Change of subject... This is educational too.  

SavorSensations 33F
614 posts
7/24/2006 4:07 am

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8/2/2006 2:03 pm

Change of subject... This is educational too.


Let's take a break from the female ejaculation tutorials. I am having a few issues here.

I would like to just play the field, but having just sex doesn't make me feel good about myself, or about the sex, no matter how great it was. I need to make an emphasis on the FRIENDS part of "friends with benefits". Goddamnit. I am trying to make a change here. I don't want to be stuck in the rut of monogamy, that's for sure. But I want sex to mean something to me, and to the other person.

Maybe I should make another emphasis on being the dominating partner, or at least with BDSM (an huge area of sexual interest for me). To dominate someone, there needs to be an essence of trust. Trust, in my opinion, is only found through getting to know someone. You can only get to know someone so much via the internet. Talking on the phone is a better route, but I am really reluctant to give out my phone number. Perhaps it's time to loosen up. But I like to have my privacy. It's the same with people knowing where I live. I am almost tempted to move out of my apartment so that I can truly have some privacy. Oh, if I only could affort a hotel room everytime I want to hook up with someone...

So, the issue is that I'm struggling with trying to make sex meaningful in the absence of a committed relationship. Oh, I've got plenty of men who want to fuck me, and not just from this site. But will it mean something? Will I just be an object of sex to them? I love to have my body worshipped, but that can only go so far, especially if the man is trying to dominate me. I prefer to do the dominating. Letting go of control would be a healthy thing for me, but I would really need to have an essence of trust with someone. There would need to be boundaries - like not getting a cock shoved down my throat. Not pleasant.

Perhaps I should just forget about cock and go for women? That won't solve anything though... Been there, tried that, didn't work.

Fucking a. I am so ass-backwards right now... And telling every single person who's interested in me that I've got HPV isn't fucking helping my nerves. I always feel like it's completely my fault that I've got it, but it takes two to tango, doesn't it? heh. In this case, honesty is the best policy. I've actually had more sex than I have in years despite the fact that I've got HPV. Whoever invented condoms is my idol. I will make statues for them. I will write poems devoted to them. I will worship them until the day I die.

HPV is the most common STD. Some estimates say that 3/4 of the sexually active adult population of the US has some form of genital HPV. (One scary estimate says that up to 90% of the sexually active adult population of the US has one form or another of it).That makes sense, because if you don't know what you're looking for, you won't know you've got it. Some forms are so subtle... It just looks like razor burn, a light rash or a patch of white-ish goosebumps.

There are 30 different strains of HPV that affect the genital area, four of which can cause cancer. I've got one of those strains. There are four stages that occur with those strains. The first is just HPV - a subtle change in the skin's texture. The second is dysplasia - pre-cancerous. Luckily my gynocologist and I caught it at this stage. The third is carcinoma-in-situ - non-invasive cancer. And the fourth is invasive cancer. Not fun.

Sometimes active HPV goes away by itself. Other times it needs to be treated. After it goes inactive, aka dormant, it is easy to keep it that way. It's all a matter of taking care of yourself. Not smoking is the best thing that you can possibly do for yourself if you've got HPV. It's one of the best things that you can do for yourself period. Once three months have passed, and you haven't had anymore problems, and you play your cards right, you are in the clear, so to speak. It's dormant.

There is always a chance that HPV can be transmitted even though it's dormant. It's a very, very small chance. I can't find any statistics on this issue. Again, protection is the most important thing. It can prevent many things. In the areas that I had HPV, a person is completely protected by the use of a condom. yay!

Some people might ask why I'm on this site if I've got HPV. The answer is simple - I want to expand my sexual horizons, and I will do it honestly. If someone has a problem with it, then they do. That is understandable, and I don't have a problem with it. Will I be disappointed? Probably. But I'll live. And so will they.

For fuck's sake... I feel like I've just come out of the closet again.

If you want anymore information about HPV, message me and I'll go into greater detail about it. I have made it a personal crusade to educate the world about it.

By the way, there is a vaccine out now, but it's only for young women/women who have never been sexually active. So, yeah. At least there's progress.

*sigh* I feel better now.

dandy6912000 60M/59F
3383 posts
7/24/2006 9:08 am

Nothing at all wrong with freinds with benifits. We think it is more fun, and really let you be yourself. At least it create a kind of bond to explore each other desires, and not just being a blind enncounter.
The biggest issue about HPV is just being an adult about it.
Hope you have a great day D & S


hilariuxx 47M

7/24/2006 2:05 pm

Hi!

I read your blog. It has been the sole reason for registering on this site, in order to be able to write a comment on your letters, especially the last (24.7). usually I dont register anywhere.

you are a real intellectual, or, better said, an ethicist. my respect for that. moreover thanx for sharing the tutorial but even more for sharing the contribution of july the 24th.

upon your initiation I will start to check out the hpv issue, which never draw my attention before, although being educated in healthcare (physiotherapy). shame...

I would like to reccommend you investigating the vaccination topic:
www.thinktwice.com
sincerity obliges me to say I haven't been to the bottom of this yet myself and thus do not know about any unfavourable aspects of the specific hpv vaccins. would be glad to get to know about it, if you happen to come accross something, of course.
please know, that I never mean to push your opinion in any direction.

never stop searching,
regards,
s.


SavorSensations 33F

7/25/2006 10:35 pm

    Quoting dandy6912000:
    Nothing at all wrong with freinds with benifits. We think it is more fun, and really let you be yourself. At least it create a kind of bond to explore each other desires, and not just being a blind enncounter.
    The biggest issue about HPV is just being an adult about it.
    Hope you have a great day D & S
I think that the thing I'm doing wrong with the friends with benefits thing is that I'm rushing into things too quickly, without being friends first.

And you're right - being an adult about HPV is a big issue. I'm glad that I've been an adult about it. I'm very proud of myself for handling things so well.

Thanks for stopping by!


SavorSensations 33F

7/25/2006 10:38 pm

    Quoting hilariuxx:
    Hi!

    I read your blog. It has been the sole reason for registering on this site, in order to be able to write a comment on your letters, especially the last (24.7). usually I dont register anywhere.

    you are a real intellectual, or, better said, an ethicist. my respect for that. moreover thanx for sharing the tutorial but even more for sharing the contribution of july the 24th.

    upon your initiation I will start to check out the hpv issue, which never draw my attention before, although being educated in healthcare (physiotherapy). shame...

    I would like to reccommend you investigating the vaccination topic:
    www.thinktwice.com
    sincerity obliges me to say I haven't been to the bottom of this yet myself and thus do not know about any unfavourable aspects of the specific hpv vaccins. would be glad to get to know about it, if you happen to come accross something, of course.
    please know, that I never mean to push your opinion in any direction.

    never stop searching,
    regards,
    s.
I am flattered about you registering just because of my blog. Someone did that for me on myspace.com too. Thanks for reading, and I will check out that website.


rm_magiclele 37M
58 posts
7/26/2006 1:15 pm

Hi Savorsensation, what's that HPV? Sorry to ask you this, but it's the first time I've read about it.

Bye form magiclele

near Como, North Italy


SavorSensations 33F

8/1/2006 3:12 pm

    Quoting rm_magiclele:
    Hi Savorsensation, what's that HPV? Sorry to ask you this, but it's the first time I've read about it.

    Bye form magiclele

    near Como, North Italy
HPV is an sexually transmitted disease, magiclele. There are 30 different kinds of HPV that affect the genital area. Genital warts are the most well-known form of HPV. This disease is harmless, and just a nuisance, UNLESS you are afflicted with one of the four strains that can cause cancer. There is a lot of information out there about genital HPV, but researchers seem to be learning something new about it each day. Some information conflicts with other information. It is best to get information from a reliable source. One of the best I've found is on Planned Parenthood's website. The direct address for information about HPV is listed below.

http://AdultFriendFinder.com


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