That BITCH Hurt Me... A TRUE LOVE STORY; Part deux  

MrNuttz05 49M
1845 posts
12/21/2005 3:18 am

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That BITCH Hurt Me... A TRUE LOVE STORY; Part deux

For six weeks, six weeks, this girl & I were inseperable... Walks, movies, trips, you name it, we did it... I loved her deeply, never said it, but I think she knew it...
Saturday 6 pm...
She told me that she was sick, wasn't feeling good, so she couldn't go eat with me. So, me being the guy that I am, I decide to go pick her something up. I go over to her room to see what she would like... I turn the door knob, but the door is locked... It's never locked... I knock... she answers... I go to walk in, but she stops me with a stiff arm to the chest... I am confused... I catch a movement of something, no, someone on her bed... All I could see was his legs... Long legs... Legs that hung over the bed... And his shoes... Good God!... Size 18, hell maybe even bigger... My heart!... Couldn't breathe... Couldn't muster one word... I was confused, hurt, overwhelmed to say the least... But what she did next hurt me even more... As a matter of fact, it still hurts... She pushed me out & closed the door... Not a word... Without a single syllable... I was standing OUTSIDE her door... What just happened to me?... To us?... Do I knock again? Do I confront her? I wanted to, but I couldn't... I was hurt...

I needed answers so I went to see Liz, my friend, her buddy. I told her what had just happened to me... Her words, "So, you didn't know?"... Know?... Know what?... "That she had a boyfriend. He was away traveling with the basketball team. I thought you knew. She said that she was going to tell you!" Off to room 207 I went... This was a road that I had never been down... My ego was bruised... Fuck bruise, it was gone!... My pride was a puddle... My eyes, transparent... My heart had been badly abused by this woman, that I would have done anything in world for... Days seemed like weeks... The word spread that 'RONNIE' Man was back & Nuttz got a beatdown... It didn't matter... He could not inflict anymore pain on me than what she did... And to make matters worse, she would still come up to my place of work... To see Liz of course... & she would still speak to me... Hi Nutty... As if NOTHING had ever happened between us... Quickly & I do mean QUICKLY, this woman that I adored became a BITCH that I couldn't cope with... "Can we talk?"... "Nope, Nutty, don't have any time."... Her & "Wilt Chamberlain" were all over town, living it up!... He had to be, oh I would say, 6'6"-6'7", about 230-240 lbs.... big guy... But of course Nuttz could have took him... But he was not the enemy... She was... To her I didn't exist... To her I never EXISTED... I was her "Boytoy"... her sperm donor... I just conneced her dots while her lover was away for a couple of months... I was so blinded by my love that I couldn't even see it... In my eyes, A BITCH was born...

to be continued...

curious082385 31F
4925 posts
12/22/2005 2:01 am

Well, I must say that this is a very difficult post to reply to. One of the few times that I am speechless, reading the heartache and betrayal between the lines of your story. As one who is all too familier with that kind of pain, should I tell you how sorry I am that you had to feel it? Or say that some women just don't know how to recognize the love of a good man when they have it in front of them? Or should I agree with your anger?
Or perhaps this is one of those situations where words simply aren't right.

dasher121 36M

12/22/2005 3:34 am

shaking head at the ignorance of others.

CelticKarma 43F
1350 posts
12/22/2005 7:49 am


spoldrtn812 51F  
1056 posts
12/22/2005 3:35 pm

When I think of the pain a past "love" caused me I take great pride in reminding myself "It's alright he made me a better woman for the next man"..It's a shame we learn too late the art of communication!

Knowing you king, the way I do, I knew she'd earned the title!!

waiting with baited breath!

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MrNuttz05 49M

12/22/2005 9:32 pm

I was oh so innocent... To be 18 & in love is to be wide open & vulnerable... I was alone, halfway across the world. Mom couldn't hug me, dad couldn't pat me on the back, my homie was back in the states. I have never been so alone...

Curious - I was so angry! And after evaluating it all, it was not because she wanted to ge her separate ways, it was HOW she went her separate way...

Dash - Never knew that a small thing like love can bring me down to pup! I can look at it & smile now, but during that time my friends were concerned.

CelticKarma - Thanks for dropping by... Sorry that it's during a BLOG that I was forced to my knees by love.

Spldrtn812 - I had to bounce back, I had to regain my pride. It taught me one of the most valuable lessons in life, more than one actually! But it took me a while to learn that lesson. She turned me into something that I was not! Please read on!

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