Tonights The Night....!!!!!  

Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
3683 posts
10/8/2005 11:57 am

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Tonights The Night....!!!!!


Today I am dancing around my House in my underwear, like Tom Cruise in Risky business...singing at the top of my lungs
and I can't understand for the life of me why...
You see for quite a while now, I had been a little overwhelmed.
There was a short period of time that three women occupied my
thoughts...hourly.
Though very different from each other, they all seem to possess, certain qualities that drew my soul to them.
Finally my mind and my heart, reached out and pimp slapped my soul. The message?
Do your damn job,motherfucker...
My soul had been slacking...
awakened by the slap, I searched my soul to find out exactly who it really connected with...the words in the fine print...the hidden things that she did not say.
A bright light, shined through the darkness to focus on that one particular one...and as I hear the guffaws of laughter, breaking of dishes and general ridicule of my feelings...it was real.
My desire to get to know this person, to break hell or high water to show them that I am exactly who I say i am, away from this a.f.f. site, my usual steamroller, break down all barriers, football/marine type diligence of "Just get r' done, was in full swing. Alas...
The trust issues that we all deal with, was a little deeper in her than they were in me. Who knows what all is going on in her life... we haven't communicated in a while.
There were others... others that wanted my attention. There was the other two that still had my very, very real attention.
Conversations, led to one of them leading down the path of becoming one of my greatest friends. Someone that I can just let all of my wildest thoughts out to. The other...was given the opportunity to slide into the spot she wanted. Plans were discussed, possibilities and dreams were discussed...but there was always something that made me feel a little uneasy. Part of that came to light last night... enough of it came to light last night. I have never touched any of these women, other than through my words. Gentle kisses across the stars, my lips to their foreheads wishing them a blessed slumber. Yet, through others that do not understand me, some that wish to posess certain aspects of me, others that simply want to feel the sexuality that I only Hint at on my blogs...I found ways to occupy my mind, in between the drugery of my work and my current life circumstances... looking at the new faces, too exhausted to reach out and learn anything, about anyone...a little dissapointed...
Ladies, I am a very simple man. I NEED a certain
something...a certain someone in my life. I don't wish to dissapoint you or hurt you.
Will I sex you up, if you cross my path...? Probably
...but then again, maybe not.
The burning and desire of my flesh, will not betray my heart, will not betray my soul...I have stayed away from potential liasons, not because of being unattracted, not because I am immune to the possibility that none of the people I have been attracted to could be the person I seek or that she might be lurking somewhere I have not ventured yet. Many times I have said that I do not wish to hurt anyone, some have even taken it as a EGOTISTICAL statement... LOL... That's funny.
I know what I am willing to bring to the table...
I know my weaknesses, my shortcomings, what I excel at and even what I can become if given the opportunities...If that knowledge of what I bring to the table makes me egotistical, then so be it... Kiss my egotistical ass! LOL...

As I plop onto my couch, music blasting, singing, feeling that feeling inside of my soul, touching something some of you can not even begin to comprehend, my soul reaching out to whoever it is that is supposed to share this passion...a glass of chilled Papya and Vodka... singing...on key, off key, whatever the fucking key is...LOL. Anticipating...

Who am I anticipating? I am toasting myself...I LOVE ME...
I am toasting the success of living through all of my heartache and turmoil and still wanting to LOVE someone else with all of my heart.
I am toasting the beautiful feeling of watching others experience the rush of anticipation and the adrenaline of love, such as DT and 5 speed.
I am toasting, whoever is supposed to be next to me and awaiting THEM to make their arrival, to just be open and true and as passionate as I am.
Who am I anticipating? It doesn't even matter...because somwhere on this earth, tonight she can feel me...she can feel what is eminating from my very being... So for whatever reason it is, there is a smile on my face, there is a calmness, I haven't felt for weeks, There is Joy and tears mixed in with my drink...
and I can't explain why... I'm enjoying myself...maybe I am simply in Love with love. Hmmm...It is beautiful don't you think?
Who will be in my arms tonight? Who am I anticipating? Who is making me smile and sing this song, that won't leave my head?

No One...



TONIGHT'S THE NIGHT

Stay away from my window
Stay away from my back door too
Disconnect the telephone line
Relax baby and draw that blind

Kick off your shoes and sit right down
Loosen off that pretty French gown
Let me pour you a good long drink
Ooh baby don't you hesitate cause

Tonights the night
It's gonna be alright
Cause I love you girl
Ain't nobody gonna stop us now

C'mon angel my hearts on fire
Don't deny your man's desire
You'd be a fool to stop this tide
Spread your wings and let me come inside

Tonights the night
It's gonna be alright
Cause I love you girl
Ain't nobody gonna stop us now

Don't say a word my virgin child
Just let your inhibitions run wild
The secret is about to unfold
Upstairs before the night's too old

Tonights the night
It's gonna be alright
Cause I love you woman
Ain't nobody gonna stop us now

(Rod Stewart)

Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
10/8/2005 2:50 pm

Didn't eat Pizza last night or today Katey...or is that what you meant?


yagottalikit 49F
583 posts
10/8/2005 6:49 pm

Baby, I am sooooooooooooooooooo happy to see these sentiments coming from you!!!!! How I would love to give ya that great big bear hug right now!!! You are a treasure!

Yagotta get it soft and wet so we can kick/stick it


redmartinigirl 43F

10/8/2005 10:47 pm

oh your words give me such a smile. you are a gift dear one and a treasure to read. happy thoughts and smiles being sent your way


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
10/8/2005 11:44 pm

LOL...Sorry Reine, that drink was pretty strong...LOL. Wish I had, had the chance to see Rod back in the day when he was still rockin!

Jezz... Or cursed...LOL

YaGotta... Let's work on a solution to that.

Awww...thanks Wetpanty... did you see the response in the other post where you were being a BAD girl...?

Redmartini...Thank you! I need happy thoughts and smiles... and another drink... LOL


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
10/9/2005 7:34 am

LOL...I heard rumors that Rod thinks he's Sexy...heh heh...
As to your crystal Ball ...its right, but what ELSE does it show you, hmmm? LOL...


redmartinigirl 43F

10/9/2005 10:47 am

well, I've been told I make the best Cosmo here in the PNW!


rm_bella_ 47F
4030 posts
10/9/2005 5:42 pm

Its wonderful to see your mood so high...I wish you more of it in the future....and always.


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
10/9/2005 11:41 pm

Damn Reinne...you must be using a crystal ball...how'd you know they were Black?

Bella...There are ways you could help that mood stay there...

oh yes, wet panty...very bad girl indeed...LOL


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
10/10/2005 11:31 pm

LOL...quit looking at my hinney Trav!!!

Reine...no you are not just referring to underwear and I know it...LOL, but its cool...just waiting on you to make your move...LOL


impish_pixie 54F
6867 posts
10/11/2005 3:13 pm

The very last paragragph is so true and pure it makes me cry...also reminds me that I have much to "toast". The cosmos is so much bigger than me and out there somewhere is someone singing the same song I am. Thanks so much Siz...I needed that!

I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ~Marilyn


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
10/12/2005 7:28 pm

Impish...you are very welcome...

Reine... hmm, very clever...clever indeed... I did catch this...


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
10/14/2005 3:30 pm

Thanks Reine...hold onto these kisses for me...I will want them back soon...lol


sexyeyes375 47F

10/15/2005 8:04 am

One of my all time favorite songs... can feel my hips beginning to sway back and forth... mmm.. thanks, I really needed this..


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
10/15/2005 11:28 am

Mine too...I can't stop singing it this week!!


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
10/15/2005 11:46 pm

Reine...Triple the kisses...


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
10/17/2005 1:21 am

Heh heh...There is always an angle...


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