I think I could stand to do this alot...  

Seriously_Real 48M
1458 posts
6/19/2006 5:48 am

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I think I could stand to do this alot...

So...umm...I'm going to exercise restraint, here.

(I'll wait until you compose yourself from the shock. Take your time....all better? Okay. Continuemos....)

Once upon a time, there was a boy who had this thing about getting all up in his head. He'd get up in his head and it would affect and color all the shit around him.

Sometimes it would cause him to do and say stupid things, and more importantly, affect how he interacted with someone in his life. Whatever it was in his head would be examined, reviewed, analyzed, worried over, stressed over, and obsessed upon until the thought was tightly wound like a garage-door spring fully loaded and ready to spin out of control. When he got that way, all he wanted to do was let the spring go, and because he was such a woman, that meant he would want to TALK about it until he was out of words.

This used to be a problem. Then, one day, he found this girl. She was beautiful, sexy, smart as hell, funny, talented (in so many ways), and alot like him. However, because one of the principal differences between her and him was her grounded-ness and adherence to the reality of life, she could understand the boy's tendency to get, well, obsessive on things and want to talk about things like the half-a-woman he is. This meant that she was able to be patient with him as he worked through his head, and let him spin it all out until the spring was unwound and he was back to reality again.

I was that guy again last night. And last night My Imaginary let me go through it all. Let me spin. And when it was done? She simply let me be held. Because I'm a girl like that sometimes, too.

That was last night. This morning, the dogs started howling at 5:30. She got up. She took care of them. And then she came back and made love to me. We got up then, showered together, had some coffee, and decided that it would be just fine with us if we could make that a regular morning routine. For the forseeable future.

Because I think I could stand to do this alot.

And people? I know I once said I felt like Custer against her onslaught...but I have to revise that. Custer never surrended. He died fighting it.

Fuck that. Here's my flag. I'm not going to miss this....

--Seriously (yeah, I know)


GoddessOfTheDawn 105F
11238 posts
6/19/2006 6:26 am


~ smilez ~

~ hidez flag ~


Seriously_Real replies on 6/19/2006 7:32 am:
Thanks for the smiles, GOTD. And you can keep that flag wherever you like. It's yours....

rm_1hotwahine 62F
21091 posts
6/19/2006 6:32 am

So...umm...I'm going to exercise restraint, here.

Yeah, right. I believed it. Uh huh.

Yeah, I'm still [blog 1hotwahine]


Seriously_Real replies on 6/19/2006 7:32 am:
It was restrained. Trust me on this. Or, you know, don't. I'll come up there, buy you lotsa booze and make you believe me when you're weak, dammit.

MoonRise9 58M

6/19/2006 6:37 am

Being heard, being held, for the forseeable future...
Where do I sign up???


Seriously_Real replies on 6/19/2006 7:33 am:
Dude...dude....you don't sign up....you get fucking DRAFTED....remember?

DIVISION77 39M  
8321 posts
6/19/2006 6:44 am

I'm skeptical regarding every word.

I still think some things remain unresolved from your prior relationship.

That's more realistic.

DIV

"My every move is a calculated step, to bring me closer to embrace an early death." -Tupac Shakur


Seriously_Real replies on 6/19/2006 7:40 am:
Every word? Every? sigh. Okay, you can do that.

There will always be unresolved things from things that end, DIV. I have unresolved things from every relationship I've ever had, to an extent. If, however, you mean that I have not moved on to the point where I can healthily say that I am capable of going forward without repeating past mistakes, well there I am going to disagree with you.

You know how I know? Because that is ALL I EVER THINK OR TALK ABOUT anymore. It would be impossible for me to fool myself because I spent nearly every waking hour making sure that is NOT what I am doing. I liken it to the Emperor's New Clothes thing....It is one thing to be fooled into thinking that you are wearing the clothes you think you are, but once you realize you ARE NOT wearing it....well. The knowing is all you ever need to know. And I know. I know because I am aware.

That doesn't mean I don't have my own issues. Hell, man, I'm fucking human. Of course I do. But I also know when I'm prepared to do some things. The last relationship I had may well have been the best thing that has ever happened to me because of the growth I experienced. That does not mean it was meant to last. She and I are quite clear on such things with each other, and we are still in each other's lives. I owe her much, yes, but that does not shackle me to the past. Or her, either.

I appreciate the thought-provoking response, and I wish nothing but Easter baskets of rainbows and kittens for you, because I know how much that would irritate the fuck out of you....heh.

--SR

angelofmercy5 58F
17881 posts
6/19/2006 7:26 am

Well, it sounds like a great way to start every day to me!


Seriously_Real replies on 6/19/2006 7:41 am:
Yes, please. More, please.

(Thanks for stopping by, Angel...)

MoonRise9 58M

6/19/2006 10:22 am

    Quoting MoonRise9:
    Being heard, being held, for the forseeable future...
    Where do I sign up???
Seriously_Real replies on 6/19/2006 10:33 am:
Dude...dude....you don't sign up....you get fucking DRAFTED....remember?

Well fine then, where's the Draft Board? I need to get my deferment status changed.


Seriously_Real replies on 6/19/2006 12:35 pm:
Your draft board is your great "out there," I think. You file your deferment with your reticence in the circular file of your fears. And hop to it, man. You ain't so young anymore, you know? Heh.

Mermaidslut 49F

6/19/2006 10:42 am

Good for you flower boy! surrender now while there is still hope... hehehe

___________________

Narcissus was a handsome Greek youth who rejected the desperate advances of the nymph Echo. As a punishment, he was doomed to fall in love with his own reflection in a pool of water. Unable to consummate his love, Narcissus pined away and changed into the flower that bears his name, the narcissus.


Seriously_Real replies on 6/19/2006 12:37 pm:
See, this is where the mythos of Seriously breaks down....I have NEVER EVER EVER been known to say no to a nymph.

Mermaidslut 49F

6/19/2006 3:01 pm

LMAO!!


Seriously_Real replies on 6/19/2006 3:24 pm:
ALERT! ALERT! A mermaid is missing an ass! Alert!

(Umm...mermaids don't have asses, do they?)

sexyariesgirl 57F

6/19/2006 3:50 pm

*Grinning from ear to ear*

Power To FOK


Seriously_Real replies on 6/25/2006 3:09 pm:
Oh, god yes. I was too. Still am!

FeistySyn 51F

6/19/2006 8:27 pm

Pretty smart thinking... for a lawyer... you obviously don't work at the firm I'm at

Apparently the depth of depravity here is bottomless... don't you feel right at home?
~~~~~


Seriously_Real replies on 6/25/2006 3:09 pm:
Sigh...Yes, Synn...truth is, most of my smart thinking is on HERE....heh.

rm_truedom2 55M
663 posts
6/19/2006 9:03 pm

It's nice to have routines


Seriously_Real replies on 6/25/2006 3:10 pm:
This is a routine I could stand to live with, for sure.

TheRealThing655 48F
9558 posts
6/19/2006 9:48 pm

Awwww....I liked you feeling "Custerific"!!!


Seriously_Real replies on 6/25/2006 3:11 pm:
I liked Custerific, tis true...but I really have to see this one to see how -- or if -- it ends...I'm hoping for the latter, actually, but don't tell anyone!

TheRealThing655 48F
9558 posts
6/19/2006 9:51 pm

talented (in so many ways):

I have to believe this means "orally superior"

Correct?


Seriously_Real replies on 6/25/2006 3:12 pm:
Great catch, Sister Real. Yes, indeed. And she's the All Time Champeen!

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