Ramblings of a divorced man  

Rudy1166 50M
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4/9/2006 9:32 pm

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Ramblings of a divorced man

This was an article that I wrote awhile back while struggling with my anger towards my ex wife.
Though I rarely feel that way anymore, I think this should be a part of my blog.
It shows where I came from and where I'm heading.

We're getting divorced.
What a relief!
Off come the shackles!
Damn her for treating me that way.
Why do I feel like a failure?
I look at my daughter and feel sorrow.
Split custody.
Split family.
God, how could we do this to her?
In-laws say good-bye (or don't).
Damn my ex for treating me that way.
Remember all the many good times we had.
Remember our daughter's home birth.
Why all the tension?
Why the misery?
Why the fuck did she have to yell?
Hit me?
Cuss me out?
All in front of our daughter?!
If I didn't do e.x.a.c.t.l.y. what she wanted
It meant war
Dare to disagree, no matter how diplomatically
It meant war
Damn I hate her!
Glad that we're finished!
Good riddance!!
My family wondered how I took it for so long.
Didn't want to be a quitter.
Didn't want to lose the dream of having a complete family.
Meet new people.
Exhilerating, refreshing.
Remember that things were exhilerating and refreshing
once with my ex.
Put on the brakes.
Not nearly ready to take another chance.
Friendship with benefits is the only way for me right now.
See ex once or twice a week to trade off our daughter.
Feel like I'm dealing with a stranger.
But we lived together for 5 years!
How could something that started so well
go so wrong?
How could I have made things better?
But she had it easy with me!
Onward.... let it go...let her go.
I have a beautiful daughter!
I have a new lease on life!
A new beginning!!
Reconnect with old friends.
Make new friends!
Taste new kisses!!
Explore new bodies!!
Learn from my mistakes.
Someday when I'm healed, love a new heart.
One that's not abusive.
And Don't Ever Look Back!!

singleagain53578 46F

4/10/2006 4:11 pm

Your article is very powerful. It really hits home. Thanks for sharing!!!


Rudy1166 replies on 4/10/2006 5:24 pm:
If anyone would understand where I'm coming from, it's you.

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