So much to think about.  

MrMagicHands72 44M
6 posts
1/30/2006 3:05 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

So much to think about.

So, I have reviewed the comments on my question that I posted in the Magazine, here on AdultFriendFinder. Some pretty interesting comments came as a result. There is this one fucker who likes to call me a lier and cheater. He can go fuck himself, for that one. Not for what he said, but for how he said it.

Then, there were others who totally chimed in with what I was saying.

There was one female respondent who said that because I am married, that women would not be interested in contacting me. That one made me think.

I am in a hellofa situation. Having never lived the single life, and only seeing it lived out in all of my friends when was in the Army, I see that I missed out on a lot.

Another dimension to all of this IS my relationship. It IS a good relationship. But, not at all close to perfect. Although, we are mutually supporting and loving, we are not on the same page, sexually. And no matter how much we discuss it and try to be open about it, I seem to get nowhere. Its like I am in a never ending Lufberry circle. If I was on the same page with her, I wouldn't even be here. But, alas, she and I aren't. So, I feel like I have no choice. And its not like this hasn't been discussed a million times before in the past 14 years. It has. So, the fact still remains. I AM married. And I AM looking.

Its not like I haven't tried to work on my relationship. I have. But, you can't change someone, else. In fact, I wouldn't want to. But, if I could, I would have her join me on this joourney, together. I think it would be alot of fun. She isn't interested; has no real imput on the matter. And says she is happy the way things are. What am I supposed to do about that? I am not happy with the way things are. I make the effort. I really do. But, she isn't receptive. I am even more than willing for her to go out and explore her sexuality with other people. That is how secure I feel about our relationship.

So, misery seeks company. I suppose, that it what I am looking for: a woman who is in the same boat. Her man doesn't seem to satisfy all her needs and she has to find it somewhere, else. If its meant to be, its meant to be. In the meantime, I still continue to work on my own relationship. I keep an open mind.

rm_goddess1946 105F
13518 posts
1/30/2006 6:43 pm

Be true to yourself.
.......................and stay honest in your search.
There are so many phases to life...and learning to live
differently can offer up much insight and many experiences
along the know what's going on with you better
than anyone else. People just are where they are ...

Just a little food for thought.............
If you really want to be happy, nobody can stop you...

MrMagicHands72 44M

1/31/2006 9:55 am

Thank you for your words. They mean a lot. I am at transition point in my life. I totally agree with what you are saying about phases. Each phase in our life is training to prepare us for the next. Kind of like preparing for a game. You learn from past experiences and use that wisdom in the future. That is where I am at. I have seen young people leave this earth in tragic events. We never know how much time we have. So, I feel like I need to experience life like I won't have a tomorrow. But, not in a self destructive sense. I don't think poisoning my body is living my life, as others do. But, I look for enriching experiences that stimulate the mind, body and soul.
I'm not into athletics or extreme sports and I am not a drinker, so sex is one of my "feel goods." I have other things that I take great enjoyment in, as well. But, sex is up there on the list, as I am sure it is for all of us. I have a desire to explore my sexuality; to expand my horizons. But, like most other of my endevours, it seems a journey that I must take alone. Such, is my dilemma. So, I have decided that I will work on two fronts. One, with her, encouraging her to join me, and two, if she won't join me, than I feel I must go it alone. I feel this is something that I must do for my own peace of mind.

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