Why Can  

NAUGHTYSEXY25 36F
304 posts
1/19/2006 9:36 pm

Last Read:
3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Why Can

"You came along, unexpectedly
I was doing fine in my little world
Oh baby please don't get me wrong
'Cause I'm not complaining
But you see, you got my mind spinning"

Every person has their own safe haven. It could be a place where no one can touch you. Maybe, a charm that keeps the demons away in the long cold nights or it can even be a moment in time that you can relive those few seconds when nothing could hurt you.

Like a child being cradled within his mother’s arms, even if the tempest came, the child will remain undisturbed by the world around him. He will sleep soundly knowing that if the world was torn from within, he would always have those loving arms around him, keeping him safe from those who will wish him harm.

As for me, I found it in solitude. For a long time, I believed that no one can ever hurt me ever again, that no one can affect me and that I will survive no matter what. I thought that by placing a barrier of a seemingly cold fa├žade, I could be spared from being hurt, from being torn apart by emotions that I could never control.

I was confident about this. I was so much in control. But I never prepared for someone who could tear down those walls I built so high. I never knew that my defenses could be shattered in an instant and it would leave me drifting aimlessly -- hoping to regain the control I once had. _ _ _ _ _, I never expected YOU…

"Baby I dream of you every minute
You're in my dreams
You're always in it
That's the only place I know
Where you could be mine
And I'm yours
But only till I wake up"

I’ve seen your best and your worst, yet I remained. Have you ever wondered why? Whenever youth brings those brash and impulsive tendencies, I constantly tried to bring reason because I could never bear the pain of seeing you hurt. Whenever tears filled your eyes, I wanted to wrap my arms around you and tell you that everything’s going to turn out better. Whenever clouds of loneliness and sadness overshadowed you, I may not have brought the sun to shine again but I’d give everything I am so I could share the burden with you. And if ever fear would dare lay its hands on you, I would have held your hand and whispered: “Don’t worry, I’ll keep you safe.”

The main reason for these would be: In each and every passing day, your voice echoes in the deepest recesses of my mind until it fills every cavern of my heart. There was never a day that thoughts of you didn’t come into my mind.

When I eat, I walk, I sleep, I breathe, no matter what I do, I think of you. Your thoughts kept me alive despite the many times I wanted to give up. Your smile gave me what I needed to bring meaning back into life. Your eyes gave the sparkle I needed to bring a sense of hope when everything was dim.

Despite those, you never saw through me. You never saw me, the real me. You didn’t see how much you mean to me and what I would have given up to be with you. Yet, I remained hoping and dreaming. Those were the only things I could do. HOPE you’ll someday see me as me. DREAM that things were different, so much different as they are now.

"Why can't it be
Why can't it be the two of us
Why can't we be lovers, only friends
You came along at the wrong place
At the wrong time
You came along at the wrong place
At a wrong time or was it me"

I couldn’t help but cringe in pain and pretend my world is still intact. I can’t help but show you I’m ok, that I don’t hurt. But deep inside, there are a lot of wishes and questions I have…

Maybe if things were different, maybe if we met under different circumstances, maybe if we met at a different time, maybe if I treated you differently or maybe if I was entirely a different person, you could see more of me than how you see me now.

If only you could...
Look at me -- not in a glance but with something deeper.
Read me -- read my heart and read my fears.
Talk to me -- not with words devoid of understanding but with a tone more than how we used to talk to each other.

I may have never told you but I’m telling you now, “I love you. I love you more in every passing day. I love you more than I could ever explain.”

"Why can't it be?"

Why can’t you see me, the same way I see you?

**Dedicated to my Friend Danny**


nightnsa 48M  
415 posts
1/20/2006 7:02 am

very nice....sad


NAUGHTYSEXY25 36F

1/23/2006 12:39 am

yes! he wrote this blog once her gf left him last year. Now he promise to be single for life.


dashingdan2000 46M
27 posts
1/23/2006 5:59 am

wow! that was a hopelessly romantic piece. well, i think talagang romantic yata mga danny like my tukayo, your friend. for awhile i thought you were dedicating it to me. hehehe! but im very sure im not him. hehe! though i think i have also fell in love that way before. and it really is sad......but one has to learn to move on. that's life....

but why did you repost it here naughty? are you in this hopelessly romantic state too???


NAUGHTYSEXY25 36F

1/29/2006 3:11 am

Definitely not you Dan. He's a good friend from.

Just an ice breaker. When everything gets tough we can never go back from the past but all we're memries to reminisce. Now i learn not to regret but experiences made me learn how to sympathize I've been there before. Me and danny share similar expreiences, now he promised to be single forever and it's not fair. I always reminded him to stand and believe that someday his right woman will come along. Weird nga eh! di pa rin kami nagkikita ng personal puro chat lang kasi ayaw ko makipag eb hahaha. Me and Danny are both expressive so nagkakasundo kami, unfortunately talagang matigas po siya waya na magkagirlfriend.


dashingdan2000 46M
27 posts
1/29/2006 3:44 am

why no reply yet? what's up my friend?


rm_xjxxrx 37M
88 posts
2/1/2006 10:41 am

i thought you wrote this sad romantic experience...& i agree with you it is unfair for him to live a single life forever. life is a great adventure...you love & you get hurt..laugh & cry...win & loose..
i hope your friend danny will realize & see the real world!
anyway...just want to admire your thoughts & also...of course your great body...
you are really naughty sexy!


dashingdan2000 46M
27 posts
2/2/2006 6:27 am

naughty, bkit ayaw makipag EB? kahit friendly meeting lang? how can you live up to your handle "naughty"? it seems ur not naughty at all. hehehe! joke lang. i hope EB na tyo when u return to manila. just a cup of coffee and some good conversation will do. so what do you think?

just like your friend danny, you also have to move on from your past relationship, whether you like it or not. it does not necessarily mean you enter into another love relationship kagad. same as your friend. hindi sya dapat magsalita ng tapos. but it would be better if he just gain new friends for now. a serious relationship could come later. same as with you.

and a friend like me would be a good therapy for you. remember, just coffee and talk. i will be a perfect gentleman, promise! hehe!


NAUGHTYSEXY25 36F

2/4/2006 6:48 pm

Nuaghty's been a sentimental fool these says. We shared almost same experiences for our respective past relationships.


NAUGHTYSEXY25 36F

2/4/2006 7:30 pm

WELL WELL, i'm still naughty since the first time u know me on AdultFriendFinder .


rm_Carcass3 34M
18 posts
2/6/2006 7:59 am

You know Im nearing this situation when I'll also give up. the only difference is I've never experience any relationships at all, morover intimate situations.


rm_xjxxrx 37M
88 posts
2/6/2006 9:31 am

sentimentality is being human... so is being fool & naughty...anyone can be... but not everyone can be sexy... like you


rm_Pare888 40M
35 posts
2/16/2006 11:57 pm

hey, hey, hey! i read it. i took time reading it.. thought it was naughty's.. anyways, very rich in "words".. hi guys.. you all are still very active huh?

c'mon carcass what's happenning to you? isn't life's so sad with that? can we help? or should i have said can i help?


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