Life  

SeaMist1966 50F
845 posts
6/28/2006 4:24 pm

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7/30/2006 8:05 pm

Life

Its crazy how life goes one way today,another way the day before...and who da fuck knows about tomorrow!!..I dont know bout yall,but I feel like im ina damn WHIRLWIND!!!!

I juss turned 40(clapping),and im learning alot about the woman I wanna be..its scarybut very insteresting at the same time..I woke up wanting to have the shit fucked outta me the morning of my birthday...LOL..that was the first thing I realized I was gonna likeIve been learning alot from juss looking back on my life and seeing the bad choices ive made...and learning that I have control over my choices..

I hope im smart enough to know the difference between the 2I think I will dew juss fine...I wanna keep control of me...not someone else,but I dont want to be in a Co-dependant realtionship ever again...the last 5 yrs were hell for me,and I cant belive the things that happened in those 5 yrs....I think more about the nite a naked man held a knife to my throat and saidll fucking kill you"guess I was lucky that nite..

Yeah a knife to my throat!...that will make a motha fucker think...I didnt fear him at the time..and thats wats scary...I should have been scared,maybe then I would have gotten out,insted of staying 3 more yrs...having conversations with myself in the mirror,trying to figure out how to say..."Get outta my life"...but me being the person I was I juss would avoid conflict...driving home from work getting that sick feeling in my stomach,juss knowing when i opened the door it was gonna be a bunch of horseshit to listen to

He broke me down,tried to break my spirit....but that will never happen...I lost control of me to this person....I let him take complete control of my life...I couldnt make a choice to go out with my gurlfriends without it being a bunch of shit...so needless to say I didnt go out...I stayed home all the time(except to work)...I lost contact with alot of ppl that loved me...I juss let him run my life...

But now hes gone,and theres a wonderful man in my life...I wish I could keep going but my kid called and wants me to come get him...so ima have to stop now...maybe later ill pick up where I left off....later Bloggville

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Ok...where was I...friends...thank the lord for friends...I wanna thank a few...Jean shes like the opposit of me...sweet and all that shit shes like the yin and im the yang...LMAO!!I appericate her alot...you were there for big gurl thru the toughest times in my life...im thankful I had you with me thru my back surgery...hell no one else could deal with my mean ass..LOL....you my little Pit Bull and I Love ya gffffffffffffffff

Dawn...been a damn great friend for a while...she off the fucking chain most of the time,but deals with alot more than most of us will ever experince having not 1 but 2 sons that are in wheel chairs and dependant on her...shes like a little ROCK!..Love ya gurlie..

Steve..I thank you for being here for me,you have helped me thru alot of shit...you are terrific and im so glad I met you..I hope to be able to repay you for the kind things you have taught me..you have herd me show my arse first hand,in group...on messenger...and on da phone..LOL...I hope you know I appericate you alot..and I wanna thank you again...Love ya Steve

James...you have been truly a wonderful friend..I thank you for everything you have done...ive laughed harder with and at you than I have in yrs...laughter is a great medicine..thnxs for the therapy ...Love ya James

Bob...LMAO....ur a riot and im glad to call you friend....been knowing ya a while,we lost touch but it was great to see ya pop in on me again...need to catch RGBL...and get in the group chat again...HAHAHAHAHAHA...hope to have one of those damn Martinis with mass olives you say ya make.....Love ya Bob..

westhill...oldude...mzhuny...RGBL..allforfun...sc_problemchild....smoothoperator...Poetical25...WowieZowie...Love yas.......

HAHAHAHAHAHA......NOW LET ME GET THIS CHICK...BBSOUTHERNGURL....THOUGHT IDE FORGET YA HUH?...WELL I DID...LMAO!!!JK JK...YOU HAVE BEEN THERE FOR ME GURL ALOT...LISTENING TO MY SHIT WHEN I NEEDED TO VENT BACK IN DA DAY(jefferson street)DRINKING AND WELL TOKEING THAT WEED...ONE OF MY FAVORITE MEMORIES OF YOU GURL IS WHEN YOU,ERIC,AND KRISTEN HAD THE SNOWBALL FIGHT AND MY HIGH ASS WATCHED OUT MY WINDOW...ROLFLMA)...THATS A DAY ILL NEVER FORGET...I HOPE WE GURLS TILL WE OLD AND GRAY...LOL HELL IM THERE JUSS WAITING ON UR ASS TO CATCH UP...LOVE YA STACY..

These are a few ppl who have impacted my life and I juss wanted to let yall know I appericate each and every one of you...theres some many different qualities ive discovered in you all and I love yas.....WAS THAT A LITTLE OVER THE TOP??..I CAN NEVER TELL....lol..quote the RIDDLER...Batman Forever...

Peace out....


rm_KarmoHunny 54F
888 posts
6/28/2006 6:03 pm

I'm glad things are going better for you now, SeaMist. Sounds like you've been through some very rough times. I hope you will have smooth sailing from now on, hun.

Hugs


amoldenough 69F
16436 posts
6/28/2006 6:17 pm

I'm happy for you. Glad you got out, and especiall happy that you have found that wounderful man. Best wishes.

"Don't cry because it's over; smile because it happened."


SeaMist1966 50F

6/28/2006 6:33 pm

Thnxs ladies...im glad Im where I am right now...now I juss gotta get moved and settled...

Hugs


BBSOUTHERNGURL 45F
62 posts
6/29/2006 9:56 am

Thankx Gurl you know I love ya and I always will.. you have been there for me too and you really are what a true friend stands for... I love ya...mean it and will come hang soon...


rm_Poetical25 36M
95 posts
6/29/2006 12:57 pm

We Love you too "mom" .... I know exactly where you are comming from and Friends and thier support are very important when it comes to having the right support to get out of a co-dependant relationship, codependant relationships are like a Black Hole and breaking away is much harder than it looks .... God Bless!

Note to BB! can we have a lil talk in the back of the room *Wink*

I would also like to thank Sea and BB for their Continued Support yall are Great Friends of Mine !!!

Smooches

~Poetical25~


luckycharm143 55

6/30/2006 6:13 pm

hey gurl...thought i would let you know i was here...thank you for being my freind...we all need to be loved and give it in return...hope you are doing good i know this week has been hell for you...your son made me proud the way he helped you this week...your babies are growing up...seeing your oldest son help you made my day...you all keep up the good work and it will all pay off and you will be a strong family unit...you have come a long way in the past few weeks...i love youuuuuuuuu...............and always will dawn


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