Lazy Sunday...  

RUhardcuzImwet 32F
29 posts
7/24/2005 2:00 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Lazy Sunday...


Ugh, Today was just a lazy Sunday. Raffy woke me up around 6am chasing God only knows what around the bedroom. He's a sweet kitten, but he needs to learn that Mommy doesn't like to get up before 10 on her days off. So, suffice to say, I took a nap and didnt get up officially til after 2. I did about 25 minutes of "karaoke" this afternoon to my Kelly Clarkson CD as a warm up and then went to practice for a little while. We still suck, and I'm starting to wonder if maybe I should go back to doing my own thing. Atleast that way, I had creative freedom and didn't have compromise what I wanted to make someone else happy.
Speaking of being happy, I was watching Pretty Woman last night, and then I was watching some movie with gwenyth paltrow in it and I got to thinking... Movies like that always wind up with a happy ending. The hooker gets the rich man, the slut who got knocked up by her fuck buddy gets married to the fuck buddy because he realizes he's in love with her, blah blah blah. I guess I'm just bitter about MarineJosh, still. I always wanted someone to fall in love with me, and I thought he was, and he didn't. He just left, didn't even say good by or that he wanted to be friends or anything. It kind of hurt a little bit. Well, a lot. And then there's collegeJoe... we want this to work so bad, but we're both too scared to take the steps that would make it work. We're two stubborn people when it comes to taking that step. I want to get married, I want to have kids, move away from here, and be happy, and forget about all the crap that goes along with being here. Its hard though, because I'm scared. It's just like me singing. I want it so bad, but I'm too scared to take that first step. Julia Roberts said in Pretty woman "People put you down long enough, you start to believe it... The bad stuff is easier to believe." That's pretty much how I feel. Sometimes I think I'm really good, and other times, I'm afraid to sing. Just like sometimes I think I could really love someone, but then I'm afraid to give them my whole heart.

Current Song: The cover of "Listen To Your Heart"
Currently Wearing: Pjs, Still

LCSandman8301 33M

7/27/2005 3:53 pm

hey just want you to know that when it comes to music i know what i'm talking about i've been a musician forever. and one of the biggest things and hardest to learn is when to compromise and when not to it's kind of like too many cooks in the kitchen and all. well shoot me an email if you want to talk about it or are willing to let me hear you and tell you what i think. i try to be as honest as possble. hope to hear from you


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