Don't read this unless you like other people's misery  

Paksennarrion 38F
43 posts
6/30/2006 2:00 am

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7/23/2006 3:44 am

Don't read this unless you like other people's misery


I really advise you don't read this. If you're familiar with my blog, you may remember that I suffer from manic-depression. Well, it's depression time. I want a normal life. I hate it when I sleep all day, and then am up all night. But one of the drugs recently prescribed to me (tramadol), makes me very sleepy. I've decided to stop taking it, but since I had already taken it, I was tired. So I lay down around 1pm, and asked my mother to get me up at 3pm. Just a little nap, so that I could stay up till 10pm, go to sleep, and wake up around 6 or 7 am, and be on a regular schedule. Well, she didn't get me up. Next thing I know, it's after midnight. So now I'm facing endless hours of noone to talk to, and nothing to do. I'm soo tempted to take another tramadol, just to put me back to sleep, but I'm afraid that if I go near the bottle in my current frame of mind, I'll take the whole damn thing. I'm so tired of not being able to do anything. I want a job. I want to go back to school. But I'm not stable enough. Sure, I could try to get and hold a job, but that could jeapordize my attempts to get Social Security. And I need that, so I can get better medical care, and be stable enough to have the normal life I crave. But it's taking so long. I don't know how much longer I can hold on. And did you know that Crisis Centers won't help you if you're in treatment? Once they find out you're on medication and seeing a doctor, they tell you to contact your doctor in the morning. Well, if I was sure I'd make it to morning, I wouldn't have contacted the Crisis Center! Anyone know what it takes to become a citizen of Canada? I hear they have free medical care....

SirMounts 102M

7/3/2006 4:02 pm

Well, I don't like other people's misery, so I didn't read it. *winking*
But a warm welcome to blogging, Paksennarrion. *smiling*


SingleWarrior 52M

7/9/2006 1:09 pm

What was I supposed to not read? I am still learning about Earth women

Seriously though, hope you're doing better now.


somethingelse40 74M
14676 posts
7/14/2006 1:57 pm

Misery loves company ... to a point. I have abandoned my search for truth and am now looking for a good fantasy.


somethingelse40 74M
14676 posts
7/19/2006 10:51 am

So many situations can be effectively dealt with only by a vigorous shrugging of the shoulders. How can the world be improving, when what we once called "heaven" we now call "space"? Keep in touch!


rm_Imontheedge 56M
21 posts
7/21/2006 7:13 am

What part of Texas are you in? Maybe we can share stories. I'm much better at lending a shoulder to cry on in person. I've got my share of reasons to be bummed as well including feeling that I'll never truly be happy.


rm_Imontheedge 56M
21 posts
7/21/2006 1:52 pm

Hey, I just realized we live very close together. Respond here if you want to go have an ice cream sometime.


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