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Back on track?
Back on track?
My husband brought home a porno DVD that he swapped with some guys at work. Well, we had a wonderful time in the bedroom watching it. It had a threesome theme.....Hmmmm....I wonder if he was trying to tell me something? No, I think it was just a porno movie. Guys usually don't have hidden agenda's like that.
Anyway, I felt like a newlywed. It was so nice to be with him and to actually feel like he WANTED to be with me. Feeling that desire....I missed him so much. It didn't matter to me that we acheived this closeness and level of intimacy by watching the DVD. I felt closer to him because he felt comfortable sharing his desires with me. I've been wanting him to open up again.
Later I asked a male friend about my husbands curiousity about porno. My husband had been swapping magazines at work with his male friends off and on over the years but rarely brought any home. I wondered if he was turned on my men because he was sharing and swapping porno with them but not with his lover, me! My male friend explained that this was a natural male bonding thing and not to worry. He assured me that my husband was normal and I was so relieved to hear it. I know I sound naive.... It was just a relief to know that my husband is normal for swapping porno mags with his buddies.
I am thankful of my friend who helps me out when I am confused and also thankful that things are heating up again in my bedroom at home! I'm looking forward to next time with my husband!!! I hope my lucky streak continues...Wish me luck!
12/3/2005 11:22 am
It's not luck hun. Dial into him and he'll want no one else. |
"Intimacy is what makes a marriage, not a ceremony, not a piece of paper from the state."
– Kathleen Norris
We love first visually and there's so much of that out there. You need to hear it, feel it, taste it, and touch it. In the end, he does too. Our egos are fragile and we need validation that we are attractive virile creatures. Supply that at home and there's too much effort for us to look elsewhere. Don't supply it and the next one to show interest will get our attention. From what I read of your blog, I think he loves you.