Another New Beginning?  

MadiCowx 30F
315 posts
9/23/2005 1:15 pm

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Another New Beginning?


I'm a real indecisive person...I was at the grocery store the other day, and, er... I was.. ::cough cough:: in a good mood, and I spent 20 minutes, yes TWENTY MINUTES deciding WHICH type of brownie mix I wanted...I guess that was bad example, but you get my drift, I am a horrible decision maker...But yes, again, Im female..soo eh... ya know.

I had a big choice the other day...And I'm pretty confident in my decision. Which is NOT normal. I always second guess myself....but so far , nothing.And let me tell you, this choice was a wee bit more important than the brownie thing...Even to a smoker... :::giggle::

But, it's the little things that make you realize that you're happy. I was driving the other day, and I HATE driving, if my car is somewhere, chances are I have someone with me...and they've been driving my car. I passenger in my own car more than I drive it. But anyway, back to what i was saying, I was driving, and I was lookin over the bridge, and thinking about how pretty it was, I had totally clear mind. I then realized I had driven 60 miles, and hadn't smoked one cigarette. I can't drive without smoking usually, Im such an uptight driver...But at that point, i found peace with it.

I think I found some burried inner peace too, Something I hadn't seen in awhile. No eveythings not great, I didnt win the lottery, but Im OK...And I know I'm OK...So that makes me happy. I'm not the greatest at expressing myself with words apparently, lol . It wasn't a financially good decision, in fact , lol, Financially it was stupid...But emontionally is was exactly what I needed to jump start myself....Finding myself.

rm_luke69iner 48M
3275 posts
9/23/2005 2:54 pm

OK is good enough in life Madi

best wishes

always
luke


S'io credesse che mia risposta fosse
A persona che mai tornasse al mondo,
Questa fiamma staria senza piu scosse.
Ma perciocche giammai di questo fondo
Non torno vivo alcun, s'i'odo il vero,
Senza tema d'infamia ti rispondo
.
~Dante~


rm_MisterFrumpy 46M
428 posts
9/23/2005 9:17 pm

heres to more good decisions from you, FOR you


MadiCowx 30F

9/24/2005 8:56 am

::holds breath:: Here Frump, wanna hit this? LOL!

>MADI<


eroticneurotic 46M

9/24/2005 9:42 am

I think you made a very wise decision and like you said, it will allow you to have a new beginning. The main thing is that you are OK and your mind is free of the stress that you've been enduring. You've found some inner peace and maybe a little happiness that is so valuable. The financial part will work itself out in due time. As Bob would say, don't worry, 'bout a ting, ery lil' ting is gonna be alright. Nobody's got their claws in you know my friend and you can crash into me, I won't let you fall.

Sweet like candy to my soul,
sweet you rock and sweet you roll
Lost for you, I'm soooo lost for you
and you come craashh....into me.....and I come intooo you


eroticneurotic 46M

9/24/2005 12:16 pm

You know Frump don't do that ish, but hand it over here, I'll take it fo' sho'.


MadiCowx 30F

9/24/2005 2:22 pm

I've actually been wiating for ya for that En..LOL...It's REALLY HARD! ::wink wink::

>madi<


destinybound30 41F

9/24/2005 6:38 pm

puff puff pass biotch....lol jk, no im not,pass that shizz-nit


rm_MisterFrumpy 46M
428 posts
9/24/2005 11:12 pm

thanks for the offer but keep that crap away from me LOL


LovableEclectic 59F

9/25/2005 11:54 am

I doubt this will make sense but I'll give this a try -

I think it is more important to feel "okay" when things aren't perfect...when things are just real. Anyone can be "okay" when skies are blue and everyone loves us. It takes a person with real character and inner substance to be "okay" when things are just so-so...or worse.

I'm happy to hear you are "okay" Madi. I think I am too.


SirMounts 102M

10/26/2005 6:02 pm

Oh, that's a no-brainer. It's the chewy brownies with the peacans.


SirMounts 102M

10/26/2005 6:03 pm

Oh, that's a no-brainer. It's the chewy brownies with the pecans.


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