Come what May  

MadiCowx 30F
315 posts
9/19/2005 7:02 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Come what May

So, my life is either awsome...or pointless its seems. My mom always

said I was manic depressive, LOL, and I think that comment was the most

Manic-depresive thing I have ever heard.... But in all honesty...Thats

how I feel...Way up or way down. What amazes me is how one seeming

small thing can be the deciding factor in which turn Im taking in this

part of life.

I'm not making much sense of this rambling, as usual, and in my defense, I have already been awake from 3 hours, which is amazing, considering it's only 9AM...See right there, thats something that I usually don't do..But you know what...I have reasons to wake up in
mornings now, Hanging around all day in bed, alone, no longer appeals to me. At least for now.... ::shrugs::

I have had the most amazing learning experience in the past few weeks... I have discovered things that I never though possible, things I never could have even imagined....Ha, the anti social mean girl is showing emontion! What is the world coming to?! I'm not just talking sexually either hehe... Though I could talk about that too, Just some things are more ..well, they're better left to the imagination...

hehe...PLEASE don't show anyone those pictures! ::giggle:: And Boo, if

i see that ish ANYWHERE youre dead... ::muah::

So, I'm having some issues. Some ::scoffs:: ha... lol... But

anyway...I'm still so scared of what I'm getting into here...Part of me

just wants to stop it all now, to avoid any further attachment...Try to

keep it a clean break...One of those, I'm only gonna hurt you, so you

can't hurt me first kinda things.... Ooops.. lol, no one else has ever

done that? LOL...hell I gotta live defensivly! But every other ounce of

ANYTHING and EVERYTHING in me can't even think about the time when this

will all be gone... Damn I'm such a pessamist...I need a dictionary...

Apparently that semester I spent in college didn't do much.. heh...

I've found my happy place...i've found my "bliss" Its you...It's being

with you, It's the moment that I catch you looking at me, and our eyes

meet, and I'm just lost in the them, that moment where nothing else

matters except that you are there with me. I guess its a good thing I

couldn't get off my knees that night... LOL. Subliminal submission is

what I'd call the way I delivered that confession... ::content sigh::

But enough of this, I think Im using a blog for the wrong purposes,

lol, It seems I'm one of the few weirdos who use this thing as an

actual "journal " LOL. But hell, aint no shame in my game right? Even

when "I'm SOBBAAAA" I need to start throwing some porny stuff in here,

lol, start pretending at least to be normal...But, alas, I can't make

up any good ish, and i'm sure as hell no longer telling mine. Like I

said earlier, some details are better left out...But let me say, I am

learning ALOT real fast ...hehe, and loving the journey!


"You don't wanna be here In the future
So you say that the present is just pleasant
interuption for the past"

I just watched Moulin Rouge... Cant find my copy so rented it.. Damn i remember why I liked this movie so much....

"Come What May"
I never knew I could feel like this
Like Ive never seen the sky before
What advantage inside your case
Every day i love you more... and more
Listen to my heart
Can you hear it sing?
Telling you to give me everything
Seasons may change
Winter to spring
But I love you
Till the ends of day
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Sudden everything moves with such a perfect grace
suddenly my life doesnt seem such a waste
It all revolves around you

And theres no mountain to high
No river to wide
Sing out this song and Ill be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And star may collide
But i love you
I'll love you
Till the end of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

~~**~~ This was the only song inth emovie totally written for it... lol

rm_mtnravyn 60M
890 posts
9/19/2005 8:09 am

I do not think a personal blog can be used fro a "wrong purpose." And we journal in different ways. How do emotions experss themselves? That is the beauty of being human, the myriad manifestaions of the divine. While I do not always understand what you are saying, I often hear the feeling underlying the words. I know it is somewhat oxymoronic to "hear feelings" but that is how my senses work. And if you are learning in the process, then "hooray for you" Never stop learning and never stop growing. In referring to an earlier blog, I have gone 15 years older and 15 years younger in my relationships and both have been gifts for me. And I have been mentored by significantly older and seen wisdom in sgnificantly younger, so out learning is not limited by age but by our willingness to follow those little sparks that whisper "Here may be a gift for you."

rm_luke69iner 48M
3275 posts
9/19/2005 11:23 pm

Your blog like your life can be whatever you want it to be

living is the biggest risk you can take in life

best wishes for you

come what may

S'io credesse che mia risposta fosse
A persona che mai tornasse al mondo,
Questa fiamma staria senza piu scosse.
Ma perciocche giammai di questo fondo
Non torno vivo alcun, s'i'odo il vero,
Senza tema d'infamia ti rispondo

eroticneurotic 46M

9/20/2005 12:14 pm

Very wise words mtnravyn, you make perfect sense to me.

You too Luke, that's why it's called "my blog" right?

Madi, bliss is a wonderful thing, other than that I'm speechless right now. I can see by this, that you have learned a lot in a short amount of time. Suddenly the world seems like such a perfect place, come what may. Yes, it is a good thing you couldn't.

destinybound30 41F

9/21/2005 2:48 pm

OK, im dying to know who this person is that has u soooo confused yet so turned on.....please , even if just in secret...been dying to know...think i have an idear{hehe} but not sure...curiosity is gettin the best of me

rm_MisterFrumpy 46M
428 posts
9/21/2005 10:38 pm

keep reading destiny its not exactly listed as top secret LOL

eroticneurotic 46M

9/22/2005 10:31 am

LMAO Frump!

MadiCowx 30F

9/23/2005 8:08 am

::whisper whisper::


destinybound30 41F

9/23/2005 1:13 pm

Yeah Thanks Frimp, i mean Frump! Im always the last to know things...waaah! lol .And i said i had an idea but i dont like to assume ya know...

destinybound30 41F

9/23/2005 1:15 pm

And Madi, props to u gurl,cuz he is F.I.N.E....And nothing wrong with the age difference.As long as you guys have things in common and get ur freak on good then thats all that matters. And i can just tell hes sooo smitten by your little cute self.

LovableEclectic 59F

9/25/2005 11:48 am

Hey aren't mean at all. I don't know why you would say that about yourself. Keep smiling.

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