Trying to Cope...  

SeaMist1966 50F
845 posts
12/14/2005 7:56 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Trying to Cope...


Today has been a shitty day...had to see the Drs...Had an ultrasound og my heart to check the leaky valve I have...wont know nothing till next Fri..Then had to see the Chiorpractor...hell I gave him a new nickname..."Bone Crusher"...I have never had bad results with him till yesterday and after my visit I started hurting real bad....and ima talking make ya sick on ya stomach hurt bad...the nerve in my left leg feels like its trying ti find a way out!!....shit its jerking like the main powerlines leading into a huge city...I dont know how much longer I can maintain sanity with this.
Im taking pain medicine in 2 forms...Liquid...and Pill forms...neither is easing the pain,im juss fucked up...thats all...fucked up and in alot of pain...that sounds NOT TO GOOD!!!!!....looks like ima have to agree to shots in my back or either surgery...I dont want either but im at the end of my rope here...i wanna scream from the top of my lungs....FUCK IM HURTING,SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!....but who would hear me...the man in da moon?...Santa Clause?...Dr Kovorkion?...yeah right...Ive had 3 pots of strong coffee...and 5 shots of Jeager...and still feel like ima be sick...I guess pain makes us know we are alive...and that we can be broke down if the time calls for it....but dayummmmmm i need relief....jezzzzssssss...this is so bad yall its damn near unexplainable...i know im not alone here...Dr said maybe a pain clinic can help you manage ur pain....I told him...HELL IM DEWING GOOD WITH THE MAMAGEING PART....BEEN LIKE THIS 3 YRS AND HAVENT KILL NO ONE YET.....but the pain is starting ti get my spirit now....and thats hard to deal with...staying in bed all day is starting to lQQk good these days...I cry damn near every morning when I have to drive my boys to school...its hard....Ive always said i have a very high tolerence to pain....but this fucking shit is wearing big gurl down and at a rapid pace....im feeling old and broke down ...wore out and used up....shitty and shittier....haha i gotta try to laugh,hell ive done enough crying thats for sure...but I talked to Lori tonite for 2 hrs on da phone...we talked about Dan...we cried about Dan...we laughed about him as well...*smiling*...He could dew amazing things to ppl juss by being in their persents...shes not dewing good at all...I think those 2 were soul mates and its a tragity that the only had 4 yrs together...and had a beautiful little girl who will never get to experince the awesome man that helped give her life...Lori had home movies for Lou...something to let her hear her fathers voice...and see the way he loved his "baby girl"...and someone took them from her home...someone close to Dan...and thats a shame to dew a little girl like that and take her only means to be with her father away like a common fucking theif!!!!...she was only 3 months when he died...he lived and breathed that child....and the home movies showed it so well...anything she did ...he said oh get the camera...lol he called me once while he was taking care of Lou and bidding on a truck on ebay...lmao...she did a dooty....he called and asked dew you wanna come change this kids shitty diaper?....lmao...i said ya gotta learn sooner or later G.....hahahaha...he said ill give ya 100 dollars if ya dew it for me....and i told him G as bad as i could use 100 dollars....im leaving it with you buddy....D.A.D....ITS NOT JUST A JOB...ITS A DOOTY....I miss the hell outta him...talking to Lori helped alot...she said Im the only friend that he had that really really knew Dan...the man and not the high roller everyone else knew...he had the biggest heart of anyone i think ive ever known...she hurts so for him...and i hurt for her and those kids....i have to stop now ...maybe this wasent a good idea tonite...peace out yall..

nightnsa 48M  
415 posts
12/16/2005 7:09 am

as a physical therapist i have to recommend staying away from chiropractors....they can really mess you up....they work with the bones and joints,,,but what about all the soft tissue stuff....let me know if i can help...get better


SeaMist1966 50F

12/16/2005 5:26 pm

well my chiropractor isnt popping my back...I let him know if i think i need it...ima difficult paient...*winks*..the tinge unit and excrise room help me alot...I went today and had Steroid Injection...it helped ...I cant lie,it did help..dunno for how long...im scheduled to go back in 2 weeks...and the pain Dr. has ordered another MRI. Its been 3 yrs since I had one and they want to check my back closer...but where ya at...Ill take all the help I can get with this damn thingnow the medicine they give me is scary...the side effects that is...its called ARTHROTEC....the info insert is scary....*bites nails*......Thnxs deary


oralpleezeru2 53M

12/17/2005 9:34 pm

Hey sea aint that what I told ya, chirospastics are nuts! You need surgery my love, its the only way, and I hate docs!


nightnsa 48M  
415 posts
12/19/2005 6:17 am

the shot should help...it gives some people long term help...the tens unit is what helps me the most when i am hurting, along with the exercise...i will be glad to help in any way i can ...let me know...


SeaMist1966 50F

1/5/2006 10:19 am

well guys the surgery gave me use of my leg...but the low back pain is still here...wat to dew now? wait it out...or go for another MRI...it shouldnt be hurting bad after a week should it?....

HELP PLS!!!!!!


rm_DngrDngr73 43M

1/16/2006 6:24 am

When you body suffers a severe trauma like that...it will never go away..hate to say that, but even the greatest of doctors cannot put someone back together again better then before. They make it so life will be a little easier. I hate Doctors & hospitals..Unless something is broke, or your on the brink of death. Then you HAVE to go. You shouldnt be in alot of pain though. I would get the MRI and maybe a 2nd opinion on the MRI. Never ever trust just 1 doctor. Wouldnt he cover it up if he made a mistake somewhere along the line? Yeah i know im scareing you lol. sorry
My advice is to strengthen the hurt parts...i could give you some pointers or even help...


SeaMist1966 50F

1/16/2006 8:40 pm

Dngr they have operated 2 times already...this is it for me...if this dosent fix me...ima gonner...I feel real good now...im sore as hell but im not paralized in my left leg...and im getting the staples out tues morning...im so ready to be myself again...and im begining to feel like Chrissy once again....but about the pointers....wat ya got in mind????


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