Loosing my virginity  

Mackey05 39F
508 posts
3/4/2005 10:48 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Loosing my virginity


I wish I had some exciting story to tell, but I wasn't one of the lucky people who had a very special experience or something that really sticks out in their mind because it meant so much.

My ex ( yes, the affair guy who was one of my high school teachers.. he was 27 and I was 18. ) and I had messed around for months and I kept begging him to take my virginity because I really wanted to have sex with him. I never put much importance on being in the 'V' club. Each time he'd tell me we needed to wait until we were sure about our relationship and I knew I really wanted to have it with him. I had made up my mind and was getting frustrated that he kept putting on the brakes. I wanted to be good in bed and be able to please him and be the best he ever had and felt the only way to do that was learn as much as I could about sex.... Feel free to laugh.... As I do with anything in life I want to know as much as I can before doing something or making any decisions.... I watched porn religiously studying everything that was done. I evaluated techniques and positions and talked to experienced friends to get more tips. I even bought the Kama Sutra and read the whole thing.

The day came and I popped in for a visit. We ducked into the school bookstore and all I remember is being on the floor with him on top going at it in missionary position. He was gentle and started slow asking if it hurt and if I was okay. It didn't last long and he came, pulled out, then took off the condom. I wish I could remember more of what was said and done before and afterward but I am drawing a blank.

rm_ironic2bhere 47M

3/4/2005 11:07 pm

How was your date friday night ?
Was he fun? Are you going out again ?
Was he a gentleman?


shystud78 38M

3/4/2005 11:08 pm

wow that is hot makes me wish i was your teacher


SigEp4U 42M

3/5/2005 12:27 am

I for one am glad I wasn't your teacher. Dude... fucking pissed me off. Not because I don't think your desirable or anything to do with that.... but because... well just becaue I don't believe that you meant this to be a story that was suppose to turn anyone on.

Maybe I am wrong... this isn't my blog and I should probably keep my mouth shut (yea I've been drinking a little tonight) so I am sure that it is affecting the way I am writing. Anyway... feel free to delete this response if you feel that I am out of line.

I'll probably erase this anyway before I post it.. but damn it sure feels good to state my opinion.

I just want you to know... that the post that I wrote about having friends come and go in our life, was mainly in part because I didn't know... if you were going to post again.

I knew that if you didn't... that since I didn't know your name, who you are, etc... that you would just be a good memory... and for some reason that really got to me.

You too have done a lot for me... in all of this... more than what you will probably ever know. It's not that I need a new relationship to make me feel good about myself... but it's because I feel as if you listened to me and cared.

Actually... it's more than that, with my wife, I try to show her that I care and that I love her... in the exact same manner that I try to show others that I care about them, but it goes unrecognized.

Having you care, that I care, ... I don't know... I am really struggling with trying to find the words to explain what I am thinking and what I mean... damn the alcohol.

Anyway... knowing that you feel as if I have touched your life in a positive way means a lot to me.

Keep in touch... I'll talk to you either late tomorrow night or Monday morning.

SigEp4U


Sexonthebrain4U 50M
36 posts
3/5/2005 1:41 am

Sounds like your first time wasn't what you had expected...sometimes when you build something up in your mind so much, it can be a letdown. But then again I've talked with more than a few women that said their first time wasn't anything to write home about. I must be a total horndog cuz my first time went pretty good. It was my freshman year in high school and while at a party I was talking with a girl I knew who liked me, and after a few beers she grabbed me by the hand and led me into one of the bedrooms and said to me that she wanted to lose her virginity. I told her that I was also a virgin and a 'little nervous", but yeah, I'd like that. Shit, my heart was pounding in my chest...lol! Needless to say that after about 30 seconds I quickly pulled out and came all over her tits, but much to my suprise my cock was still hard, so I stuck it back in and going nice and slow I began to work up a nice rhythm. We must of fucked for another half hour or so and she was really losening up and getting into it when I finally came again...it was wonderful! We laid there there in our "post coital bliss" and took in the moment. Unfortunately it didn't last long...the next day at school she came up to me with this big smile on her face and I totally blew her off. I could tell that I really hurt her, but like an asshole I was trying to be cool in front of my friends. I still feel bad about that cuz she was a really sweet girl who didn't deserve that, so even though the sex was really good, my first time will also have the memory of me being such a jerk to that poor girl...I wonder from time to time what she's up to now and what her memory of that night is like. Oh well........


mnfun952 102M

3/5/2005 5:30 am

What exactly makes you 'hot' about that? She just finished saying that it wasn't any big deal. Are you into that kind of thing? Really fast, no big deal sex? Now if what you meant was that you think SHE is hot because of her enthusiasm - watching porn and reading the Kama Sutra... well that's a different story and I would have to agree with you. In my book, enthusiasm is very important.


SigEp4U 42M

3/7/2005 12:10 pm

It actually makes a lot of sense to me... in a way I feel as if... the readers of my blog probably have a better idea of who I am... what I am thinking... how I feel then a lot of the people that I am around day in and day out.

I would bet that you know me better now then what any of my co-workers do... unless of course they are reading my blog... boy wouldn't that be freaky.

Anyway... I too look forward to reading your posts and am looking forward to getting to know you better.

Peace

SigEp4U


rm_bluegenes51 56M
245 posts
4/17/2005 11:32 am

Has nothing to do with your story, but it pisses me off when people misspell the contraction of the words, "you are"


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