It begins  

New_2_it_all2 53M
12 posts
2/2/2006 9:14 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

It begins

I already have a couple of interested emailers, and one is a very beautiful mistress close by who is being very helpful with this shy old boy!
If I can keep my nerve screwed up we'll be meeting next week and see how things go from there.

This is a LOT harder then I thought it would be. Seems my lifetime of high morals is a lot to overcome even in the face of drastic lust and sexual frenzy. I feel really bad about it in some ways, but keep thinking of the comedians joke about 'not being able to keep a dog under the porch if you don't throw it a bone now and again' ... much as I love my wife she just doesn't seem to care about my needs even when I beg - and she DID say in her vows she would 'bring joyous comfort my nights' or maybe I misheard and that was JOYLESS? (lol) At any rate I specifically DIDN'T say I'd be faithful because I knew even then the day might come and didn't want to make a vow I feared I couldn't keep - so why all the guilt?

Must be my religious upbringing coming through. I haven't even DONE anything yet and I feel all anxious about it - even know my wife probably wouldn't care and has stated she 'wouldn't want to know' which clearly indicated to me that she was OK with whatever I needed to do she just didn't want to be involved.

I could've met this lovely lady today if I wasn't doing chemo, and she IS lovely! Seems to be a good match for my fantasies too if I can just let myself go. Guess this is the first 'big' hurdle eh? (deep breath) ... here we go ...!

_CoffeeNoCream_ 52F

2/2/2006 10:47 am

enjoy the date

keithcancook 60M
17865 posts
2/2/2006 11:14 am

Yeah, it's tough to go against deeply ingrained morality. You will probably always have twinges if you go through with this.

maybe I misheard and that was JOYLESS?


Welcome to BlogLand, New 2! I hope you will check us out and maybe hang around for awhile.


New_2_it_all2 53M
17 posts
2/2/2006 7:08 pm

Thanks Keith, and you may be right. I'm still torn and thinking very hard about it. With my personality type and my morals it will be hard, but at the same time I'm dying here (literally) and if I DON'T live now I may never get the chance, you know?

Most of my regrets in my life have been what I DIDN'T do, not what I did - and despite trying to always do 'the right thing' I've never gotten ahead like I should so who knows. I'm going to take it as far as I'm comfortable and see ... hopefully I won't let anyone down or mislead anyone along the way - want to make friends and CHAT at least on here, not become known as a tease or anything!

Thanks again for the comment!

keithcancook 60M
17865 posts
2/3/2006 7:08 am

You will find many friends in here if you spend some time at it. I suggest starting by joining the Bloggers Group. It is called

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Link to it from the GROUP button at the top of the page and enter the name in the search engine. Join the group and post a short note introducing yourself. That will get the ball rolling.

The girls will love a handsome fellow like yourself in there, so come on over!

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