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I have to say... over the last year or so, and definitely over the last couple months as we've been talking about it more, I've been very trepidatious about the lifestyle.
I was afraid that I would see my hubby with another woman and freak out. Yet at the same time, I felt like a hypocrite because I really wanted to be with another man.
You see, we were high school sweethearts, and while he had been with another girl just a couple of times before we met, I have never been with anyone other than him (except for one encounter with my best friend with our hubbies watching). And he's never been with anyone other than me since we started dating.
So, part of me was curious about what other men were like and another part of me was scared that if we tried being with someone else, we might not love each other as much anymore.
However, slowly I've come to decide that I really have nothing to worry about. We love each other more than I could possibly like anyone else after a few sexual encounters, and I have confidence that he will always come home to me no matter what happens previously.
So we started getting more active on these sites and decided to go to the Tulsa M&G on Friday. And I've become REALLY excited. I can't wait to meet some of the people with whom I've been chatting, and if it develops into something more... I'm excited about that too.
Not only am I now comfortable with the thought of being with another couple, I am excited about it!
I had to blog this because honestly who can you share this excitement with? It's not like I can call up my mom and say "Hey mom, guess what..." Ick! So any thoughts... please share them!