Another New Beginning?  

MadiCowx 30F
315 posts
9/23/2005 1:15 pm

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Another New Beginning?

I'm a real indecisive person...I was at the grocery store the other day, and, er... I was.. ::cough cough:: in a good mood, and I spent 20 minutes, yes TWENTY MINUTES deciding WHICH type of brownie mix I wanted...I guess that was bad example, but you get my drift, I am a horrible decision maker...But yes, again, Im female..soo eh... ya know.

I had a big choice the other day...And I'm pretty confident in my decision. Which is NOT normal. I always second guess myself....but so far , nothing.And let me tell you, this choice was a wee bit more important than the brownie thing...Even to a smoker... :::giggle::

But, it's the little things that make you realize that you're happy. I was driving the other day, and I HATE driving, if my car is somewhere, chances are I have someone with me...and they've been driving my car. I passenger in my own car more than I drive it. But anyway, back to what i was saying, I was driving, and I was lookin over the bridge, and thinking about how pretty it was, I had totally clear mind. I then realized I had driven 60 miles, and hadn't smoked one cigarette. I can't drive without smoking usually, Im such an uptight driver...But at that point, i found peace with it.

I think I found some burried inner peace too, Something I hadn't seen in awhile. No eveythings not great, I didnt win the lottery, but Im OK...And I know I'm OK...So that makes me happy. I'm not the greatest at expressing myself with words apparently, lol . It wasn't a financially good decision, in fact , lol, Financially it was stupid...But emontionally is was exactly what I needed to jump start myself....Finding myself.

rm_luke69iner 48M
3275 posts
9/23/2005 2:54 pm

OK is good enough in life Madi

best wishes


S'io credesse che mia risposta fosse
A persona che mai tornasse al mondo,
Questa fiamma staria senza piu scosse.
Ma perciocche giammai di questo fondo
Non torno vivo alcun, s'i'odo il vero,
Senza tema d'infamia ti rispondo

rm_MisterFrumpy 46M
428 posts
9/23/2005 9:17 pm

heres to more good decisions from you, FOR you

MadiCowx 30F

9/24/2005 8:56 am

::holds breath:: Here Frump, wanna hit this? LOL!


eroticneurotic 46M

9/24/2005 9:42 am

I think you made a very wise decision and like you said, it will allow you to have a new beginning. The main thing is that you are OK and your mind is free of the stress that you've been enduring. You've found some inner peace and maybe a little happiness that is so valuable. The financial part will work itself out in due time. As Bob would say, don't worry, 'bout a ting, ery lil' ting is gonna be alright. Nobody's got their claws in you know my friend and you can crash into me, I won't let you fall.

Sweet like candy to my soul,
sweet you rock and sweet you roll
Lost for you, I'm soooo lost for you
and you come craashh....into me.....and I come intooo you

eroticneurotic 46M

9/24/2005 12:16 pm

You know Frump don't do that ish, but hand it over here, I'll take it fo' sho'.

MadiCowx 30F

9/24/2005 2:22 pm

I've actually been wiating for ya for that En..LOL...It's REALLY HARD! ::wink wink::


destinybound30 41F

9/24/2005 6:38 pm

puff puff pass jk, no im not,pass that shizz-nit

rm_MisterFrumpy 46M
428 posts
9/24/2005 11:12 pm

thanks for the offer but keep that crap away from me LOL

LovableEclectic 59F

9/25/2005 11:54 am

I doubt this will make sense but I'll give this a try -

I think it is more important to feel "okay" when things aren't perfect...when things are just real. Anyone can be "okay" when skies are blue and everyone loves us. It takes a person with real character and inner substance to be "okay" when things are just so-so...or worse.

I'm happy to hear you are "okay" Madi. I think I am too.

SirMounts 102M

10/26/2005 6:02 pm

Oh, that's a no-brainer. It's the chewy brownies with the peacans.

SirMounts 102M

10/26/2005 6:03 pm

Oh, that's a no-brainer. It's the chewy brownies with the pecans.

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