Like A Rose...  

Shameless_Biotch 48F
177 posts
6/15/2006 11:22 pm

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7/18/2006 9:15 am

Like A Rose...


This summer, since school let out, has been tortuous for me, not being able to see my lover.I knew it was coming, we had our "parting til August date", said our temporary goodbyes,and I thought I had emotionally prepared myself for it, until he called and set up an unexpected date....turned out we both couldn't make it. It has been tearing me apart...I didn't realize that he would be incommunicato so much, never seems to be online anymore AT ALL, and when he is, never sends me emails or offlines like he used to...if he does, they are brief and terse, a tiny bit of info, maybe, if I'm lucky, and "I miss you"...I had emotionally prepared for his distance, physically, but not this emotional distance, too...I had expected to be able to chat with him at least once a week, maybe cam a time or two...I guess that is too much to expect...and it hurts, because it didn't used to be...

I feel lost and empty, my love unrequited....

That said, I am still very deeply in love with this amazing man and want to give him all the room he needs,it is just one of the hardest things I have ever done, putting my feelings on a shelf until August....

So I am listening to a great sappy love song that reminds me of him...and I will share the lyrics with you, as they bring me such comfort, transplants me to a warm, fuzzy place, where he is holding me, loving me...I love how music can do that!

Like a Rose…
Lucinda Williams

It’s OK, you don’t have to be afraid,
There’s nothing to worry about, cuz we got it made.
It’s just a simple matter of,
Letting me into your love,
If you let that feeling come over you,
Then there’s nothing more that you can do,
Just let it go, just let it go.

If it’s love you want, hold out your arms,
It’s all right here,
It’s safe and warm.
It’s OK to feel good,
That’s the way it should be,
Everything we have is fresh and new,
I will open myself up to you,
Like a rose, like a rose.

Everything we have is fresh and new,
I will open myself up to you,
Like a rose,
Like a rose.


or maybe I like listening to this song because I want him to say those things to me...*SIGH*

Nightguy_1961 55M
4866 posts
6/16/2006 1:15 am

SB,

I'm sorry that you're going through this...I know the feeling; you get close to someone online, you share a lot of intimate details, then nothing.....

Now you know why I rarely turn on my IM....fear of letting someone get too close, then disappearing without a trace....

But hey, you're an attractive woman...you'll have guys pounding down your cyber door in no time...remember that...

NG61...disappearing back into the darkness...


rm_shannee2006 52F
3355 posts
6/16/2006 4:47 am

Shameless, That's a lovely song. It certainly does capture that desire for love and affirmation doesn't it? You know that I have mixed feelings about the need to have a time and place in my lover's life. I don't know what's insecurity and what's real need. I want time that's mine just as you do. I often feel that if he loved me, he'd really want to regularly give me a few hours now and then to suit his need to be with me. But I know that I'd be irritated with him if he started asking for my husband or my children's time with me....so I still wait for clarity about what's realistic and appropriate. I hope that you'll fill those lonely moments with something fun and constructive. I'm putting my attention of my business right now....well at the now moment I'm sending you a comment...but you know what I mean. LOL!

Yup...this juiciness is from me....

S


Shameless_Biotch 48F

6/16/2006 2:21 pm

TY My Dark Sage....good to know others feel like this too.
Love is never easy...why is that?


Shameless_Biotch 48F

6/16/2006 11:13 pm

shannee....as always, healing flows from your words...

*what is realistic and appropriate?*

I struggle with this most...

Need VS Want

Thank you for your supportive and loving words...


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