A day full of memories....  

SexySquirterGirl 50F
391 posts
9/11/2005 3:59 am

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A day full of memories....

I know that I usually post about my over zealous sex drive and that part of my life, but today is different.

My dad passed the last day of November. Today, 911 would have been my dad's 73rd birthday. I am still having a hard dealing with the grief of missing him, I was the one who had to stay strong and look after my mom while he was sick, and then afterwards, their was so much to do, she sold the house, making all the arrangements, and worrying so much about my mom's state of mind. They were married 42 years, and my dad still called her his bride. I get tears in my eyes as I think back to that last week of his life, and the overwhelming love I felt, and saw between my mom and dad. They were with out a doubt, a rareity, and they had become best friends during their marriage, and were closer than ever when he passed away. I put my grieving on hold to try and stay strong for my mom, my kids and my brother. Today I am not feeling so strong. My dad, is without a doubt, the greatest man I know, and one of kind. A true gentleman, who taught me so many incrediable things througthout my lifetime, and unfortunately it took his death to realize some of them. I wanted to do this blog in loving memory, to my hero, my angel, my dad. I love you so much dad, and I miss you! Happy birthday, rest in peace.

NaughtyAssMan4U 59M

9/11/2005 6:35 am

You know, I was updating my blog for the day and I was feeling thankful. I don't know why and I didn't even realize that today was 911. Funny how things workout or don't workout. Your blog was beautiful SSG. I wish you, your family and especially your father, peace. Take care.

digdug41 49M

9/11/2005 8:19 am

we are spiritual beings having a human experience dont fret just cuz you cant see him doesnt mean he is not with you all its just not communicating to him thats so dam hurtfull just talk to him and he'll hear you ssg and you stay strong my prayers are with you

roaming the cyber streets of blogland

SexySquirterGirl 50F
102 posts
9/11/2005 3:07 pm

NNAman~I too feel thankful, thankful for the many years I had with him, knowning he lived a full and peaceful life, and went out with love and dignity, as he would have wanted too.. I have my kids and my mother and my brother.. I am a lucky girl. Thank you for you comments, they meant alot to me... Hugs SSG

SexySquirterGirl 50F
102 posts
9/11/2005 3:08 pm

DigDug~I know my dad is with me always, and I do talk to him, just today is a bit harder then the rest. I will be okay, I have to be.. Not only is it birthday, but it's also grandparents day. To all you grandparents, have a great and loving day!! Hugs, SSG

rm_1Dick4You 53M
34 posts
9/11/2005 3:34 pm

Where can I meet ya to give ya a warm, tight hug? You're a wonderful person SSG.

toothysmile 50M
16515 posts
9/11/2005 7:19 pm

You have my outmost sympathy.
May you live a long, healthy and happy life so that the victims of 9-11 and your father continue to live in your memory...
A touching post.

SexySquirterGirl 50F
102 posts
9/11/2005 9:43 pm

1dick~dont you know by know I would meet you anywhere for that hug!!! Thank you sweetie!!! Big tight cyber hug!!! T

SexySquirterGirl 50F
102 posts
9/11/2005 9:44 pm

Toothysmile~Thank you for your kinds words, it helps, it really does... Hugs, T

DesertWolfie 45M

9/11/2005 10:26 pm

SSG - Your father's cherished memories and the values and lessons taught and instilled in you ensured that he will never truly leave you. He will always be a part of you. The fact that you recognize and remember his love and caring proves that he is still here with you - and for that he is a great man. Kisses, and a big tight hug for you. DW

SexySquirterGirl 50F
102 posts
9/13/2005 1:48 am

Dw~Thanks for beautiful words, and the kisses and big tight hug... It was greatly appreciated... Hugs SSG

SexySquirterGirl 50F
102 posts
9/13/2005 1:49 am

humboldthonni~I do forget sometimes that he is right here with me, of course I know it, just forget it at times.. Thanks for your kind words, Hugs SSG

DesertWolfie 45M

9/13/2005 6:15 am

Anytime, SSG. If you ever need to talk, let me know...we can meet for coffee and talk if you need someone to listen.

ShavenStud05 43M

9/17/2005 9:33 pm

Sorry for your loss. Hope things are going well.

zhaodechun 41M
1 post
9/19/2005 2:05 am

911 is an unforgetable day for Americans and we support all of you agaist terrorism.

rm_rome211 60M
26 posts
9/20/2005 11:27 am

First of all, my condolences for your infinite loss of your dad. Life has lots of good and bad surprizes doesn't it. Yet it is these exact times that our true-selves come to the foreground and forces us to deal with the deeper level of live that exists. I know my words may seem transparent and ethereal since they come from a perfect stranger but we are of the same species and share finite time much the same way, with other people. In closing, let me say that he (your father) invested in you so very much and infused you with the kind of transcendent values we humans spend a lifetime trying to figure out what they are but you seem closer to understanding those mysteries than the rest of us. Stay true to what you know he taught you from his heart for you know that then and now they have proven to be true. If you ever want to chat or possibly grieve in a more private venue, look me up. (Encourager)

SexySquirterGirl 50F
102 posts
9/23/2005 9:05 pm

Thank you all for the additional comments, they mean alot to me and bring added peace... Rome211~Your words were well spoken, and truely felt (as were everyone's elses) but I do agree that my dad lives on thru me, and his wonderful words of wisdom, and lessons he spent my entire lifetime teaching, and I am very grateful for that. Thanks again everyone...SSG

Monterey4fun 42M

9/23/2005 9:48 pm

SSG, I still have my parents with me, but lost someone very special to me about four years ago, my Grandmother. I worked for her during the summers when I was in college, and we forged a very special bond over cups of coffee and chatty lunches. While I openly expressed my grief and sorrow when she passed, my father did not because he thought he had to be the strong one, just like you thought you had to be strong for your family. While that has its merits, you have to let yourself feel the sorrow of your loss. Your father was clearly a good husband and father and someone you loved, respected, and looked up to, and in a way you are honoring him by allowing yourself to feel the pain of that loss. It is human to feel the loss of someone so close to us, and it is part of the healing process. But it is also a way for us to honor their memory, the memory of someone who helped us become who we are. Keep smiling, because your grief doesn't mean you aren't strong. Your acknowledgement of the magnitude of your loss shows you are emotionally stronger than someone who refuses to acknowledge their loss and feel their true emotions. I don't know what I enjoy more, your sexy blogs or your your heart-felt, truly revealing blogs. Your articulate expression of both aspects of your life shows your emotional depth and I can say, without a doubt, you are a person that would be worth knowing in whatever the capacity. Keep your chin up and the blogs, of all kinds, coming. I offer you my heart-felt condolences on your loss.

SexySquirterGirl 50F
102 posts
9/25/2005 1:33 am

Monterey~What a powerful post. These responses to my blogs, both the sexy ones, and my more revealing ones have warmed my heart and touched my life. You definately hit the nail on the head, I am definately an emotional person, yet love to talk about my sexual, secure side of myself. I often go back and read my blogs, and find strength in my thoughts, the comments and support of others that read them, and sometimes am amazed at some of the things I chose to write about. Writing is 2nd nature for me, something I have done since a teen. I find comfort, or relief, or sometimes joy, rereading events I have gone thru. And sometimes I just shake my head, my cheeks growing red, wondering what the heck was I thinking when I wrote about THAT. Big Hugs, SSG

phoenixsunlvr 60M
78 posts
9/28/2005 7:54 pm

SSG--I wandered onto your blog after seeing your profile for the first time. Having lost my dad three years ago, the loss is still with me at times. But I cherish the memories of such wonderful times we had. I learned everything about courage and honor from him, and how a man should behave. He will always be my hero as your dad was to you. You have my heartfelt sympathies, but remember that the ones we love are always with us as we go down life's road. You're a very thoughtful woman and I wish you the best. Take care. Marc

joe55551958 58M

11/29/2005 2:28 pm

You wrote a very nice eugology, if that is the correct word for your father.

Mack562000 60M
1 post
12/3/2005 2:37 am

I learned more about you in the 2 minutes it took to read your blog than I did reviewing all the other blogs. It is obvious to me that you are very passionate. What ever you do you do well and with passion. You are a good woman too. I am sorry about your dad. I can remember how bad I hurt. I hope you don't hurt that bad! The only benefit I get is from knowing from time to time that he is with me. Doing stupid stuff is when he arrives. I really think that he is there. Good luck. I look in on you later. Matt

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