SigEp4U 42M
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3/5/2005 7:38 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm


NUMB… First and foremost… thank you… that made my day, knowing that someone, somewhere was thinking of me. You rock… plus I really like that song. It has been one of my favorites for a very long time. I can guarantee you I will never listen to it again with out thinking of you.

I did think I was numb… I have been dealing with this for what seems to have been an eternity. My granddad died in September… my wife chose not to go to the funeral with me… I knew then that something was wrong. It wasn’t until November that I was able to confirm my suspicions. It has been three months… and I thought that I was getting to a point where I just didn’t care anymore… where I was NUMB.

Well today proved me wrong… bad, bad… day. Things that I didn’t know came to light… driving the stake deeper and deeper. Oh well… “one step closer”… another song by the same group.

Told my family tonight… I will be glad when this is over… one way or the other.

Unless things change drastically… I just don’t see this getting any better.

Hanging on… by the skin of my teeth…


PS… I know that this sounds pretty down… I am actually feeling pretty good in spite of it all. Just wish I knew where there was a good party tonight… get out and live a little. Loud music and lot’s of laughter…

Linkin Park - One Step Closer

I cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
But you'll find that out anyway

Just like before...

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again

Just like before

tzmeplzme73 44F

3/7/2005 12:04 pm

Here's to you and hoping that with time and a great effort the pain will lessen and the joy increase.

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