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Not much going on today. Few stories to tell, but not many.I started the day with the same feeling I do everyday. Thirsty for coffee.
As for anything remotely interesting, well, let's see. Ah, oh yeah. One of my friends visited today. She's a nice person, who I really react with. I mean, we're not dating friendly, but we're definately good friends.
She's a really cool person. We're into the same kind of things. It's like having a girlfriend who's into everything you are, and not being in a relationship. And I like it that way. I mean, she's cool and all. But dating her would be like dating my sister. It'd be too weird.
So yeah, she came over today. Her names Kristie, by the way. She's really, really into music. Maybe even more than I am. And I've never heard a girl play Bass quite like her. Actually, I haven't heard many men play Bass like her, either. She's got a lot of talent. I really hope she makes it someday. Her voice could melt your heart.
So we were jamming today. I played on my Guitar (preety cheap Epiphone, but it rocks so hard), and she was jamming away on that Bass.
I broke the uncoreographed jamming, and finally just said,
"Play 'Speed of Sound'"
I'm a huge Coldplay fan. We started playing, jamming along. We start singing. I don't wanna brag and sound vain, but wow. This was sounding really good. Escpecially her. I mean, I'm talented. I won my high school talent show with my voice. And she's owning me.
"You know, you could really make it," I said to her.
She blushed for a second. She as embarassed, and I was kinda surprised.
"I don't know. I mean, I'm not that good."
This is the kind of person she is, and has always been. Modest. Not like some of the other girls at my school. This is why we are such good friends.
Now, personally, I think she's crazy. She's got incredible skills on the Bass. I mean, she's just ripping along like it's nothing. And her voice is so sweet. It's breathtaking.
We continued along, and finally stopped. You ever had that awkward silence? This is what was happening.
Now, remember when I said she was like my sister? I really meant it. I looked over at her, and saw she had a weird look in her eyes.
"What's up?" I questioned.
"You know, you're like, my best friend," she replied.
"Same here. You're probably the coolest person I know."
She stayed quiet for a second. She finally came over to where I was sitting. More awkward silence.
"You know, you really are my best friend," she said.
She cut me off, with a kiss. I was shocked, to say the least. I mean, it was, like I said before, kissing your sister. She finally pulled away, a smile on her face. I kinda grinned. I mean, I didn't know how to react.
I mean, I'd kissed girls before. I'd been in relationships before. But none of them were like that. It was more passionate. But again, it was also really weird. I really like her, and I didn't want tp hurt her feelings. At the same time, I didn't want things to get weird between us.
"Uh, Kristie, you're my friend. My best friend at that. But, I'm not sure..."
She placed a finger on my mouth.
"I know," she replied. "But I just couldn't help it."
Again, surprise me. She kissed me again. Ever have that fireworks feeling going in your head. This is what I was feeling right now. I mean, I wasn't sure if I could have a relationship with her. It'd be, like I said so many times before, weird. But eventually, I went along with it.
We didn't have sex. I don't think I could've brought myself to. I mean, she's preety and all. I'd go as far as to say she's one of the preetiest girls in our school. And she was definately hot. But I respect her too much. No. I wouldn't have been able to do it.
After we stopped, there was another awkward moment of silence.
"I'll drive you home," I finally said. Not the most romantic line, but I was still in a state of shock. I opened her door for her (which should've been my sign to run while I still had the chance), and drove her home. I walked her to her door (another sign). She kissed me again, before heading inside.
My head was spinning. It was really, really strange. I mean, does she want to be in a relationship? Was it just testing our boundaries? It'd be too weird for me to have a relationship with her. And this isn't the gay man in me talking. I'm bisexual, believe me. I've loved girls a lot longer than men.
But to actually have a real relationship would be, well, for lack of a better term than the one used before, weird.
I just hope it was like, testing our boundaries. I really like her. Hell, I love her. She's my best friend. I'd do anything for her. But I have too much respect for her to ruin it all with a relationship. Esecially if it ever got sexual. I don't know. Maybe someone out there has some advice. At least, I hope they do.