Another Friday night.....stuck watching the world go by.....  

Nightguy_1961 55M
3324 posts
2/24/2006 11:34 pm

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Another Friday night.....stuck watching the world go by.....

I'm in the 4th hour of another Friday night here at the hotel.....and I'm tired.

I see yet another 'weekend warrior' pull in, looking for a place to 'knock boots' for awhile....and I'm tired.

I see my friends across the street at the all-night restaurant sitting around drinking coffee & laughing....and I'm tired.

I think about the fact that I'm a Grandfather 3 times over, with a 4th due in March.....and I'm tired.

I watched the cars go by, heading to who knows where.....and I'm tired.

I contemplate what is, what was, & what could be....and I'm tired.

I sign on...looking at some of the profiles here, readings the wants, wishes, and desires.....and I'm tired.

I catch a glimpse of my face in one of the lobby windows, and wonder who that gray haired, worn out old man is looking back.....and I'm tired.

I'm tired, not in the physical sense per se, but tired to my soul. I think back to all the time wasted, chances lost, opportunities squandered, and nights forgotten.

I cannot help but wonder, "Is this all there is? Is there something more I can do? What is my purpose here?" And the silence that answers my questions deafens me.....and I'm tired.

Damn....but how I hate working Friday nights.

NG....feeling that somehow, he's missed a step & won't be able to catch up with the rest of the world.
©Nightguy_1961 2006

sassybelle21 32F
13313 posts
2/25/2006 1:30 am

I'm tired too. Need more sleep. You better get some too

MamChelle 48F  
1443 posts
2/25/2006 7:08 am

that is a question going through my head as well my Friend..i am tired too. Is there such a thing as spiritual fatigue..because that is the description that leaps to my mind. *hugs to Y/you both*

NGs_lady 64F
762 posts
2/25/2006 7:39 am

when you get tired just remember all the good you have done for me and two boys that love you we are greatful to have you tired or not from the bottom of our harts we LOVE you

sportsfan362436 47F

2/26/2006 7:21 am

Unfortunate as this is, NG Sir... I do believe this is quite common.. (at least to those of us whose age is increasing). I feel sorry for the folks who feel this not, as I believe they have to soul with which to feel at all. You must listen to Your Lady, and dwell on all of the good you have and continue to do. I, for one, am very thankful to have met you now.... not many years ago when the knowledge you share may have fallen on deaf ears... (or worse yet, a closed mind). I can only offer warm thoughts and hugz during this trying time for you... and know that there are many of us 'here' for you... you do not necessarily always have to be the 'strong one'.

*Smiles, kisses n hugz*

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