Blog for what?  

Secrets733 43F
224 posts
5/16/2006 11:28 pm

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5/23/2006 6:27 pm

Blog for what?

It's been awhile since I have written. Maybe I have said that I am searching for new friends but...maybe I don't feel so comfortable with new people in my life just yet.

Do I want to open myself up to new friendships? Even non-sexual friendships?

I've been thinking that I am not ready. Not ready for anyone else to REALLY know me. The good things and worse the bad things!

Do I want anyone to know all the annoying bad qualities that I have?

No, and I won't write about the bad qualities that I think that I have in my blog. Those things about me can remain undiscovered that way. In any case, if I were to meet a new friend my personality would unfold slowly and naturally and hopefully what I think is annoying and bad about myself would not be so bad to a new friend.

Also, I've been thinking that meeting people online is like forcing nature. Don't you readers think that it is even more exciting to meet a new friend naturally? Through your daily life?

Well, I don't think I've been successful with friendships the "natural" way but I'm feeling shy about new friends these days...whether online or in the real world

rm_KnowStuff 56M
240 posts
5/19/2006 12:02 am

Fear of the unknown maybe??? Some insecurity? A little unsure of yourself? Uncomfortable with their motives or yours? Afraid you may not like what you find or like it too much? Worried that someone may invalidate you out here because you don't put out or perhaps because you do? Afraid they might control you or that you may lose control?

Welcome hun. You sound pretty normal to me -- actually, it's worse. You sound like someone worth knowing and isn't that a scarey thought. Your fears are shared by the honest, manipulated by the "playa's", and preyed upon by the phonies.

If there is a natural way to friendships than I suspect it transcends all methods of contact and communication. I believe in connections -- I feel them, sense them, revel in them, appreciate them, and as of yet I fail to understand them.

I'm connected to you (and I don't mean to scare you) through this blog. I have noticed you haven't written and I've missed that. These "bad things" you speak of are human qualities and things that make you who you are. They make you special. They may not be faults at all, they could be gifts. For all I know they may be the reason we're friends via AdultFriendFinder blogland. Maybe it means nothing - maybe it means more.

I relate to you through this medium. I feel I've already met an interesting and beautiful soul who has nothing to fear from me. You, of course, may not believe that at all and my pressing the issue will not likely make you more comfortable with me and perhaps less.

I don't stay up nights trying to figure out how to "bag" you but I do think about stuff you wrote venting on your marriage's ups and downs and I relate. I feel the presence of the warm passionate heart in a woman trying to decide her next move.

To others who would read this:
She has a tremendous capacity for love, a delicate spirit, a stronger will, and a feminine nature that second guesses whether or not she's doing the right thing under the watchful eye of the world or her God. She's a treasure not a possession. She is worth knowing and getting to know. She craves intimacy not sex which is her vulnerability and her value. She's passionate and worthwhile in this world. Unbridled she'd be out of this world and perhaps too much for mere mortals.

I once suggested your husband a fool for not understanding your wonderful nature and needs. Now I'm not so sure because she's still there and I doubt I understand her nature and needs. Am I a bigger fool for wanting to discover more? On your terms and in your own special way hun.

"For me to say "I must get into your pants" is an overstatement.
For me to say "I must get into your head!" is an understatement."

Feel shy if you like but you are a small part of my life and I thank and appreciate you for it.

vulcan0000 46M
85 posts
5/19/2006 3:20 pm

Don't withdraw from the world. Embrace It. Who's to say what is natural and what is not. For some it is natural to try to force their way through life. For some it isn't. Either way there is always hope for something better. Maybe it will happen in the next moment or the moment after that. Some people are jerks and if you give them a moment they will usually expose themselves. But if you don't give them that moment how would you ever know who they are. So be cautious with people but don't be afraid to put yourself out there. Even with all of our flaws some of us are worth knowing. Whether it be for sexual satisfaction or for friendship and advice. The world is a crazy wonderful unexplainable place where you should be able to explore who you are. And if you ever figure out who you are. Let me know how you did it because every time I think I know who I am I seem to have a change that has me redefining myself yet again. So don't let the jerks scare you away keep interacting with us the people of your world. Who knows what you might find. I hope this helps. I know I will be checking in on your blog to see how you are doing. Because people are interesting and I find you interesting too. So good luck.

Secrets733 43F

5/20/2006 2:34 pm

Thank you for writing such nice things about me.

vulcan0000 46M
85 posts
5/21/2006 8:50 am

Giving compliments and encouragement to nice people is easy to do. I hope you are doing better.

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