I Received "The Call".......  

SilkenKiera 37F   
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2/10/2006 11:24 am

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I Received "The Call".......

.......It goes to show that you never know who you may have made an impression on in your lifetime, good or bad. One thing you can count on however is one way or another one day you will find out just what kind of impression you made....

Well, I got "the call" last night from the ex. At first I was stunned because I had actually let it slip my mind for a minute that he may call. I was anxious speaking with him because my husband was there and I didn't want to seem overly friendly, yet I wasn't as prepared to act like a bitch as I thought I would be. He was friendly, sociable, and wanted to make sure I was O.K. He was polite and eager to know what "big things" I had done with my life. He never expressed a shred of ill will or undesirable intentions. I have to say he sounded content with maybe just a small hint of longing. Not longing for me necessarily, maybe for a time in his life when things were simple. Knowing him like I do, I can imagine that he sometimes feels trapped in his own world.

We had a small conversation over careers, families, our parents, siblings, and vacations. The fact that his child has changed his life, and he actually likes having a "real job" and has done quite well. I told of my Military wife detail, what my husband does for a living, and that my brother starts at Arizona State in the fall. And just like that we were wishing each other well on our journey down our chosen path. My path involving a career, husband, friends and travel. His involving a budding career, young partner and their child. For two people who started out similar in life, we were now more then a world apart.

I hung up the phone and it occurred to me that all the fighting and struggling with roles and identities we went through while in our relationship, he had now turned out how I wish he would have been then. I was honestly happy for him. My memories of the bad times seemed to dissolved during that phone call. Now all I can remember about him are the good times as teenagers and young adults that we shared, and the sound of his voice making the complete transformation from being unsure about his call, to being glad he checked in, to his final emotion being relief. Relief maybe because he realized that he does not have an enemy somewhere out there after all. I honestly feel he did love me, and it has occurred to him, while maybe once having been mistreated himself, that I at one time I was more to him then he could have known then. Maybe it was relief to him that he found out that I am well, happy, and cared for.

In a period of one week I have come full circle with shock, hatred, indifference, anxiousness and now relief. I am happy that a piece of my past has presented it's self, stayed for a minute, happily concluded it's purpose, and then moved on. Maybe with new meaning. It goes to show that you never know who you may have made an impression on in your lifetime, good or bad. One thing you can count on however, is one way or another one day you will find out just what kind of impression you made. Because everything comes full circle.

Katekat79104 42F
2 posts
2/10/2006 12:43 pm

Wow! How insiteful! I have yet to have any of my ex's grow up enough to make that circle, but one day I know this last one will, I am just afraid it will be too late then and his life will all ready be spiraling downward.

firestarter665 42M/39F

2/10/2006 4:46 pm

I am happy for you that this whole experience had a happy ending. You are right in saying that everything comes around full circle. I just hope that I never pissed anyone off in the past.

rm_ohsolustful 57M
859 posts
2/11/2006 6:20 am

14 years ago my Ex-wife and I parted ways and on not so friendly terms either. We have 3 beautiful kids that forced us to stay in touch. They were a lot of very difficult and trying years. Anger and resentment would sometimes make it impossible for us to deal with each other. We dealt with each other for the sake of the kids. As we grew older, a Distant/closeness developed between us that wasnt there before. even though I hated her for some of the things in the past, I still had love for her deep down in my heart, and truly wished her nothing but the best and happiness for her in her life. Time and maturity really do heal all wounds. Even though she has expressed the idea of getting back together I can not do it, water under the bridge Ya know. Time and life has changed both of us, we are truly much different people than we were at that time. They say there is a fine line between love and hate, and they are right. I have found it's easy to slide back and forth across that line as well. I am glad you are on better terms with your ex. It's best that way, life is too short to go thru it with hate inside you

docdirk 47M

2/14/2006 8:22 pm

Glad to hear it all worked out well on all levels. He's happy and holds no grudge. You're relieved, and are left with an even better feeling about yourself. Rarely do we get those "win/win" situations.

An early Valentine's from an old love - now that's a new concept!

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