Needing something to put out my fire...  

LoyaltyandHonor 35M/31F
3114 posts
6/30/2005 6:30 am

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Needing something to put out my fire...

Perhaps some people are correct… I do still have feelings for her.

The first night I met her was pretty funny actually…

I was hauling a pallet down an aisle that she was working in and I had one of my cut-off shirts on. She saw me coming but literally just stood there and stared at my stomach and arms. I had to actually stop and ask her if she could step off to the side so I could get through. When she finally moved, she did not look at my eyes and just kept staring at my stomach. As she took a step back, she tripped over a box that was on the floor behind her! The poor girl fell flat on her butt… I reached down and grabbed her hand and then pulled her back up.

I have never in my life seen a woman turn so many different shades of red. She couldn’t look me in the eye and just said; “now that was graceful.”

Overall, she is a very strange gal.

Sometimes she speaks to me and other weeks just ignores me. The strangest thing was her saying hello to me the other night when she had a bunch of other cadets standing around her that she was about to go part*ing with.

I know I shall not do anything about how I feel because she is way to young and confused. She hates guy’s who cheat, yet all she does is party. Some people can party safely, but most guys my age can not do it without getting laid.

I know I want a child some day, and she has admitted that she does not want any children. This alone gives me more then enough of a reason to “not” pursue her.

She wants a rich husband so that she can stay home and be a housewife while he is working. This bothers me a great deal considering she does not want children. The truth is that she wants to be a housewife, and when she is done with household duties, she wants to be able to party the rest of the day.

As adults we are required to make choices…

It would be stupid and immature of me to pursue her now that I know all the things that I know. She desires a life that is totally different from the one in which I desire. That guarantees me that if we did date, it would not work out. Sure it might be great sex, but I care about more then just sex. Sure she may be literally the most beautiful woman I have ever seen, but she is only beautiful on the outside and I need a woman beautiful on the inside as well if I am to be able to spend my life with her.

I just wish I were not so crazy about her. In some ways I absolutely love her partying side. I do enjoy a girl who can let loose once and awhile and this also shows me she might have an interest in swinging (something I would like to try someday). The problem is though that all she likes to do is party. I am not a partying guy… and it is too dangerous to date her and hope she might change.

I do know that I have not felt what I feel for her with many other women.

Most women, all I desire is to make love to them.

With this girl though, I desire to flat out fu** her into total oblivion as well.

The facts she is capable of making me desire to both make love to her and to fu** her shows me just how much I care. I have only felt such a desire for two other women that I have ever met. Even looking at nude pictures does not make me horny… but just one look into her eyes and it lights a fire in me that has the fierceness of he** behind it. When a helpless romantic like me starts to get such feelings, it is a very clear message to us.

I am tired of being different though…

Most guys desire to fu** a woman before they desire to make love to her. For some reason I desire to make love to them before fu**ing them. I do not know why I am the reverse of most men.

I do hope that I meet a girl like me someday that make me feel what I feel for this one though. Seeing as though I have only felt this for 3 women in my entire life so far, I do not think it to be very possible.

LoyaltyandHonor 35M/31F
1241 posts
6/30/2005 4:05 pm

It is possible, but I do not want to risk having random sex with a girl. I don't believe in it, and will not even consider it an option.

angelcoed1980 36F

6/30/2005 2:01 pm

Women treat you like a ghost, hmmmmmmmm. All men treat me like a ghosst. I think it is very admirable for you to want to make love to a women before you just want to fuck her. Men just want to fuck me I have never had a man that just wanted to hold me or "make love" to me.

I do think that because you feel both these feelings for her means that you shouldn't just write her off. You may both think differently now but who knows what a couple dates, months, or maybe even years might bring about a change of mind.


LoyaltyandHonor 35M/31F
1241 posts
6/30/2005 10:24 am

Thank you m'lady. I hope you are right!

Women just treat me like a ghost though. I do not think that will ever change.

pussinboots4u 50M/47F

6/30/2005 10:14 am

Wow. Thanks mystic, and thanks for not taking offense to my pushing this subject with you. I really sensed that deep down you like her. I did read your other reply and read this post. I agree that since the case is that you do want different things that dating her would be a risk you would be taking. I understand that you do not want to date someone you couldn't possibly marry one day.

As for your wanting to flat out fuck her to oblivion and make love to her - well, that seems like true attraction!! Anyway - I think that you are realizing that while this girl is not the one for you - this type of girl is not out of the question.

This has been very interesting - these posts about her.

horneyangel1966 50F

6/30/2005 6:59 am

HI i think you are a fantastic guy and somewere there is someone for you who will be greatfull you are there for them all the best horneyangel1966

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