Writing...and nothing more....  

Nightguy_1961 55M
3324 posts
7/2/2006 2:03 am

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Writing...and nothing more....

The Dark Sage sat in his lonely tower overlooking his Dark Fortress. Opening his journal, he paused before writing, thinking of what to write. Suddenly, he heard soft sounds coming from his journals...voices. Dropping his quill, he watched in amazement as something started to happen with the words in his journal.

Wisps of smoke rose from the words...taking shape above the words. The shapes turned into apparitions of beautiful women...with longing in their voices, reaching out as if to say, "Touch me...take me...be with me."

The Dark Sage was almost mesmerized by the song of the sirens; their words stirring up the bloodlust deep inside his being. Could they be real?

Suddenly, a cold realization gripped his heart...and he reached out his scarred hand as if to grasp one of the figures. As soon as his hand touched the first figure, they all disappeared, turning back into the smoke they had appeared from...and disappearing from view.

The Dark Sage sat back in his chair with a sigh. Looking out into the darkness outside his window, he said softly to himself, "Face it old fool, this is what you have...illusion and imagery...for the rest of your life. Stick to writing...it's what you're good at...nothing else."

Ignoring the coldness in the darkness of his heart, the Dark Sage picked up his quill...and continued writing...

and mocking laughter rang out from the daemons in the corners of his mind and soul...

©NG61 2006


BaronessK 52F

7/2/2006 2:51 am

To write, and accomplish doing so with any sort of real ability, once must have experienced those things about which they write best about. You have done, you have been, and you have experienced; therefore, you have the memories, you have the knowledge, and you have the ability to convey those things {and properly}. You know as well as I do that {although there are a few things missing in your life, at least for now} that you 'have it all'...in what matters.


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 1:37 am:
Well, you say so....but right now, I don't feel that way....just a lot going through my mind...and trying to sort it out, I'm coming to a conclusion that I don't think I'll like too much...

thanks...

Fox4aKnight1 43F

7/2/2006 3:05 am

hugssssssssss


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 1:38 am:
thank you, but I don't think I'm the most huggable individual right now...

clitalicious67 49F

7/2/2006 3:32 am

Hmmm very interesting NG...paints a vivid picture.


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 1:38 am:
Yes, but just what the picture is escapes me right now....

EroticaXTC 50F

7/2/2006 4:15 am

{=}


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 1:41 am:
Erotica,

Thank you...if I only knew what that {=} would actually feel like...

oh well, no use thinking about things like that...someday, that one person will come along and sweep you off your feet. For your sake, I hope it's soon, you deserve someone...

GoddessOfTheDawn 105F
11240 posts
7/2/2006 5:11 am


~ hugz ~

I know this ....


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 1:42 am:
always the bridesmaid, never the bride...so to speak...

Now do you understand?

Thanks

TheLilFondler 33F  
2576 posts
7/2/2006 5:59 am

*offers a hug then returns to her normal spot in the middle of the floor*

i lost my virginity years ago.....
but i still have the box.....


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 1:43 am:
careful, you might get stepped on sitting in the middle of the floor...

thanks...

mysticdreamangel 61F
2759 posts
7/2/2006 6:33 am

The Dark Sage should realize that writing is not the only thing he is good at...his words make people think, they make them smile, they make them feel sad when he is sad, and make them angry when he is angry. The Dark Sage has a gift of not mer words but of enhancing the lives of each and every person who takes the time to read them. He is real and makes each person the has the honor to read what he writes feel real as well and lets them know that they are not alone in their feelings whether good or bad.

Be well and know your in my thoughts...

MDA


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 1:44 am:
MDA,

Thank you, but right now...I don't know...I just feel adrift...

hard to explain....

wickedeasy 67F  
26755 posts
7/2/2006 7:08 am

and you have friends who love you

words are your helpmates - the teacher in you uses them to
help others

"i'd rather learn from one bird how to sing
than teach ten thousand stars how not to dance"

so let your words sing, let them dance, let them find their way home into the hearts and minds of those who seek.

they are not all you have - but they ARE what you give

You cannot conceive the many without the one.


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 1:50 am:
I guess that's what I'm starting to think...the teacher role.

Is that it? Nothing more? To stand behind the curtain, pulling the switches, making the lights flash and the smoke blow...but never walking through the streets of the Emerald City?

*sigh*

Well...if that's my future, then I'll accept it....I'm not crazy about it, but who am I to argue with fate?

Sorry, you don't need this...you need to heal.

Thank you for your thoughts, I just don't see myself in a good light right now....

NSAAddict 42F

7/2/2006 7:37 am

offering a friendly smile and a warm hug


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 1:51 am:
Thank you...that helps...

I guess I'm looking at what lies ahead...and I'm disappointed with the view....sorry

angelofmercy5 59F
17881 posts
7/2/2006 7:42 am

The Dark Sage should realize that just as his illusions mesmerize him....his writings mesmerize others. And the ladies of blogland are saying to him.....we are real! There is something about your words that are rather magical....and they draw you into the story. I can often picture myself in your writings and that is magical. I have a book on my shelf that I pull out and read periodically called "The Mists of Avalon". It is about the women in the background of the story of Merlin and King Arthur. There is something magical about that book.....it draws me in and I find my thinking in real life moving in that book. Spooky in a way....but very magical. That is your gift my friend.....we are drawn into you in a very magical way. It is a gift that you give us every day! Thank you.


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 1:54 am:
Thank you angel

but that is what I'm starting to feel....I'm only to be a storyteller, a teacher, a weaver of words and stories....nothing more...

is that it? I wish the universe would make up it's mind about what comes next...because I'm weary from trying to figure it out for myself....

mysticdreamangel 61F
2759 posts
7/2/2006 11:20 am

I feel that what I wrote previously was inadequate so this is for you NG...

She rises in the morning knowing that there will be a story to greet her from The Dark Sage. She smiles with anticipation, but first she must get ready for work, play with and feed the dog, get the two lazy cats breakfast and chat with her son prior to his going to school. Once her son leaves she has a few moments prior to going into the law firm to sit back and enjoy the writing and teachings of this mysterious man…this man that has opened her eyes to the world again!

She settles at the computer and logs in hoping there will be fresh words from this enigmatic stranger. Yes, there is…she reads the words as they flow within her like the water rippling through a stream. She laughs with him, cries with him and most of all worships his gift. His gentle soul has reached into the deepest caverns of her being and has brought her back to life. For the moment she is content knowing there is someone out there that knows how she feels and no she is not alone.

With this in mind she knows that she must leave this place of sanctuary and face the real world once again. It is with a smile on her face and in her heart that she ventures out. The Dark Sage has woven his magic again and with that she knows the day will be better because of him as she knows he has done for the others that read the words.

She is quite aware that he grows tired just like the rest of us…but he never gives up…he never forgets how much we cherish his gift…he shares in a way that makes all of us heal…if only we could help him heal. She does know that with each message he receives he takes his time to respond. She hopes that he is holding the words written to him as closely as we hold his…The Dark Sage is loved and, because of that at least she knows, that love is not given to just anyone it takes the purest of heart to find the outpouring that travels his way day in and day out.

Rest easy Dark Sage…we all hear the mocking laughter ringing out from the demons in the corners of our mind a soul”…[/I]we all wonder if what we have is only illusion and imagery…for the rest of our lives”…[/I]you are not alone and never will be!

She will continue on with her daily journey with a wiser heart and will in her simplistic way pass on to others those lessons she has reaped from him. She will sleep easier knowing he is there…somewhere in his Dark Fortress writing in his journal….Thank you Dark Sage….

And yes she is real…

MDA


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 1:57 am:
I am genuinely touched by this...I just wish I could feel it myself at times....just once.

I guess I'm just wondering if writing is all I'm good for...nothing else...

never mind me....thank you for your kind comments, I really do appreciate them and the heart that stands behind them....

silverbreeze2 65F

7/2/2006 11:41 am

I agree totally with "angelofmercy5". I feel the same way. Your talent to create these stories is remarkable!


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 1:58 am:
Thank you...but I'm starting to think that is my only talent right now....

PlaynAgain 54F

7/2/2006 12:27 pm

From what I've read of both your writings and the comments to it you have much, much more in your life than illusion and imagery. I hope this is just writing and not a reflection of where you are right now, but if it is I send a hug to warm your mood....

"Attitude is everything. Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle. Live simply, Love generously, Care deeply, Speak kindly. Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, It's about learning to dance in the rain."


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 2:00 am:
No, this isn't just writing...this is something that stays inside of me all the time, coming out when I'm weary or down about something...

Thank you, though...I do appreciate it...

HBowt2 59F

7/2/2006 1:01 pm

self doubt is something that comes to us all but give it a kick on the ass and move past it. I can't speak for anyone but myself so all i will say is that someday I hope to have the honour of meeting the man that pens these wonderful stories....and it's not just the stories..its the wisdom and understanding that goes hand in hand in all your other posts. ..You give you time to sharing and spreading understanding and your comments on others blogs are insightful.....so squash those demons NG....you're out voted on this one....it seems we ladies are really here and wanting to spend a piece of their day with you....


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 2:02 am:
No matter how many votes you line up...I still see myself in the same way. My lady is probably the strongest willed woman I've ever met in my life...and she can't change this mindset I have...

sometimes, I just wonder if this is all there is, nothing more...

But I am honored that you would like to meet me someday, I just don't think it will ever happen, not just with you, but with anyone...other than the very very few that have come to meet my lady & I...

Thank you...

Whispersoftly5 52F
15176 posts
7/2/2006 1:42 pm

"this is what you have...illusion and imagery...for the rest of your life. Stick to writing...it's what you're good at...nothing else"

I hope that was just a fleeting thought in the midst of a sad moment or soemthing like that and you do not really believe that's true. Because it's not true.

Hugs and kisses to a man who is so much more special than he may realize.

Whisper...


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 2:31 am:
No, it's not a fleeting or passing moment. It's something that lurks in the back of my mind, making it's way to the forefront every now and then...

You say I'm special...thank you, I appreciate that...

but I just don't see it in myself, sorry...

MamChelle 48F  
1443 posts
7/2/2006 5:35 pm

i don't agree that that is all that You are good at...i have been blessed to know that You can be a good friend, and have never to my knowledge failed to answer a question asked without weighing Your answer...You flavor more worlds with honor and amusement than You may ever come to know...and my Friend, Lady...loves You..and it is plain to see that You are good at loving Her back. *smiles and leaves a little fairy dust for thought*


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 2:34 am:
But I guess I'm trying to say, "Is this all that I am, nothing more?"

Does that make sense?

Thank you for your words...they mean a lot, they really do...

ButteryDelight 58F

7/2/2006 6:14 pm

Stick to writing "It's what your good at nothing else".

Being good at writing is NOT nothing..It is a big something in the way it impacts those around you.

Buttery Delight


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 2:36 am:
True....

but what if I wanted to make another type of impact? That's what is rolling around in my mind....

Thanks...

SacredStarDance

7/2/2006 6:24 pm

please for give us...

We have not responded properly to your writings.. or you would not have this doubt about your art and what it delivers to our hearts and soul's

closes window left un locked.

under the stars
We choose to write
you choose what you comprehend.
read twice and be nice
every key stroke... has a heart beat


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 1:05 am:
No, please...it's nothing you've done or said...far from it....just something that's been eating at me for awhile...the feeling of just 'sitting on the bench, but never getting a chance at bat'...

Hope that makes sense, but in no way have you said or done anything that was out of line, please believe that!

lightswitch1963 69M/53F

7/2/2006 7:23 pm

I wish I had your talent for writing. Have you ever contacted a publisher?

We'll leave the light on for you.


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 2:38 am:
No, not yet...I have something going on in real time that is taking up most of my time, but when it settles down, I'll look into it, okay?

rm_shannee2006 52F
3355 posts
7/2/2006 7:42 pm

NG, Angel already said what I would have and said it better...I enjoy your writing and personally, I find that your imagination and sensual expressions only make you a more interesting man to me. I believe that the most important and erotic sex organ is the mind.

Yup...this juiciness is from me....

S


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 2:39 am:
True, the mind is the most important sex organ...

guess I'm being selfish right now is all....

lightswitch1963 69M/53F

7/2/2006 7:57 pm

Sorry about the double post........this has nothing to do wuth your blog....go to the handle mtufarker and read his blog another joke you should love it.

We'll leave the light on for you.


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 2:40 am:
Maybe later...right now, I don't think Sam Kinison could make me laugh...

LustyTaurus 48M  
21253 posts
7/3/2006 12:31 am

I don't know where your talent and inspiration come from, and I always find it remarkable...

Cool story about the snake in the parking lot too...


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 2:44 am:
LT,

I was fortunate to have a good teacher who encouraged me to write, to create stories, sometimes using only a sentence that she'd give out on a piece of paper....like "A cabin by a lake surrounded by trees" (try writing a 500 to 1000 words based on that)

As to the inspiration, it can be anything...the stories that have been requested have been a challenge for me....figuring out something about each lady, what they may like or not like, the setting, the characters, etc, etc, etc.....

I guess I should be happy to just create stories and tell tales....and nothing more....

Glad you liked the snake story....and it was true...thanks.

willing2tryit42 40M
1141 posts
7/3/2006 12:43 am

Another of your great eye opening experiences! Thank you!


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 2:46 am:
You are welcome, thank you....hope you saw the message in the story...

VTLakesideVixen 60F
458 posts
7/3/2006 2:04 am

The Dark Sage is there in the shadows standing guard, keeping it safe for our hearts and souls
to bring forth their yearnings and truths . . . .
What would become of us if The Dark Sage was not here to keep the ghoulies and monsters at bay?
What would we do without the great myths that The Dark Sage pens for our amusement when the dark, lonely nights occur? The daemons laugh and try to mock The Dark Sage for they know in no other way can they compete with his power for he rules supreme in The Dark Fortress .

Nae, nae, nae beloved Dark Sage we are real, we are here, we are your Ladies of Blogland--handmaidens of Lady Stee . . . . please do not abandon us to whatever wretched fate might await . . . .
Could it not be but a pothole in the road that NG's Lady and her handmaidens help guide you safely past?

Vixen lays the lavendar roses on The Dark Sage's journal, turning into one of the wisps of smoke disappearing from the chamber.

You inspire even the most insipid of writers to try. It was a very bad night for me, yet you managed to save me from doing something I am sure I would have been sorry for doing. I can only ask you to stay and keep writing . . . . please?


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 2:48 am:
The daemons are inside my own head and they've had run of the place since I was a child...long story and not very entertaining.

It is not so much a pothole as it is a crossroads....and which way I choose is important...

I will stick to writing fantasy.....guess real life is too much to believe in right now...

Thank you for the wonderful story...you do have a gift, you know...

Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 2:49 am:
I'm concerned....what was so bad that you almost made a wrong decision? If this is too public, I'll send an email, okay?

Shameless_Biotch 48F

7/3/2006 3:00 am

My Dark Teacher...
I feel your self-doubt, we all go through it, and I second, third and fourth everyone who sees the beauty of your soul shine through your writings...and cherish your gifts, so freely given...
I am one of those who turns on her computer just to see if you've written anything new...you make my day!
Maybe we could all get togehter for a party in your honor, to express IN PERSON how we feel THEN you wouldn't doubt how loved you are and what other "talents" you have!!( I would love to be on the bottom of THAT pile!!)

You are loved,

BELIEVE IT!!!!


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/4/2006 12:36 am:
SB,

Thank you...my self doubt comes from my self worth...or lack thereof...long story...one that I'm not sure I could post, you know?

I appreciate what you're saying....the idea of a party is a little intimidating, to be honest...believe it or not, I'm very shy around people when I first meet them....

Thanks again...talk to you soon...

MOfunNOWWOW 55F

7/3/2006 5:41 am

It wasn't a cold realization but a cold lieing daemon. You are our beloved Dark Sage! Kisses {=}


MOMO
just a squirrel trying to get a nut


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/4/2006 12:37 am:
MO,

Thank you...this daemon has been with me since I was a child...it never goes away and it is always present, whispering in my ear...

Maybe someday soon, I can tell you in person what this is all about, deal?

Thanks, I always appreciate MO help...

MamChelle 48F  
1443 posts
7/3/2006 8:15 am

Is this all thatr i am and nothing more....Damn if that doesn't ring true on how i am feeling.... now if i have to pull up my chin..please pull up Yours as well. *hugs tight*


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/4/2006 12:40 am:
chelle,

Thank you...but you feel that you are criticized by others...

my criticism comes from within....and that's tough...

As my lady will tell you, I'm good with lending a hand to other people...I just don't know how to accept a hand myself...

Thanks....

NGs_lady 64F
762 posts
7/3/2006 9:27 am

I was quiet here until I could think about it. Well I have THE PAST IS PAST people look at you now. I and a lot of people like you and your mind. You have a way of making people feel things that they love with your words and other ways. We are real not smoke at least some are you will find fakes any were you look, but some are not. Take refuge in knowing that a lot are real and want to meet you and get to know YOU as you are. Sorry I love you, but sometime I feel I need to voice my feelings.

Love and Hugs if you still want them.


NGs_lady Your lady


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/4/2006 12:44 am:
My most precious lady,

You know me both inside and out...you know what works at me, what eats at my soul, what I worry about...

I know you are real and I love you for it. But there are times when I feel like the walls are closing in on me...and this is one of those times. I'm sorry when you feel like I'm shutting you out, but I still cannot get used to the fact that you are willing to come into my darkness, wrap your arms around me, and tell me things will be okay....for so long, I never had anyone that was willing to do so, do you understand?

Yes, I always want your love and hugs...the day I stop wanting them is the day I leave this existance...to go roam the universe

You know you can always voice your feelings to me, in any way you feel comfortable, okay?

Your grateful, loving, and humble Sir

ohcurious14 59M
1683 posts
7/3/2006 9:38 am

Nods and understands!!!!


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/4/2006 12:45 am:
OhC,

Do you see the hidden dilemma that I face? I hope so....

Thanks....

ButteryDelight 58F

7/4/2006 10:37 pm

Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/3/2006 4:36 am:
True....

but what if I wanted to make another type of impact? That's what is rolling around in my mind....

Thanks...

Nightguy,


I think there are many who wish to make an impact a difference if you will. We all are searching and yearning. It must be apart of life as I too have looked at my life and its meager accomplishments and have said is this all there is? All there is to me?

I haven't yet discovered the answer to those questions.

Buttery Delight


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/6/2006 1:51 am:
BD,

You have such high aspirations...I'm afraid that mine are a little more base.....

Thanks....

ArtisticTwist75 41F
2505 posts
7/4/2006 10:43 pm

I think we each have a dark sage NG61. Some are just better at expressing. This was wonderful.

Artistic


Nightguy_1961 replies on 7/6/2006 1:52 am:
Thank you....I never would have thought that pitching a b*tch would be considered wonderful...

Thanks again....

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