RELEASE...  

Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
3683 posts
9/10/2005 2:40 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

RELEASE...


Eyes closed...
transporting myself to a time gone by...
A place I physically cannot go...
Wind rushing across my skin...
Jacket fluttering...
the waters edge...
the breeze fills my nostrils...
whenever i have over analyzed...
whenever i have lost someone...
whenever i was prepared to lose...
I have come to this place.
whenever I needed to think...
It is not sadness...
It is not anger...
It is acceptance of my strengths...
my weaknesses...
acceptance of what is to come...
acceptance of my path...
my desires are my desires...
my quest is mine alone...
It is not for any one to jump...
at my beck and call...
How do I define these thoughts...
Am I in denial?
Has my heart fled the confines my mind has placed upon it?
Am I forecasting dissapointment, so that i will not be surprised?
Turning my back a final time...
To the one that didn't heed my warnings...
The legacy of your pain passed to our seed.
No longer in the vessels of my heart...
It is free...
Free to be given wholeheartedly to the person who will cherish it
I stare at your photo...
head shaking...
It could have all been avoided...
Surrounded now by five souls...
My warnings, my words...
pulled from the sky...
from my knowledge...
which of the five, shall heed my words?
Free will...
Too late to guide you, you will not listen...
too important for you to fail on your own...
than it is to succeed with assistance...
Independence is sometimes overrated...
In the stillness of the night...
A song comes to me...
its refrain pulsing louder and louder with each performance
my brain, echoing...
my mouth opens as if to scream...silently...
Release...
Can anyone really handle the truth?
Release...
Are you safe?
Release...
Will you come to me?
Release...
Are you alright?
Release...
Compromise!
Dammit! The answer is to compromise!
Release...
Choose...Your...Path...
Release...
Drawing upon my Chi...I am stronger now...focused...
Release...
Release...
Release...
Release...
Release...
Release...

Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
9/11/2005 12:31 am

Thanks Katey...We have heard...


pussnboots694 73M/78F

9/11/2005 9:17 am

Taking a moment to accept..
what life has to offer..
As I change my world
everything I have ever known..
There is no fear..
only acceptance..


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
9/11/2005 11:15 am

There seems to be a lot of change going on with a lot of people, this time of the year, Puss...


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
9/11/2005 11:17 am

It has been said that with all progress or growth there is bound to be some discomfort...
A toast to hopefully a better tomorrow for all of us... Thanks Katey...Thanks Puss...


rm_bella_ 47F
4030 posts
9/11/2005 10:57 pm

If you happen to know the secret to releasing...let me know.


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
9/11/2005 11:47 pm

Received some e-mail from a few of you that were concerned after reading this post.
My children's mother kicked my eldest son out of the house last Monday. He is 15.
I didn't worry the first couple of days, because he is a very resourceful and strong young man, who has a few friends and a girlfriend. Towards the end of the week and not hearing from him at all and finding out his girlfriend had not heard from him, because they broke up, I was getting very worried. He is going through his Teenage rebellion phase and he is still very upset with his mom, because of our divorce. We split in 1999.
I heard from him last night and he is fine, but he is growing up and soon it will be time to
really release him to be the man that he is becoming already...


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
9/12/2005 9:49 am

...But of course Bella darling. I will share my secrets with you...


GoddessOfTheDawn 105F
11240 posts
9/12/2005 12:32 pm

you have so much strength

good that you know your son is ok ...


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
9/13/2005 12:19 am

Thanks Goddess...I think the strength is coming from learning how to make better Long Islands... just kiddin...


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