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PawPr1nt 51M
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9/26/2005 8:59 pm

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Up and at

It's 5.45am here and I am sat at my desk with a full pot of green-tea, some classical music (Chopin&Debussy) is playing and my final, written project for this years part of my degree in French sits before me, waiting to be completed.

I have two days to finish it and send it off to the UK...

The Russian interest that I had been chatting to disappeared. At every IM conversation she would always go quiet for long periods and then say it was 'Mama' or a friend on telephone'. I told her on Saturday to contact me when she had the time to spend on conversation with me rather than treat me as a 'filler' between her other conversations. And that....was that.

My reckoning is that she actually has a 'stable' of guys that she chats to and I was just one of them. Not my scene, for two reasons - I don't like being treated superficially, even in a 'light' relationship and I like to actually develop a conversation with a person, rather than do irrelevant sound-bites over the course of several hours.

It's not all bad. I finally touched base with someone who has fascinated me for years. The picture today, is of a pendant I nearly always wear and have had it for 12 years. My first marriage was in tatters and I was discovering who I was (mainly in terms of sexuality and women at that time...). I visited a shop in a nearby city, which sold esoteria. It is known as a shop for pagans, Wiccans and the like. Not a head-shop. Anyway I saw and bought my 'Fat Lady' and the owner of the shop, Naomi, was impressed that a man was willing to wear her, as she was a powerful, female-symbol. The symbology coupled with my rapidly-developing sexual awareness resulted in some of the guy I am today.

Over the years I would re-visit the shop for joss-sticks, music etc, and was always fascinated by the lady owner. The reason she has a relevance is because from the time I started wearing the pendant, I came to terms with the fact that I liked fuller-figured women. Voluptuous, pregnant and post childbirth women are what stop me in my tracks every time. Naomi is what some call a BBW.

One thing I do know is that any woman that avoids commenting-on my pendant or finds her ugly, is not the sort of woman I can get along with. It has something to do with an honest, feminine self-awareness that this primordial Goddess is, in fact, a conceptual representation of every woman. You only see a fat ass? You missed the point

I had been waiting for a delivery of a set of cards from Naomi and phoned her shop on Saturday to chase the order. We had a lively conversation and last night I finally e-mailed her to ask if she would like to chat socially with me, rather than as a customer. Well, I e-mailed her, basically, the story you have read above. Wonder what she has to say...?

(Princess Lips)

9/29/2005 2:18 am

love the pendant..


PawPr1nt 51M
133 posts
9/29/2005 8:22 am

I have never seen anybody else wearing one of those pendants. To be honest, most men wouldn't (the masculine alternative, a phallus, would be even worse...) and many women are not really that connected to their Earth-Goddess side enough to want to 'out' themselves with such a piece of jewellery.

They are hand-cast in bronze, like mine, or also in silver. I got a silver one for a ladyfriend once and I have to say, on a long, fine chain hanging between tanned breasts, it looked good!

I am not sure I can disclose the e-mail address of the shop where you can get them, but I will ask Naomi to tell me the name of the female jewellery-maker who personally casts them all.

leeleebethkidman 33F

11/18/2005 11:58 pm

I would like one of the pendants if you could tell me where you got it so I can order one please. It is very beautiful and true

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