Confession #3...  

LustyTaurus 48M  
12038 posts
7/19/2006 12:32 am

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Confession #3...

I believe in love...

Love is patient, Love is kind,
It does not envy, it does not boast,
It is not proud, It is not rude,
It is not self-seeking,
It is not easily angered,
It keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil,
but rejoices with the truth.

Love always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.

Love bears all things, believes all things,
hopes all things, endures all things.

Love never ends.

L o v e N e v e r F a i l s.


Corinthians 13 : 4 - 8

If you've been reading my blog, you know I've been having an exceptional time at home...and for the first time in a VERY, VERY long time...I'm feeling selfish and guilty for wanting to venture outside that.

Save for a few things I'd like to try, I have no reason to look anywhere else.

I don't know what the future holds...but at this moment I'm at peace with my world. I'm not longing for anything. I'm happy to walk into my home...to hug and kiss my sweetie, and spend time with my kids.

Up until this moment the risks seemed worth the rewards...now I'm not so sure.

You see, I really do believe in love...but I have to be willing to live it and give it too...unconditionally.


Happy Hump Day everyone.

UNSURETAURUS


waerlookin4fun 50M/46F

7/19/2006 1:30 am

I hope you don't feel guilty for long...as long as you love your wife and are true to her I don't see a problem with you being here. I'm married too and I love him with all my heart, but I can't expect one person to fulfill everything I need........and that's not saying I'm going to go after the first man who emails me, I just hope it still shows us as a couple


LustyTaurus replies on 7/19/2006 6:41 am:
I don't feel the least bit guilty about blogging..at all...I just don't know if I'm willing to follow through with a playmate now

absolutelynormal 56F
6563 posts
7/19/2006 3:10 am

I take she doesn't know that you blog? Would you be as happy as you are without blogging? I think blogging gives you permission to vent some, and perhaps that's one of the reasons you are happier. If you think you could get her to understand that you have friends here and that you've not strayed and this is helping YOU and by helping YOU it is helping HER too, I'd tell ob myself. The only draw back to that is that she may read your blog and if you need to vent about her.... Anyway, I'm glad you're here, happy for you that you're happy. Keep up the good work Mac


LustyTaurus replies on 7/19/2006 6:42 am:
No...this isn't about blogging, this is about hooking up with other people

JuicyBBW1001 54F

7/19/2006 3:14 am

Awww LT does this mean your leaving us too?? If you leave the place will not be as fun anymore. But I understand and if I had someone I loved I would certainly curtail my activities on this site but I think I would still blog.

Juicy


LustyTaurus replies on 7/19/2006 6:45 am:
I'm not even thinking about leaving the blogs...LOL...I'm totally OK with blogging. I just don't know if I will be willing to have sex outside my relationship now

sassy1296 51F

7/19/2006 3:18 am

Nothing to feel quility about. You have everything you need at home. If things are good, great even than you have it made. Enjoy it without the guilt and take full advantage of the time with the family. If your leaving us we will miss your blogs but at the same time feel greatful for your happiness.


LustyTaurus replies on 7/19/2006 6:46 am:
Hey Sassy...I don't feel guilty about blogging...I am starting to question what I am willing to do outside that now.

moonfire2u 69F
2602 posts
7/19/2006 4:45 am

I guess the question is what do you feel guilty about? Being on the adult site...looking for someone else to have sex with...I guess you first need to pinpoint what makes you feel guilty...also it could be that you started out doing one thing...like looking for sex...and that need changed because you are happy with what you already have...but you still enjoy the site...and what it has to offer...blogs, cyber flirtations, friends...you only have to go as far as you want to...

kind thoughts,
Moonfire


LustyTaurus replies on 7/19/2006 6:47 am:
That's the point of ths post..it isn't about me blogging or being here...it's about what I will do/won't do with the people I meet aas a result

sexyariesgirl 57F

7/19/2006 5:14 am

LT - I am SO happy for you darlin! I believe in love too....and I've found it. He knows I come here to read the blogs and to comment and to post. So I have the best of both worlds really. You seem to have found your answers sweetie....and I couldn't be happier for you! HUGGS.....

Power To FOK


LustyTaurus replies on 7/19/2006 6:49 am:
Hey Sexy...yes my sweetie knows about me and the site...although she doesn't participate in any way.

fantasylover_05 62M

7/19/2006 5:34 am

THAT IS FABULOUS Lusty!!!!

I can only hope and pray I find that too!!!

This is certainly inspiring for me to continue my fight to find the home life I have always wanted and one we ALL deserve!!

You see..... I too BELIEVE IN LOVE!!

Thank you my Friend!!


LustyTaurus replies on 7/19/2006 6:50 am:
I hope that for you too Fantasy...

rm_FreeLove999 46F
16127 posts
7/19/2006 6:24 am

i am glad you have rediscovered what it's all about with your wife. i do hope you will keep on blogging tho, as i hate it when bloggers i love reading leave... plus, i do suspect it is an outlet for you.



[blog freelove999]


LustyTaurus replies on 7/19/2006 6:52 am:
very much so Freelove...I guess I could have been more clear...I LOVE BLOGGING!!!!

I just don't know if I am willing to play outside my marriage in RL anymore without her knowing and supporting it.

rm_shannee2006 52F
3355 posts
7/19/2006 6:47 am

I'm so happy for you. Life is so grand when the ones we love feel good to be with isn't it! I agree with Free. I hope that you'll keep blogging

Yup...this juiciness is from me....

S


LustyTaurus replies on 7/19/2006 10:22 pm:
this is about RL..not blogging...but TY..

Kaliedascope61 41M
4084 posts
7/19/2006 6:52 am

Love is everything, it's what ties everything together.


LustyTaurus replies on 7/19/2006 10:22 pm:
Yeppers Kal...

multitasksextoy 58M  
3511 posts
7/19/2006 6:56 am

Only Lusty can decide what is good for Lusty.If you are satisfied that your motives are proper and your life fulfilled enjoy.


LustyTaurus replies on 7/19/2006 10:35 pm:
Thanks rawhide...

fortunaswm 61M/52F

7/19/2006 8:15 am

You da Man Lusty! Good for you. We ALL have our unfulfilled desires and as they naw at us we can weaken in our lust. But, to refocus on what is the more important priority and act on it is an attribute.
This will also ward off future guilt and worry. I know this all to well.
Perhaps you're not so CrAZy after all.

Hats off to ya my man!


LustyTaurus replies on 7/19/2006 10:37 pm:
Thanks fortun...I'm not sure things are necessarily settled for me but I am happy..

silverbreeze2 65F

7/19/2006 10:09 am

((( Sending BIG HUGS )))) to you! May you, your wife and kids have a wonderful and blessed life together. In the long run, all of you will be happier people. I love a happy ending!


LustyTaurus replies on 7/19/2006 10:37 pm:
thanks Silver..

rm_1sexyroo 56M/55F
333 posts
7/19/2006 10:16 am

Why worry today about what you may or may not do tomorrow or in the future? There will plenty of time to feel guilty about it after the fact if indeed you go "outside" to play.
Maybe, deep down in your heart, it's just the thought or the fantasy of having a playmate that is the exciting part and that's what causing the feelings of guilt? Just a thought....


LustyTaurus replies on 7/19/2006 10:38 pm:
that's a good thought and some truth in there for me..ty

canyaz 48F
17087 posts
7/19/2006 11:15 am

Wait! You have to have sex with other people to Blog in Blogville? I had no idea! Who does the verifying? How does it work. Your penalized for enjoying sex with your wife? Can I have sex with your wife? JK, I am straight, but it sounded funny.
Hey man congrats on finding a happy place with your wife! My husband and I went through a sexual rediscovery just last month and we have upped our time from 2 times a week to 6. It rocks. I am a nypho though, so he encourages me to play. Sometimes he joins in too. You can't have everything dude but love what you got!

There is a difference between a good BJ and a bad BJ.
canyaz


LustyTaurus replies on 7/19/2006 10:40 pm:
thanks for your thoughts canyaz...we'll get it figured out...

MamChelle 48F  
1443 posts
7/19/2006 12:23 pm

It is beautiful to read that a man loves his wife on a site like this. It gives ones like me who are afraid of love hope in the existance....hope in finding a man who may someday feel and say such things about myself..yanno? *smiles warmly and hugs You because i am glad to know there are really good men still in this world* c


LustyTaurus replies on 7/19/2006 10:42 pm:
wow Mam...that's a wonderful compliment. I do hope you find your love...

Phuc_Buddy 46M

7/19/2006 1:52 pm

Amen Brother I'll drink to that!


LustyTaurus replies on 7/19/2006 10:43 pm:
Thanks Buddy...I can too...

bbw4u06 50F

7/19/2006 2:33 pm

Its great when something clicks and makes it all right again. Have everything crossed for you Taurus, well not the eyes thats a little creepy LOL


LustyTaurus replies on 7/19/2006 10:44 pm:
...thankyou.

I'm at peace for now anyway...

TXBITCH2006 49F

7/19/2006 4:00 pm

Only you can come to terms with your own actions darlin'. I know I can't provide any guidance that may help you. Wish I could. I don't know anything about your situation or relationship with your wife. I've only been a member for a little while, so I don't know your history. I hope you don't take my comments as being insulting. I'm not meaning them to be. I just know I couldn't be unfaithful. Why? Because I could not, in any way, bring my significant other pain. I couldn't look them in the eyes after having been with somebody else. Some say..well, they know what I do and don't question it. Okay, so that means they know that I'm out with others having sex. How does that make them feel knowing I'm doing that? Does it chip away at their heart? Does it slowly tear them down? It certainly isn't going to bring them happiness, so why would I do that to them? How do I live life knowing I'm doing this to somebody I am supposed to love? I couldn't face my child either knowing what I'd done. What if my child finds out? How do I expect my child to respect me after this? What do I say when they ask me why I would hurt them that way? Do I say "I just needed a fuck"? How would I ever justify it to my child? I couldn't. I know many people can and are unfaithful. It's just not for me.

I wish you the very best darlin'. I know it's a hard thing you are dealing with. Good luck to you.


LustyTaurus replies on 7/19/2006 10:49 pm:
Thoughts are the precursors to actions...and I am no stranger to actions...thanks for sharing...

norprin5 55M

7/19/2006 8:09 pm

i know edzakry of what you speak, my brother

and listen, i'll betcha ol' PerkyTits doesn't mind at all that you're Lusty, so stop bein' Unsure

King Nor XVIII


LustyTaurus replies on 7/19/2006 10:50 pm:
I know you do my friend...thanks.

SacredStarDance

7/20/2006 3:23 am

happy for you.. sounds like you have found inner peace .. really does not matter how.. just enjoy

under the stars
We choose to write
you choose what you comprehend.
read twice and be nice
every key stroke... has a heart beat


LustyTaurus replies on 7/21/2006 11:35 pm:
yeah...I'll try to just appreciate it while it lasts...

a123rat 49M
1112 posts
7/20/2006 7:52 am

Ain't it funny, the grass is always greener on the other side. Until you mow your own yard, then it looks pretty good.


LustyTaurus replies on 7/21/2006 11:36 pm:
that's the truth rat...

meerkittykat 42F

7/20/2006 11:15 am

After reading some of your struggles in your previous blogging, this makes me so happy to read.

I am happy for you....so very happy.

Love does exist...it takes on many forms, some which burn brightly with violent, leaping flames, and some that simmer...smoulder...and are just waiting for that one spark to ignite.

Good luck, sweets


LustyTaurus replies on 7/21/2006 11:37 pm:
thanks Meer...that means a lot to me...

RevJoseyWales 69M/66F
14393 posts
7/20/2006 9:03 pm

"Ain't it cool?" John Travolta, "Broken Arrow". Remarkable how thing that were once so urgent now seem less important. Everyone must find their own way. You're finding yours. Joe

"McVeigh had the right idea, wrong address."

"This ain't Dodge City, and you ain't Bill Hickok."


LustyTaurus replies on 7/21/2006 11:38 pm:
It would seem so...thanks Joe.

florallei 99F

7/20/2006 9:21 pm

Hey Lusty,

How beautiful your discovery is...I am so happy for you...
flo


LustyTaurus replies on 7/21/2006 11:38 pm:
thankyou Flo...

curiousinlorain7 59F

7/21/2006 4:30 am

I'm immensely happy for you lusty!!! I don't know when monogamy turned into a synonym for monotony but it doesn't have to be. You are blessed if you can re-embrace your family and keep things at home. Blessings with that!


LustyTaurus replies on 7/21/2006 11:39 pm:
thankyou very much and no monogomy doesn't have to equal monotony.

duststormdiva 51F
6854 posts
7/21/2006 7:37 am

That was beautiful. My boyfriend only left his wife when he was totally sure that there was nothing left. He said if there was one ounce of love he would have stayed and fought for his marriage. It was dead and gone. Her loss, my gain.

DustStormDiva


LustyTaurus replies on 7/21/2006 11:40 pm:
I am day-vorced once myself..essentially the same thing

HBowt2 58F

7/22/2006 10:59 am

why would you want anything else....that's what you need to be asking...is it the thrill of the chase....the newness.....that first kiss....


rm_aWench4U 61M/61F
741 posts
7/22/2006 11:58 pm

LT,

Most relationships go through seasons--some good, some dry, and occasionlly, a great one. It sounds like you're in a good one right now, and I'm very happy for you. Probably when you came here you were in a dry season, which is why you were looking for something new. Now the season has changed, and you're seeing home in a new light. Go with it; celebrate it; cherish it. The season could change again at anytime and you'll need the memories of this good season to help you decide what you're going to do in the dry times. I wish you all the best. And, yes, I too believe in love.


Remember the past but do not dwell there.
Face the future where all our hopes stand.


~Angela


libgemOH 56M/52F

7/23/2006 5:28 am

"You see, I really do believe in love...but I have to be willing to live it and give it too...unconditionally."

You said it all!! -B


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