimpse into you and then flee?

NOT FAIR! (if you need to direct your energy into your kids, do that and COME BACK)

But COME BACK!


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
9/20/2005 12:53 pm

Smile4u, someone likeit hot, redmartinigirl - I am glad that we had the opportunity to interact as we have so far on my blog. I Can't lie...I miss it, but I needed to take car of a few things.


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
9/20/2005 12:55 pm

Trav...the problem is when you are not a knuckledragger and you accidentally become one and push away someone that you really care about...


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
9/20/2005 12:58 pm

Puss...You have always touched special buttons within my soul... I am very proud to know you and to share what we share in our hearts...


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
9/20/2005 12:59 pm

Yagotta- You are not losing a part of you...I am always within reach...


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
9/20/2005 1:02 pm

Angel...You have been such a belssing and inspiration daily on my blogs and my world...
Stay as sweet as you are (...and evil on occassion... ). Things will be better.


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
9/20/2005 1:05 pm

xx_44, Dano and Dig Dug- Thank you very, very much for the well wishes.
When I get the opportunity I will try to visit. Until then...


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
9/20/2005 1:07 pm

Jez...LOL...Now you're going to have me dodging and running from 5 foot tall white girls...Its just not fair I tell ya...LOL. You know how to catch me sweety...


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
9/20/2005 1:09 pm

Jez...LOL...Now you're going to have me dodging and running from 5 foot tall white girls...Its just not fair I tell ya...LOL. You know how to catch me sweety...
Also... you know you can always say anything that is on your heart or mind to me


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
9/20/2005 1:12 pm

Redlips... perhaps...until we meet again?


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
9/20/2005 1:14 pm

Sexyeyes...Hmmm...You know just the thing to say to make a guy sweat...
... and walk funny!


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
9/20/2005 1:15 pm

Thanks Keith, its been great... Hey!! What's for dinner?


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
9/20/2005 1:18 pm

LOL...Playful...what an upfront, firecracker you are...I appreciate that more than you know.
Wasn't what I was looking for... but, you know a guy can't help but smile...
Thank you...I will Try.


rm_hinkawaza 52M
371 posts
9/21/2005 9:33 am

Sorry to see you go, and yes I am still paying for it! LOL


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
9/21/2005 12:42 pm

LOL... but its only fair Hinkawaza...LOL


redlipsprincess
(Princess Lips)
51F

9/22/2005 12:06 am

Play it again Sizzle

TTFN


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
9/22/2005 8:25 am

Redlips...


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