Seek and ye shall find  

Singlechick25 36F
253 posts
11/26/2005 6:37 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Seek and ye shall find

Same disclaimer as before - very little hilarity is involved in this post! My laugh track broke and silence affects my brain waves seriously.

Self defense mechanisms are a strange and complicated thing. I really don't know much about men's emotional self defense mechanisms mostly because I was born without the penis. They could be similar or completely different from women's. Additionally, I can't say for certain that other women have the same issues as myself, because I am in fact only 2 or 3 women at any given time but we three all have the same issues.

Trust. Anyone who has been hurt will have at least one issue with trusting. I make no bones about it. I have trust issues. Can't help it. But I do try to keep it under control. I can't let worries about being hurt dictate my life. I understand that I will get no where that way. At least no where that I want to be.

I'd been involved with a man that was "safe" emotionally. I knew that there was no chance for a real relationship or a lasting one because I didn't particularly like him and we really had little to nothing in common.

I don't believe in regrets so that isn't an issue for me. I AM saddened that I let myself become so down on dating and men that I not only did I allow myself to ignore what I really wanted but I went in search of a potentially dangerous alternative. Luckily I try not to repeat past mistakes and learn from them instead.

I am very aware of myself. What I want and need. I don't necessarily know how to go about getting it, when it comes to relationships and men. There comes a point when cluelessness ceases to be charming and starts to be a real pisser lmao.

Signed - The Little Engine that tries

sorroWind_eol 32M
92 posts
11/27/2005 1:35 am

Got a littke glance of your 'Little Engine that tries and have to say that my very one is on brink of 'implosion'. Bloged for to long,don't ever do that!

I hope U'll find that answer as I do hope for myself,cause I think there aren't many people left on this earth without trust issues,and that is why seldom(oposite) we fall inlove with the one who trusts us...Luckly we aren't alone [......E.T........ ] others do mistakes as well!


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