Love  

SexcravingBBW 46F  
256 posts
2/27/2006 9:59 pm

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6/17/2010 10:24 am

Love


Love always seemed so easy for me to give so I don't understand why its so difficult for others. I was brought up in a house where my mom and dad showed they loved each other all the time. But they didn't show us kids that much. I mean, yeah I knew my parents loved me.. but did they tell me all the time or things like that, no. I just grew up thinking that I will always treat people how I want to be treated. I would love someone putting little notes in my lunches or having a bath all ready for me when I get home. So I do these for my boyfriend (along with many other things) but I don't get them in return. Now when it comes to sex.. I do things for my man because I love making him happy.. but its like pulling teeth to get him to do what makes me happy in bed.

It's weird, I know more about sexual fantasies of some guys on AdultFriendFinder then I know about my own boyfriend of 2 years. I ask, I even downloaded a list off a BDSM website of all the different things you like or want to try.. all he has to do is check off what he likes .. nope he couldn't do that... He says he loves what we do.. well, of course he does.. the scene is usually the same.. after me bugging him that I want to make love to him.. he finally gives in and says hes horny.. I start giving him head.. I either finish him that way.. or he gets off the bed pulls me to the side and starts fucking me doggie style and then he cums.. that's it.. I think he thinks that just because I have a high sex drive I am always horny.. and he doesn't need to do anything.. DUH.. not so..then the few times he does finger me.. its like.. he looks bored... so I fake and/or tell him I want him to fuck me.. then it gets done and over with.

I even try to flirt with him.. I have even told him to treat me like a sex object.. he says he can't..I'm his girlfriend.. YEAH AND??? I know he loves me..so if he makes sexual comments that is great to me.. I am the one he should make comments to..

He says to me.. all you want is sex.. That's not what I want (ok, thats not all that I want).. I want to lie in bed and kiss and touch and laugh.. just teasing and flirting..without making love.. I just want that closeness.. that affection.. that attention... what is so wrong with that?? I love being close to someone.. its me.. that is who I am.. I need that.. I want to feel someones arms around me.. someone kissing me... and yes someone making love to me..

NOW is there any wonder why I am on AdultFriendFinder?????

rm_sawyer512 59M
275 posts
3/13/2006 8:44 am

Have you ever had a long conversation with him and told him EXACTLY what you have said in this post? If so then maybe its time for you to move on!


rm_Thrantor2 44M/47F
283 posts
6/24/2008 7:59 am

Sounds like he might just not be someone who is wired that way. Although, I'm not sure he's being selfish or just doesn't think that way. Although, him not being willing to at least mention things he might be interested in is kinda unfortunate. Course, you never know what you like until you try it. It's cool that you are so willing to try new things with him.

Lucky boy.


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