I read a very good post that got me thinking........  

QueenofBitches69 46F
1657 posts
7/29/2006 2:18 pm

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I read a very good post that got me thinking........

florallei posted a blog [post 443073] And every one who commented really opened up about themselves. It is interesting to see what kind of life people came from, and what makes them the human beings they are today.
I posted the following blog back in April of this year. It is a bad day for me every year. And it has alot to do with what actions in my past that molded me into the woman I am today.

My mother had just moved us to Tuscon AZ, from Kansas. She was runnin from her ex.(my first step dad)
She had made friends with a new couple, who had two sons our age (my brothers and I ).

They came to our house everyday. But then I started to noticed that just the dad (russel) was coming over, at night, alone. I may have been only 9 but I knew what was going on.

He was a big man, with long stringy brown hair and a long beard and a big tattoo of an eagle on his back.

I had heard he had just got out of prison, but I was told he killed a man defending himself.

Mom made us swear to never talk about him coming over when his wife and kids were with him.

One night, mom had us kids go to bed, and as I lay there in my dark room, trying to go to sleep,I heard the front door open and close, and her car start and drive away.

The next thing I know my bedroom door is opened by "HIM". My innocents was stolen from me that night, the day before my 10th birthday.

When my mom returned he was already back in the livingroom like nothing had happened. And if he would not have told me he would do the same to my brothers if I told, I would have run out right at that moment and told my mother. But she was sitting with him and laughing and having fun, while I was laying there crying, and hurting.

My mother cont. dating him. And I had to see him daily. He would try to touch me when no one was looking. I lived like this til I was 13 and we moved to Georgia.

I finally got up the nerve to tell her when I turned 16. She slapped my face and called me a liar. And that I was just jealous of her and I always tried to ruin her relationships. And that I was the reason he broke up with her, cause I was a little Bitch. I moved out that night.

When I was 18 I moved back to Tucson. I went to the store with my aunt. And there he was! I froze, tears in my eyes, as he came up to us to talk to my aunt. My aunt noticed my discomfort, and when he walked away asked me what was wrong. I told her the story. She automatically went to my uncle.

And from what I have been told, my uncle and younger brother took him for a ride into the desert, but he never came back out.

I was then also informed later, he had gotten out of prison for molesting children, and my mother knew it! She left me alone in the house with a child molester! And did not believe me when I told her he had done it to me!

And yes it is 26 years later,And I have been told he got what he deserved, but it does not erase the memories. It still haunts me.


loadeddice05 44M

7/29/2006 3:04 pm

I'm sorry for this!! Life should never slap a child in the face!!! I know of a similar situation where the IDIOT mother is having a hard time staying away from the "Fuckhead molester"!!!


QueenofBitches69 46F

7/29/2006 3:13 pm

loadeddice05--How the hell can moms do that?

qyxx 59F
3267 posts
7/29/2006 3:58 pm

What is with grown men and little girls? And what is with mothers who side with these grown men, even after their daughters tell them they have been molested? I just can't get with this mentality.

I am so sorry for you and all of the little girls (and boys) who have went thru, and are still going thru this kind of life-altering. experience.


sexyariesgirl 57F

7/29/2006 4:05 pm

My heart goes out to you sweetie! This is something that is so very close to my heart....huge huggs to you for finding the strength to become the person you are today. Also you have my prayers that you find the peace you deserve

Power To FOK

QueenofBitches69 46F

7/29/2006 5:38 pm

qyxx--I have no clue why MEN do that to children! Why can't men find women their own age?

sexyariesgirlTY darlin!

florallei 99F

7/29/2006 8:45 pm

Hello Queen,

I want to just hold you and hug you!!! TY for your honesty. You were but a child and he and your mother crippled you. No one can ever get over such trauma. I only hope and pray that you have people who sorrounds you that gives you love and support. My heart aches for you. May God help you and comfort you.
Thank God for your Aunt and Uncle and brother. I never understand parents like your mother...to be so selfish and evil with no conscience. She may as well have watched you molested and tormented by this man by slapping you when you confided and knowing he was a molester. There is just no sense and justice at times. I am so sorry for the deep pain this has caused you.
We love you Sweetie,

QueenofBitches69 46F

7/29/2006 9:07 pm

florallei--Thanks flo, and you just don't know how many are on this site that have been through the same thing. It will shock you if you ever ask.

QueenofBitches69 46F

7/30/2006 4:20 pm

childofthe70s--Several bloggers have posted about the same thing happening to them, you would be surprised!

skyking412004 53M
5363 posts
8/1/2006 12:47 am

_____It happens all too often. I have no answers. If indeed he did "never come back out" he was never able to do it to another child again. What I don't understand, is how you have been able to deal with the shit in your life so well, when so many other women haven't.

QueenofBitches69 46F

8/1/2006 8:10 pm

skyking412004--Because shit happens babe. Shit really fucking happens! It does from time to time come back to haunt me, you and I have spoke about this, and how certain things trigger memories. I live with it, I have not over come it and I will never forget it, but we have to go on with life, ya know?

QueenofBitches69 46F

8/5/2006 9:16 pm

kittenkisses24--Thanks hun, ya don't have to say a thing!

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