Wat a Ride...  

SeaMist1966 50F
845 posts
12/25/2005 5:11 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Wat a Ride...

Well it all started wed nite about midnite...i woke up needing to piss...I rolled and squrimed for about an hr till i managed to get off my bed...i nearly didnt make it to the bathroom ....thank god i did...i slept for a couple of hrs and woke again at 3am ..OMG i was hurting so bad I thought it was surley the end of my life...no pain had ever taken control of me like this pain had...I tried so hard to get up without waking my sons..I needed to piss so bad and i rolled onto my stomach and worked my way off the end of the bed...when my feet touched the floor i knew i couldnt stand up..so i thought if i got on my knees maybe i could use my good leg to stand up...(boy was i wrong)...when my body weight came down on my left knee...i lost all control...i pissed myself..and fell to the floor...I had my blanket with me and burried my face as if to smother my cries so I didnt wake my sleeping children...for they have witnessed my suffering for the last few months...screaming and crying from the time i wake up till i drop them off at school..they really have had a hard time seeing their tough mother like this...but i managed to clean myself up and get in some clean clothes...all the while im crawling in my bedroom floor...I was thinking if my kids werent home i could take the bottle of pain pills on my nitestand and bring it all to and end...but if i did that my children would have found me there possiblely dead from and overdose...not to mention sure enternity in hell for taking my life...and it was that bad...so about 6am I called my mother to come help me...she came very quick along with my older sister...they could not belive their eyes at the shape i was in...Im really a strong bitch when it comes to pain ...but this broke me down yall...i was helpless...

My mother called 911...the fellas arrived to find me laying in my bed...unable to move my left leg and just suffering with pain..tears had soaked the pillow my head laid upon...they said there was no way to get the gurnny down the hall and into my bedroom...OH FUCK wat dew you mean buddy i said to the tall kid...he said they would have to carry me to the living room and the put me on the strecher....I screamed...yelled...begged for death...cussed those poor guys so bad...i told them before they started to move me...guys pls pls dont take nothing im gonna say personal cuz when yall move me im gonna raise hell...lol one paramedic cussed right along with me from my room to the living room...my children were so sad that morning it was breaking their hearts to see me this way and it was killing me to have them subjected to such bad shit...we made it to the hospital with my MRI films...and it didnt take but a few hrs for a sergon to come see me...he read my MRI and said it showed the worst ruptured disk he had ever seen...this was wed...he said ill fix you up on fri...and they juss tried to ease my pain till then....the surgery went fast and real good....but Dr Cowan had every dr..in the OR come in and look at wat i had going on in my back....the disk was as big around as a 20 oz coke bottle...they were all shocked and amazed at how i made it as long as i did...he said hes hoping it will remain in place but theres a great chance it might rupture again and if so fusion will be next...his main concern is the nerves that were pinched and pressed by the disk...i still have no feeling down the outside of my leg and no feeling in my foot...but the leg is working terrific..YIPPIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE....damn relief...hes got wings i think...he wouldnt let me see them but i know there there....now the road to recovery is my main goal...christmas has come and will soon be gone....im outta work till i see him again and thats on Jan 26th so bills bills bills....at least if i need to run i can...hahaha...ill keep updates on my progress...not that many of you care...but it makes me feel good to know theres so many ppl reading my blogs...ima crazy woman yall know...but juss remember this..lifes a wonderful thing...I realize i take to much for granted...im sure im not the only one...lifes presious and we should treat it that way so ima try to be a better person from now on....who knows how its all gonna work out...but my back feels better...im in love...and lifes good right now...


nightnsa 48M  
415 posts
12/26/2005 6:20 am

wow..what a christmas...i hope you are doing better...don't over do it..give your body a chance to heal...let me know if you need me or if i can help...


oralpleezeru2 53M

12/27/2005 8:32 pm

Hey spud did I call it or what? No dont thank me (just playin), Im glad you finally got the relief you were looking for and yes I know it well. I wish I could have helped in some way but my long distance luv for you is just that long! Anyway glad to hear you will be up and running, which means pics you know, hehe. Luv ya spud


rm_mark5205 63M

12/31/2005 1:44 pm

good luck hon. backs are a bitch. hopefully you will have a happier new year.


rm_hangtime43 55M
1 post
1/2/2006 5:56 am

Girl, we 've a bit in common, unfortunately. Having a bad back sucks. But, Ive had recent surgery, 8/22/05. Still in re-coup mode and just getting back to work. So, hang in there! Hopefully it gets better. Also, in case you couldnt tell, Im new in here. Slowly figuring this out. Good luck! John


SeaMist1966 50F

1/4/2006 4:53 am

Spicy I hurt it 3 yrs ago when I was a home Health Nurse...lol yeah I was a nurse...can you grasp the concept of SeaMist being and nurse?...I called myself Nurse Big Body...my paients loved me..I think nursing ppl in their homes was my calling...who knows if this fixes me up I may go back to that feild of work....good to see ya here..

SeaMist1966


SeaMist1966 50F

1/4/2006 4:58 am

thnxs to you both mark and john...welcome to the world of a crazy woman...ty for the encouragment...its been a tough rough road...I hope this will be the only surgery I need but theres a chance the disk my rerupture then it will be fusion..but as long as it stops all this pain ive suffered I dont care if they have to sew my twat together..lmao...I know I have a sick sense of humor....hahahaha


SeaMist1966 50F

1/5/2006 10:16 am

welcome hangtime...good to see ya ...and bad backs make it hard for a person to have a normal life...rather is it causeing me alot of grief


nightnsa 48M  
415 posts
1/6/2006 6:29 am

hope all is well...as a physical therapist..let me know if i can help
take care..


oralpleezeru2 53M

1/9/2006 3:15 pm

Hey sea, mine felt like shit for 3 weeks before I could get outa bed right, hang in there it will get better.


nightnsa 48M  
415 posts
1/15/2006 7:31 am

just wanted to drop you a line and see if you are doing ok...hope all is well


SeaMist1966 50F

1/15/2006 8:37 am

hey there dude...I had fusion and im recovering well....I may need some therapy...heheheh dew you make house calls???...thnxs for being here and being my friend


nightnsa 48M  
415 posts
1/16/2006 6:39 am

no problem...glad you are doing ok...yes i can make housecalls..hehe...


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