Fuck This Shit  

NawtieBBWwantsit 45F
99 posts
4/8/2006 10:35 pm

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4/14/2006 10:09 pm

Fuck This Shit


I'm thinking about leaving the state of Georgia.

I love Georgia.
Don't get me wrong.
But after being back here for almost 8 months,
I wish I wasn't here at all.

The happiest I have ever been was when I lived in South Carolina and North Carolina.

Away from my family and my past.

I'm not tied to this place.
I came back to do what was right.
To take care of my ailing mother.
But since she doesn't appreciate it,
and I'm not so sure shes as bad off as she makes herself out to be,
I think I have made a bad choice in coming back here.

I gave up a real Good Job.
A nice home.
Drug free friends.
A boyfriend. (well giving him up was a good thing)
and A lifestyle that was very comfortable.

For what?

For unhappiness thats what.

I've packed up and left before.
I can do it again.
It's nothing to me to just start over.
I'm good at starting over.

Moving to a new place where no one knows me, is like having a new lease on life.

My friends in SC & NC don't view me the same as people here in Gainesville.
They never met my crazy mother.
They never knew about my lil stint with Drugs when I was a teenager.
They don't know anybody in my huge ass, non birth control using, holier than thou, family.

Therefore the only things they do know about me, is how I acted and what I did when I was there. And I miss that. I miss them. I miss my life. Because being here means I no longer have that respected life.

Now I just get disrespect and all the time.

Its enough to make me not care.
Its enough to make me not want to be here.

I think I will go back.

I care enough to keep in contact by phone.
But not enough to be here.


pet_humility 48F

4/10/2006 8:16 am

I am in the same boat. I don't want to leave
the state cause I just know my parents are going
to need me soon.
I often wondered if others felt that obligation to stay
and take care of loved ones, and give up their life to do so..

I would love to move out of state, but I get a feeling
I should have either done it long ago, or now I'm going
to have to wait until my parents are gone.

So knowing that, I make the best of what I got now, and
not dwell on what I could have some where else.


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