Passion, lust, and connecting....  

SexySquirterGirl 50F
391 posts
8/29/2005 11:41 pm

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Passion, lust, and connecting....

Still feeling some of the effects of last night, I have once again been thinking.. And as I think back I am amazed that almost everytime I meet someone "new", I have an amazing sexual connection... I can honestly say bad sex isnt something I really have alot of... I am a very passionate person, and believe every experience can be mind-blowing.. While last night definately was above and beyond, and took to me amazing heights, it was about sex and passion... I do look forward to hopefully hearing from him again and to enjoy the "ride" for as long as it lasts... But I also know I am only using these experiences until I find the one that completes me... Mentally, physically, passionately, completely... and what is sad is some of these already do that... but not to the level I guess I am searching for.... I have a friend who is also on this site, but lives across the country... I have such an amazing connection with him, and know we if were to meet I would probably find exactly what I am searching for. I would be willing to do whatever it took to share what I have inside me with the right person, and unfortunately I think all I can do is wait.. I long for his talks, I love when he gets drunk and spills his feelings, but most of the time he backs off... two seperate people, two seperate lives, too afraid of the risks... I dont know... Once again I am going thru the day after withdrawels that I usually get when I have an awesome encounter.. Too picky and cautious to run with all this passion I have, knowing I have alot to give and share, ultimate fear, as usual, is rejection, which is the most confusing part of all... Knowing this is my life, the only one I have right now, and my happiness, is in my hands and my hands only... as I once again think back to the wonderful feelings of last night... I am off to dream land again... Have a good night, and if anyone out there can make any kind of sense of all this confusion of mine, by all means let me... Big Hugs, SG


rm_1Dick4You 53M
34 posts
9/9/2005 1:26 pm

Hey Cutie...
Maybe your friend is afraid of rejection too? Have you thought about meeting him for a long weekend sometime (keep him away from too much booze!!) to see if what you feel from across the country remains when you have him face to face? I bet if you did, even if there wasn't that "forever" connection, you would still have an awesome time (and go through alot of towels). Something to consider...
T


SexySquirterGirl 50F
102 posts
9/9/2005 3:37 pm

Rejection is something he shouldnt be afraid of, but of course I do understand that.. Of course I have thought about meeting him for a long weekend... I think about it all the time, and without a doubt it would be an experience I would rather have, to hold, to remember even if the "forever" connection wasnt there... I would rather haved loved, than not.. No regrets, no what if's. Whatever time I got with "this friend" would definately be better than nothing at all.. I have alot of pent up passion for him and would love to explore and enjoy it, then let go to waste... Hugs, T


rm_1Dick4You 53M
34 posts
9/9/2005 5:58 pm

Ahhhhhh... Beauty AND brains! You're an incredible woman!


SexySquirterGirl 50F
102 posts
9/10/2005 4:35 am

Wellllllllllllll you get do get me going... so what exactly should I do about this "friend" of mine" Think he understands me a little better?


rm_1Dick4You 53M
34 posts
9/10/2005 2:29 pm

He might understand you, but being across the country he might still feel terrible about coming to you or you coming to him and not having the same feelings you do from far away.


SexySquirterGirl 50F
102 posts
9/11/2005 3:30 am

So basically it's more of the illusion, that causes the attraction, and fear that the reality wont match the illusion?? As far as feelings go, he shouldnt worry about that, like I said I would rather have gone for it, then passed it by. And what about passion? Because it also plays into it. Whatever feelings I am feeling, are really hard to completely understand without meeting. The meeting of course would be one of no expectations, because once you put expectations on it, it could and may change everything. The desire is there at least on my side, I go thru some of these same things meeting someone that lives merely miles away... No one said life came with a garantee, and I dont mind the risks, because trust me I know what you are getting at...


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