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Drugs, blood, and masturbation.
Drugs, blood, and masturbation.
Where to start?
Lets see, sunday I got into a fight with my brother who I live with. The two of us live together and I take care of him basically. Well, hes 17 and crazy hormonal and he decided that I was being an asshole to him. When I tried to talk to him and figure out what the problem was he only got more angry. Then with no warning he ran over and kneed me right in the face! (I was sitting at the time)
Well, one 4 hour hospital visit later I have a broken nose and a chipped tooth because of that. We haven't spoken since and my mother is out here to sort of keep an eye on him. My parents havent decided what they are going to do with him. I don't think I want to live with him anymore after this. But I still have to figure things out.
So, when it happened I bled... a lot. I don't think I've ever bled like that in my life. It was like there was a faucet in my nose and it just turned on and the blood started pouring out.
And there was pain.
Lots of pain.
Thankfully the Dr at the hospital gave me a wonderful little pill called Lortabs. If youve never had any expereince with them or other hydrocodones... let me tell you something... 2 of them and you are addicted. They make you fucking high as a kite, they take away your pain, and you feel fantastic. I hate the fact that I love them, and I'm glad that I only have a few.
Now, onto sex....
Despite the fact that I warned her about this, the girl I met on friday was very upset that she couldn't make me cum from oral sex. I don't know why it is but getting head just doesn't do much for me. I enjoy the FEELING of it. But I almost never cum from it, and quite often I lose my erection while getting head. I've always been that way I don't know why. Over the last dozen years, I've probably only cum from oral sex 6 maybe 7 times.
So anyways, shes hoping that we get together on wed, which my nose should be healed enough by then for. And she wants me to cum in her mouth while she sucks my cock. I don't know of anything that I can do to prepare myself really, I mean, its all in my head right?
So, she made me a deal. If I cum in her mouth for her, she is going to let me take pictures of her in naughty outfits, something I really want to do.
But what can I do to try to make it happen? What can I do to prepare myself for an oral orgasm? I'm drawing a total blank. So, im doing the only thing I can think of that might possibly help. I'm refraining from masturbating till I see her on wed. I haven't cum since Friday, so i figure by wed I'll be ready to explode.
The downside of course is that I'm so fucking horny right now and want to just beat off. But I keep thinking of the reward (those photos) if I can make her happy and orgasm while she blows me.
I hope I can do it, its not something that happens for me, and quite frankly, I don't want to let her down.
Any suggestions or thoughts peeps ?
PS. why aren't there any optional comments for "In pain" or even just "hurt"? Sore really doesn't describe how im feeling right now.
3/27/2006 4:19 pm
ha...what would a girl know about this?|
hold out on the mastubating
clear your mind
focus positively on what she is doing
watch or dont watch depending on what would turn you on more
let your guard down
tell her how to make it feel the best
know that she is probably enjoying it just as much if not more than you