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Ghouls & Ghosts
Ghouls & Ghosts
...are not the only things that go bump in the night.
It has been awhile since my last update. Life has ups and downs, but lately I have felt stuck on a plateau. Things are neither that good or that bad, but it has put me in a funk, and not the George Clinton variety.
I have been trying to snap out of it, so some friends thought to take me to a strip club. Am I the only one that thinks Strip Joints are like really sad zoos. I love looking at the female form, don't get me wrong, but I have never felt so desperate and unattractive as when this gorgeous creature gave me a lap dance and never once looked me in the eye. The next time I get a girl to undress for me, it will be my charm rather than a $20 bill that makes it happen.
So I went to a party over the weekend. I have never seen a good time so completely derailed by drama. Many of the people there are near and dear to my heart, but some of them should never attend the same gatherings.
I have taken the day to recuperate and gather my thoughts. I know that I am a little too introverted for my own good. It is a holdover from my overweight days. I still lack confidence, and I need to branch out into other social groups. I am stuck on the plateau because it is comfortable and safe, but the great things about plateaus is that they come attached to cliffs. Whether I soar off of it, or drop like a rock, at least change has occurred. Change, whether it be for good or ill, is inevitable.