WARNING, WARNING, WARNING, rant ahead......  

QueenofBitches69 46F
1657 posts
7/19/2006 1:24 am

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WARNING, WARNING, WARNING, rant ahead......

For those of you who do not want to see one hell of a rant, run away now!!!! Cause this will be a long dirty one!!!!

So I am now called a little child because I have a low self esteem eh? I am told I am not a WOMAN because I need to be reassured that I am a beautiful woman and not just a WALKING CUMM RESEPTICAL?

Well let me tell you a thing or two. Most of the so called WOMEN of this site have not been through the shit I have been through in my life. I have earned the title WOMAN! You hear me EARNED!

You motherfuckers do not know what the fuck it is like to raise 4 children ON YOUR OWN! I worked two fucking jobs, and went to school (see I don't need spell check). I damn near killed myself doing all this.

And why did I have to raise these children on my fucking own? Because I could not take ONE MORE BEATING! Do you even know what it is like to have the man you love and make a life with and have children with take a fucking baseball bat and BEAT you because you did not have the money to cook his lazy jobless ass steak for dinner like the neighbors were having?

How about giving birth to your children ALONE? How about being told your worthless cause the sex of the baby was not what HE wanted?

Could you even imagine giving birth to your child and just 3 days after, you still have the stitches in from birth and the motherfucker wants sex from you so bad he beats and you and rips you back open and you end up in the E.R?

Do you even know what it is like to have the man in your life knock half the fucking teeth out your head with one blow of a fucking back hand and have him stand there and laugh at you?

Could you even fucking imagine having him knock you to the ground and kick you over and over breaking bones, and then tell you how lucky you were cause he was aiming for your fucking head?

Do you even know what it feels like to have this same man who told yu he will love you forever try to kill you? Take your fucking life? Could you even begin to imagine?

And when you go to your family and tell them all the beatings you are taking, they tell you it is part of being a WIFE and your family does not believe in DIvORCE, and your sent back to him, cause you family believes it is the right thing to do!

I grew up in a house where my step father made me sit in the other room for meals because he said I was so ugly I made him sick to look at me and he could not eat!

I was when I was 9, I was again when I was 16. I was beatin and when I was 18 and told because I was his wife I could not press charges!

I am very confident I can out work any bitch in my profession, I have very good and respectful children cause I am a fucking awsome mother! And I am very confident that in a TOE TO TOE situation I can throw the fuck down with the best of them! And not one person who has been a true friend of mine can ever say I was not the best friend they ever had!

I have earned my fucking title of WOMAN. So you worthless piece of shit motherfuckers who say I am just a CHILD and not a woman because of a low self esteem, take a fucking long look in a fucking mirror, Or take a long walk of a short fucking pier!

And to my friends, I am sorry you have to read this!

MEL

The meeting place....


readytolay_3
(What the fuck is this shit..?? *rolls eyes*)
105F

7/19/2006 7:11 am

I can only guess at where all of this is coming from as I have chosen to move on, beyond all the Bull Shit but my guess is some CHILD is being mis-lead AGAIN by a lying asshole who uses woman as a cover for his shiftless ways with both Woman and Men alike....Sugar You don't owe any one an explanation about any thing...Stress can be a Killer in ones Life, Fer fucks sakes look at me, They put me on S.S.D. because of it...The Adults here will see the truth for what it is...Youngens will Rant On and On over shit they should just like go of because they lack the Maturity to realize it does nothing for them than to make them look like the easily mis-led immature adult they are. When it would seem they should be looking at who's fanning the flames of this...In other words GROW THE FUCK UP AND GET THE FUCK OVER IT ALREADY WE ALL FUCK UP ALL YOUR DOING IS PROVING YOUR SELF TO BE THE BIGGEST IMMATURE FUCK UP OF ALL OF US....Ready

Ready


Sweetpickles69 47F

7/19/2006 7:30 am

Wow! I thought I had been through some shit, til I read this. You're a stronger woman than I am!

Peace,
Pickles


QueenofBitches69 46F

7/19/2006 9:20 am

kittenkisses24--Sorry you had to read that!

readytolay_3--You know he did not name names, but it was pointed out to me, because SOMEONE knew it was directed at me, cause everything he writes certain people know it is directed at me! And if only you could really feel the anger I felt when I was writing this! There was alot of it I erased, cause it went too far.

Sweetpickles69--And it is this shit that makes me who I am today! I will not take that kind of shit from a man again. Now do you see why I trust no one? And from what I have seen on here I have good reason not to trust some men!


SexySweetAmy0208 47F

7/19/2006 10:01 am

Now that I have stumbled on your blog, I see things in a new light. I had been visiting another blog, and I went to one last night that got my blood pressure up from a comment left on there about women with low self esteems being little children. Why would those people say that about you? I did leave a comment on it, if you would like to go check out what I said. I think you would agree with me.

AMY


QueenofBitches69 46F

7/19/2006 11:35 am

SexySweetAmy0208-- It will be said that it was not wrote about me, that I and my friends took it out of contest, and that I am making it up and it is all in my head, and it is all my problem, that everyone is squeeky clean and pure. But people are not as dumb as they would like for people to believe. I had the post sent to me via e-mail, so yes I seen your comment, and I agree with you.


willing2tryit42 40M
1141 posts
7/19/2006 12:15 pm

You owe none of us an apology, my friend!!!!!


rm_abutoo2 44M
1078 posts
7/19/2006 1:01 pm

sweety, only you have to be feeling good about where you're at. They don't matter. You can be tougher than them without having to fight.


Looking4sex44240 54F

7/19/2006 1:38 pm

just tell these people to kiss your ass. You shouldn't have to explain anything to anyone, your life is your business. I'm sorry you had such a terrible life.


skyking412004 53M
5363 posts
7/19/2006 5:08 pm

_____I don't know whether to be sad for you, or angry at the people who did those things to you. I'm glad you're better now.


QueenofBitches69 46F

7/19/2006 8:35 pm

fun1968xxx--That was about the sweetest thing I have read! Thank you!

skyking412004--Don't be sad for me or angry at them, cause if it was not for all the shit, I would not be the woman you know and love.

Looking4sex44240--Just think if I would have had a perfect life I would not be ME And I would be writing stories of fuzzy bunnies and shit.

abutoo2--Thank you for the phone call and the talk!

willing2tryit42--Thank you baby!

longhairednikki--You have known me longer then anyone on this site, and you have seen it all! lol And I thank you for being my friend sis


007sexy40plus 51F  
7603 posts
7/20/2006 9:33 am

I have been there myself only some of my incidences were different. but the same abuse all in all. It amazes me that people can pass judgment on someone and they don't know a damn thing about what they have lived through. Sorry about your experiences and what you have lived through. I definitely know where you are coming from and where you have been.

I am the real deal! "Come Get Me!!!"


QueenofBitches69 46F

7/20/2006 8:39 pm

007sexy40plus--Yea I didnt think he could pass judgement on me since I was nothing but a one time fuck and just a walking cumm reseptical for him.


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