Anyone but me...  

RUhardcuzImwet 32F
29 posts
7/30/2005 12:15 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Anyone but me...

Current Song: Three Doors Down "Be Like That"
Currently wearing: Sweats and a wife beater

I'm crazy. I actually Googled Josh. Just to see if his name would come up with court records attached to it. I can't believe I still care. It's been like three months. (lets out a long sigh) I loved Josh. I understood that the night we met. It had been so painstakenly slow, and then all of the sudden, everything was rushed and we were meeting and then we were fucking, and it was perfect for a split nanosecond. Then he lost his temper, got into a fight, and went to jail, and I went nuts.
I've never cried so hard as I did then because I truly wanted to believe Josh loved me. I've wanted to be wanted so badly for so long. Its sad, its pathetic, and I realize to you out there in ReaderLand, I'm a sad pathetic case, boycrazy and hellbent on finding someone else to make me happy. And sadly, you would be right.

I dont want to be this way, but I'm not sure how to shake this feeling.
No, I'm not asking for advice.
No, I'm not asking for pity.
I dont know what I want. And maybe that's been the problem all along.

tolongtolong90 59
9 posts
7/31/2005 7:02 am

My dear, my dear, don't worry, if I can help you write me.
With respect,

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