there's a light at last  

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8/28/2005 6:42 am

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there's a light at last


ahhhh there's only 4 days left! yesterday i was just plain nasty. i missed S so badly that i ended up being quite a bitch, for no good reason. i didn't know i would get that way. i knew i'd miss him, that i'd be sad, that i'd have a hard time being patient. but now i know just how it feels to have wanting make me into a bitch. i don't like it, and it was unfair to my roomie, who if you read the last post on here, certainly doesn't need any more stress and tension in her life.
today i go to work for the last day at this job. i've been there not quite a year, learned a lot there, and formed some nice solid relationships with kids and staff alike. today will be a sad, but emotionally engaged day, so i won't have to worry so much about my desire to be back together. by the end of the day, i'll be tired, ready to come home, and ready for sleep and oblivion. then when i wake up, there will be only three days more, to be filled with paperwork for the new job i return to in 2 weeks, and packing and organizing for the trip. i think i can handle this now . S and i have been able to have some wonderful conversations on the phone over the weekend, which have served to somewhat 'scratch the itch.' we are both over the hump i think, and just ready for each other again.
we're both excited to make this trip, to meet each others' families, and to spend such solid quality time together. roadtrips are awesome times for talking, and i'm sure we'll make good use of it for that purpose too.
oh goodness! i miss him, and i know that he feels the same way. the time is growing tangibly shorter, so i know we can make it.

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