Don'tcha hate it when...  

Sariel1122 51M
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2/14/2006 6:56 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Don'tcha hate it when...


...you get put on the "back burner"?

Hold on. Lemme back up a bit.

So I'm browsing through my "Cupid matches" and I see this vision of loveliness... blonde, green-eyed, she reminds me of someone I once knew, yet there's the promise, even in her picture, of something more... something undiscovered, something new... the distance (146 miles) is a bit much, but I'm seized by the whims of my sometimes impulsive nature, and I contact her anyway...

Imagine my surprise when she mails me back

SO we trade e-mails for a few days, learn a little bit more about each other, then trade "real" e-mail addys, then phone #'s, and we're talking like, every other day... she even called me three times when I was on vacation... for just about three weeks this goes on, and I'm really feeling a connection to this lovely lady. we've shared lots of things about each other, intimate details about our lives... I've told her all about my past loves, and she hers... she told me about the guy she's been seeing for the past year, a relationship she says is going nowhere fast (although they still get together on the weekends to fuck), and like I said, I'm really feeling a connection to this lady, and the distance that separates us becomes negligible in my mind...

Well, suddenly, I don't hear from her for a week... I call her, get her voice mail, leave a couple of messages, she doesn't call back... I start to feel like a pest, but I try one more time, and catch her...

Right away, I feel a... distance is all I can say... as if we hadn't shared anything personal before... it almost seems to me like the last three weeks had never happened... and she tells me she's decided to go into business with this guy she'd been seeing, although she says the personal relationship has gone completely down the tubes... and seeing as how she's going to be working a lot of long hours, and this is her opportunity of a lifetime, new "friendships" kind of take a backseat...

Now true, we'd only been talking thus far... we'd made no pledges or committments... but I'm still disappointed...

She swears it's nothing negative about me, and she still wants to pursue something with me at some point... and I take her at her word for that, though we certainly hadn't know each other long enough for any kind of real trust to have evolved... but it's still kind of disappointing to be put on the back burner...

Part of me thinks, though, that perhaps she found someone here a little closer to her, and maybe she wants to explore that... that's cool... but if that were the case being straight with me would have been great... I'm not fool enough to think that someone 20 miles away from her wouldn't have been a more appealing situation than someone 150 miles away...

But I'm still disappointed...

Oh well... back to the drawing board

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