Blame IT on the Moon  

SexyRycheBabe 45F
1292 posts
12/15/2005 12:08 pm

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Blame IT on the Moon


It's TEN days before Christmas. I have not gotten a call from Idiot (I call him that rather than "my baby's daddy".) to ask me what C (said child) wants this year. For those of you who have been reading a while, I made a comment once that said something along the lines of "I'm afraid the father of my child has abandoned my son since I told him I would not longer sleep with him." (I can't remember exactly!) Anyway, so I've taken his recent silence as that. There were no calls on Halloween, Thanksgiving or any other day in between. He has not talked to C since 10-06-05.

Anyway, last night I have a dream that he calls me. That we're talking on the phone and I just tell his sorry ass off. I remember feeling very powerful about it in the dream.

Him and I have this sort of psychic connection thing. Actually, I think it's more on my part than on his but, regardless, it still exists. Almost every time I dream about him, he pops up. Esp. when it's been a long period of silence.

He had talked about coming and spending the week after Christmas with his parents (they live in Kerrville, he lives in Florida) but who knows what his plans are now. It would NOT surprise me AT ALL for him just to call on his way here or once he got here to say he was here. I think he thinks he could always go Christmas shopping when he is here.

Now I'm just worried because I had such a strong dream. It wasn't vague or fuzzy, at all. It was like he had come back with the intention of finding out where I stood with him. So, in my dream I remember feeling so grateful that I finally found the strength to break that connection with him and that I was happily moved on. I wasn't shaking on the phone with him because of desire (too strong of a word, can't think of another one) but of RAGE. Pissed-the-fuck-off kind of rage.

I digress.

I'm worried. I can't shake this feeling of complete dread.

To top it all off, we get C's Christmas card in the mail from his parents today. Stupid card. Absolutely nothing personal or personable about it with $20.00 inside. Big deal!! Yet, I'm going to sit down in a little while, write a thank you note and have C "sign" it and mail it anyway.

I need some air. Too pissed to write anymore.

Satyr48 68M
1778 posts
12/15/2005 1:42 pm

Don't blame you... go for air... At least you're keeping "C" #1 in your life. Great Mom! Happy Holidays! You deserve it...

Pleasing women in unbelievable ways for 45 years...
You could be next...


Satyr48 68M
1778 posts
12/15/2005 1:46 pm

Hope this doesn't "double"

I don't blame you, go for air...
At least you keep "C" #1... You're a great Mom...
Happy Holidays... You Deserve it...

Pleasing women in unbelievable ways for 45 years...
You could be next...


SexyRycheBabe 45F
820 posts
12/15/2005 3:32 pm

It did double but that's ok... I'll take "great mom" compliments ANYTIME ANYONE wants to throw them my way.

I am a damn good mom if I do say so myself.


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